That creepy old thing!

It's getting on my nerve because

I can't seem to control my appetite for potato chips.

I can't seem to control my appetite for hot and sour food.

I can't seem to control my mood.

Mood swings and crazy appetite!

Sigh...

Blogging from T3

This is the first time, I depart from T3. It's going to be a long flight, I have been trying not to think about it but... It's really a BLOODY long flight.

Just by going through my itinerary, made me feel tired. I know it's just a short 2 weeks trip in the States, but maybe there's too much in my mind, I have been having difficulties to let go of my thoughts.

I've been travelling alone lots of time since I work, for work or leisure, but I do not know why, this is just a little bit different. I hope everything will go on well.

Wish me luck!

看见小时候的我们

昨天晚上，我和毓豪到SCO捧他朋友的场。这一次，是SYCO的演出。全场都很不错，尤其那位15岁吹唢呐的小弟弟，看样子，他将来必定成才。

音乐会的其中几首曲子，是快节奏的。有位打木琴的小男生，完美地打完一段跑音以后，对自己会心的满意的微笑。我仿佛看见N年前的自己。以前，我们也一样。完美地奏玩一首歌以后，满意的笑。或者，更极端点，到后台抱头痛哭。

小时候，就是如此。一切喜形于色。

我看见那小男孩，仿佛看见了我自己⋯⋯

对自己说

放手吧，何必执着？

Virtual Chats

Can't deny the fact that internet has brought us lots of convenience in communication. We can always keep in touch with friends, anywhere anytime.

However, it does hit me hard when some people are rather irresponsible in what they chose to say in these virtual chats. How can you say something to a person, sarcastically and tell them him/her in the next second that you don't mean it, that you're just joking. And you drop a "lol"!

Please don't say something and then say you didn't mean it. What do you expect from the receiver? If you don't mean it, please don't say it. Especially in virtual world where I can't see your expression, and I really can't tell the difference between jokingly and seriously.

Please don't take the convenience of internet for granted.

That is why, one should never ever confessed by chatting. You see, you'll never know if this is serious.

Still Alive & Kicking

So, here's the story of how a poor caterpillar accidentally came to FA lab.

One fine day, this poor fella fell on the wrong person at the wrong time. It fell on the shirt of a technician specialist in my lab and followed him back to the lab. When he found it, he felt disgusted and threw it into the the dustbin.

But the lab is full of sympathetic girls and women. They decided to pick it up from the dustbin, and kept inside a glass bottle.

Knowing our nature of job... We immediately "inspected" the caterpillar under the microscope! I got to tell you, it was rather interesting!!! Hahaha... But I told my friend, it is only cute when it's in the bottle. I don't want to have any contact with it.

I tried to feed it with leaves but it refused to eat any of them. My colleague thought it was too stressed out because of the way we handled it. I thought it wouldn't make it through the day and I will have an extra SEM specimen. I even googled "How to SEM insects" when I got home.

The next day, the first thing I looked for in the lab, is this poor fella. To my surprise, my operator told me it's still alive!! And it turned into a cocoon!!

A cocoon in my lab! How cool was that?!

Then suddenly, I have a whole new thing to do with this caterpillar. Instead of SEM it. I decided to keep it alive until the end of metamorphosis.

So, I gave it a big and comfortable house.
Like this :)

I hope it hasn't turned into a butterfly or moth yet, because we haven't been around for two days for weekend. Hope it's still in a cocoon and we will have the chance to witness it's transformation!

We kept a caterpillar in the lab as pet!

How cool is that! :)

It was Stressful

过去几天，日本的天灾实在恐怖。地震、海啸，再来个power plant melt down。机场关闭，交通瘫痪。不管那个新闻网，都在报道。

好多人都知道毓豪和朋友在日本度假。纷纷问我他在日本如何。说真的，周五早上看见新闻，还是吓了一跳。幸得他所在的地方有wifi，向我报了平安，我也安心。

他们是很幸运的。原本这趟日本之行，包括东京。后来，他跟朋友说我很想去东京，这次还是去北海道好了。当初听了当然很高兴，现在更觉得幸运的不得了。北海道之行，他们到Hakodate去。离开以后，Hakodate淹水了。真的，上天保佑。

今天，我从早上都没有他的音讯。心里焦急。虽然昨天已知道一切安好，可还是情不自禁地担心起来。一直在查Haneda机场的讯息，八点钟发现他的班机不会延迟，稍感安慰。电话一响，我就紧张。可每次都不是他。直到晚上10点。

我从来没有这么不安。或许因为昨夜梦见海啸侵袭特别不安宁。或许网上的新闻真的搞到我心煌煌。这种感觉一点都不好受。

所幸，他已经上了飞机。明早6点，就会抵达新加坡。

我大可安心睡觉。

放假了！不是我⋯⋯

男人放假了，在开始新的生活之前，到日本北海道好好玩一场。

好多人都问我为什么不跟他一起去？原因有几个。其一，本小姐的假每年都不够用。另外，他们四个男人打算疯疯狂狂，我出现了难免有点扫兴。他们不方便，我也不方便。所以干脆点，把假期留下，到别处去玩。

我们两个，总是各有个精彩。旁人不能明白，我也不明白为什么别人不明白⋯⋯不过，真的没有什么不好。我们总有很多故事告诉对方。

趁单身，玩够他一场！所以，他会玩得开开心心的。（所以我近年来很放肆，妈妈问我忙什么，忙着玩！）

纵使如此，回来难免觉得空荡荡。屋里多了一份清静。寂寞开始了。

明天，谁叫我醒⋯⋯

When Everything Seems Right

There's nothing wrong with my life.

I have a job, happy with it.
I have a place to stay, even though it's just a rented place, but I'm happy with whom I stay with.
I have Yee Hau, family and friends when I need them.

When I look around, really, there's nothing wrong.

But did you ever have the feeling, when nothing seems wrong, it feels nothing's right too?

I don't really know how to describe the feeling. But that's exactly how I feel. Let's just call it quarter life crisis, which I always seem to have.

Life's like a party since December last year. Parties, gatherings, travel, celebrations, stay-over etc. After all these came to an end, coming into a quiet March, I actually feel, empty.

Where is the passion?
Where are the dreams?
Where are my determinations?

It's time to think, again.

Friends

Watching "How I Met Your Mother" makes me missing my gang!

You guys know who you are :)

*hugs*