今天大家服侍我

平时不赖床不起床的我，今天被一阵疼痛来袭，马上清醒，但却不能马上起身。大概是近来压力大，再加上长时间面对电脑，在地铁里往往是低头族⋯⋯种种原因吧，我的颈项竟在睡醒的一刹那，扭到了。

完全不能转身，别说转身，连走路都痛。那一刻，我还真的好担心是不是伤到了哪里。还好，在男人的帮忙之下，我可以稍微活动。用了比平时多一倍的时间刷牙、洗脸、洗澡、上厕所、穿衣服⋯⋯反正就一个字，痛。

男人体贴的弄了早餐，然后陪我打车上班去。

在公司， 好多事情都做不了。连午餐都要靠同事们服侍，午餐啊、咖啡啊，都是别人送到我面前。疼痛来袭的时候，还有中医师（有位同事已把中医课程念完）帮我推拿。拿不到的东西，还要靠同事帮我拿。反正，差不多身边的所有人都得服侍我。很paise⋯⋯

但愿明天我的颈项可痊愈。

祈祷中⋯⋯

天生一对？

两个人在一起，最希望彼此天生一对，两人配合得天衣无缝。

可是，要创造天生一对的情侣不容易。

最好两人的性格一样
最好两人的家庭背景一样
最好两人的宗教信仰一样
最好两人的教育程度一样
最好两人的爱好一样
最好两人对未来的诠释一样
最好⋯⋯
最好⋯⋯

种种条件，要符合所有，几乎不可能。即使是双胞胎，都不可能如此相似，更何况是两个不同家庭长大的人。

结果，在一起的两个人，根本不可能是天生一对。只有努力培养，迁就，配合在一起的情人。成功的，就被誉为“天生一对”。失败的，只好因为“性格不合”而分手。

世上还有没有天生一对，恐怕我越是长大，越是不相信了。

Coffee Addict vs. Coffee Lover

我爱喝咖啡。

从大学开始，我天天早上一杯咖啡提神。大学时期，上课常常打瞌睡。早上那杯咖啡，好像救命恩人。不过哦，往往也救不了多少，两堂课之后，瞌睡虫还是找上门。有时候，一堂课还没有完，已经要钓鱼。

这个习惯一直延伸到今日，上班也一样喝咖啡。多数都在早餐时分喝。有时早餐喝，下午也喝。不过，都尽量控制在一天不超过两杯。不过，我最享受的是每个周末我自磨咖啡，好好享受周末。

男人不太赞赏我这个喝咖啡的习惯，不过，也没有极力阻止。近期，我却自己“良心发现”，或许，该戒一戒吧。不过，和卫斯理戒酒的道理一样，不是完全不喝，只是不要喝得太过分。既然以前是天天喝，我就戒成“不天天喝”就行。不过，周末自磨咖啡的享受，还是mandatory的。

说戒就戒，不喝咖啡真的不是什么大不了。我也没有头疼，没有流眼泪。生活一切照常。爱喝的时候，还是会喝，只是不天天喝。哈哈哈！

In my own defense, 我是爱喝咖啡，并没有咖啡瘾 (^_^)

五年了

2007年的今天，我懵懵懂懂地走进这间办公室。这样懵懵懂懂，也过了五年！

想当初，真的懵懵懂懂。推却了脚车公司的合约，一头栽进美国公司。不到半年，老板告诉我他要走了（只是被调去其他部门，没有离开），我傻傻的问他，“那我怎么办？”当时我的portfolio不清不楚，不是不慌忙的。

后来，一路跌跌撞撞，不是没有失败过，也不是没有气馁过。还好，世上的好人比坏人多，我总算在两年多后，有个像样的portfolio。

从小小的一个团队，五年后的今天，我们出外吃午餐是何等庞大的阵仗。现在，我觉得工作就是热热闹闹，开开心心。没事的时候，闹一闹，认真起来合作感觉也比较拼。问我工作如何？公司不过不失，就是同事之间开心，让我觉得工作还是挺开心的。我很幸运，人家说离开校园以后很难再有好朋友，我还是认识了一班疯疯癫癫的好同事，好朋友。

有后悔推辞脚车公司吗？没有。我根本不知道我失去的是什么，后悔也没有用。我也没有后悔当初挨过经济最低靡的时候，现在才能继续快快乐乐工作。

五年了，接下来是什么呢？

Running in The Rain

Sundown Marathon 2012 is my first marathon in the midnight. When I signed up for this, I didn't know the timing will be this crazy. The past 4 years, I think the race started around 10pm and I thought that was acceptable.

But no, this year they've decided to change to 12.30am. I was shocked, needless to say. But I was excited too, to have a first run at midnight.

For the whole week, it started to pour at night. I was praying hard that it won't happen to us when we're running our half marathon. But clearly the sky didn't hear my prayers (As if I even had one), and it was pouring rain when I entered my 18km.

When it started to drizzle, I ran with my head down, thinking "Shit, I have to get to the finishing line asap." But after a while, I said to myself "What the heck! I'm wet anyway".

I've always been secretly wanting to walk in the rain, without umbrella. Now here I am, running a half marathon in the rain. My dream came true! The only worry I had at that time was my iPhone, but my pouch proved it worth the price that I paid.

I can't describe how beautiful the rain was when I looked up and just let the raindrops falling onto my face. I wish I had a camera to capture the moment.

I didn't regret a single moment that I signed up for this race. I might even considering this for next year :)

Up in the Air

Have you ever let something hang in the air, in between, not spoken, but understood?

Sometimes, I wish I could have just break the unspoken, but I guess, it's for the best.

It's for the best to remain.

Unspoken.

Forever.

French Breakfast

Taken with iPhone and edited on photography apps

Woke up 6.40am this morning to cook breakfast.

Incredible isn't it? I woke up much earlier than I normally do on weekdays. And what I did? Just making breakfast, and enjoyed it together with the Man. And when he set off to work, I turned on the laptop that had been in rest for a few days and started surfing as usual.

It's wonderful sometimes, to wake up early, having some extra time that I don't usually have.

Now, I'll just be waiting for my laundry, listening to Adele in Royal Albert Hall. Maybe, some yoga practice later.

Have a nice weekend ahead peeps!

Oh, by the way, it's really kinda French breakfast that I cooked. It's not a typical French breakfast the French will have. (At least not what I observed when I traveled to France) I named it French breakfast because, I learned the omelet from "French Food at Home", the toasts were French baguette. And the toasts were supposed to go along with the canned food that I bought from France last October :)

Emptiness

I have not been turning on my laptop for a few days, I guess it was two or three days. And I came home every night, disciplined myself to shower. Then, I sunk myself into the beanbag, picked up Lone Wolf to read.

Jodi Picoult is the only author that hasn't failed to make me cry in her every single book. Mind you, every single one. I remember reading Songs of Humpback Whale on my way to the States, crying through most of the part that made the guy beside me looking at me curiously most of the time. (I tend to cry even more easily on the plane. Why is that so?) Then, to make the matter worse, I read Sing You Home on my way back to Singapore for the same trip.

Currently, she is the only author I don't miss any single of her new release. Of course, my sister too. We're suckers for her book!

I hate it when I finished her books. I wish I have something that is as good as her books to read on. But it's hard to come by. Sometimes I wish to read her book slowly, so that the feeling of "emptiness" doesn't come so soon. But somehow, I just continue flipping through the pages. And sometimes didn't even realize it was already past midnight.

Today, I decided I should go to Kinokuniya to look for something good. It's just been one morning without a good book, and I've already felt empty.

延续生命

朋友生了一个女孩，今天中午收到她的短讯，那个小小的女婴包在厚厚的被里。我不怎么会看婴儿，总是看不出像爸爸还是像妈妈。别人说什么，就什么吧。是替她开心的，两母女健健康康，安安全全就是好事。

为什么要生小孩？为什么要组织家庭？其实，至今是我摸不着头脑的问题。或许你认为我出生在幸福家庭，应该对拥有一个家庭挺向往的，可是却偏偏不。我不过介于不排除，也不特别向往。坐在墙上。

以前我天真地认为大家大体上也是如此，原来不。有些朋友，真的很想要有自己的孩子。也有很抗拒的。

如果我有个孩子，她一定是女孩。我要把我的多愁善感，我的欢笑，我的眼泪，交给她。爱笑的人，也很爱哭。哭笑都是感情的一种抒发，我一点都不反对。她要爱旅行，我要叫她爱上雪山，我要叫她在旅途认识更多有趣的人。她最好是个摄影师，是个作家，抑或是画家。充满热忱的那种。

其实，生孩子是不是为了延续生命？ 我还是摸不着头脑。

杂想

终于回到家了。

家里一切还是一样，还是一样一尘不染，还是一样舒服。永远不会肚子饿，也永远不想离开。妈妈真的持家有道。

近来忙得很，没有好好把思绪整理，更甭想把他们写下，结果，一团糟。

朋友要宴请，我问她，你会不会请A君、B君、C君⋯⋯都是多年不见，失去联络多时的朋友。但是，都是曾经的好朋友。答案往往是不知道。其实，也不过想借机会知道，到时候的我，又该怎么办。

曾经，我定下的“条规”是如此，一年或更久不见面不联络的朋友，就不用请了。不过，更深一层地想，这个定下的条规一点都行不通。好像，太不近人情了⋯⋯以我们的生活步伐，其实，好多朋友，都是一年或以上都不联络的。

后来，我定下了所谓“更理想的条规”。列下一个宴请名单，每个名字，都想一想这个问题。

“如果，‘大吉利是’某某君有天离开人世，你会如何？”
A非常惋惜
B伤心，后悔当初没有更常联络
C非常伤心，大哭一场，恨他为什么就这样离开⋯⋯

如果你选C，我看这位朋友，你还是请吧。（当然，有更多不同的反应，不过是举个例子，请自己衡量）

有些人，即使你不联络，可能三年、五年，你永远关心他。从别人的口中得知他的消息，你还是为他开心，衷心祝福他。这种朋友是缘分吧，或许见面的时间不多，但是，有些人有些事，并不用时间来衡量。

我没有名单，可是我知道，我有这样的一些朋友的存在。

你呢？