Post-CNY syndrome

I guess the post-cny syndrome is still taking on me. I couldn't stop rotting and I hadn't started a single word of my report since morning.

I have to start now!!!!

Crack my head!!!!

The Pursuit of Happyness

It's the saddest movie by Will Smith by far. I have never seen him in such serious movie before. I knew him since he played a role in "Fresh Prince of Bel Air" which makes you laugh non-stop! All I can remember of Will Smith is "Men in Black", "Bad Boyz", thrilling movies, but not the serious and sad movie like this.

The story itself is inspired by true story of Chris Gardner. It's painful to see the father suffer to make a living, to provide the son education and a place to stay. But the relationship between the father and son touches your heart so much, that you actually want the father to get the job, to be able to make a living.

No wonder Smith was nominated for the main actor in Oscar, he deserves the nomination. It's a good movie, so watch this.

The Lake House

Keanu is soooo Handsome! Ok, I think you've got the point, that I like Keanu quite a lot, just because of his look. But, the bad thing about him is, he's not a good actor. However, his handsome face will just distract you from his bad acting. Agree?

This is just a so-so love story. Keanu and Sandra (I like her very much too!) fell in love, but there's a distance of two-years apart. They keep in touch via short letters that they left for each other everyday at the mailbox.

The best part of the movie is waiting. How two people in love, and wait for each other, to have a chance to see each other in their real life. I guess I'll read "Persuasion" by Jane Austen, that's the favourite book of Sandra in the movie, it's a story about waiting too.

I prefer seeing two of them in the all-time-favourite, "Speed".

About the rating of this movie, well, like I said, it's a so-so movie, you won't lose anything if you didn't watch this. But watch it if you like both of them, Keanu and Sandra! Hehehe...

Batman Begins

I have to admit that I'm a little bit slow in watching movies. Going to cinema for every single movie is soooooo un-affordable, buying DVD in Malaysia is obviously a better choice to watch movies but I'm in Singapore most of the time. That is why, I was slow.

Ying Ying, Khai Lin, Ah Ku and me went to shop for DVD at Batu Ferringi the other day and 4 of us spent total RM160 on DVDs alone!!!Hahahaha!!! I managed to watch a few movies before coming to Singapore.

The first one I watched is Batman Begins. I know it's a little bit too late. But this is really good! Better than Spidy. (En's going to kill me for this), and it's relatively better than the George Clooney Batman. Anyway, I still think Michael Keaton played the best Batman ever, though it's a little bit old to mention about it right now, the younger generation like my brother might not know who the hell is Michael Keaton, but I think he's the best Batman!

I like Batman because he's not that heroic, at least not 100%. He has the grey spots, in between good and bad. I guess this is the reality right, no one is 100% good in nature.

恢复正常

春节的庆祝告一段落，我也再次回到我新加坡的房里，尝试恢复正常。把报告给赶完，把书念好。今早到新加坡，感觉很累，可能因为身体不是太舒服，再加上在巴士上睡得不好，整个人有点昏眩。

刚刚把家里打扫一番，洗了澡。正等待头发干透，想睡个觉。很累……

我的报告赶得完吗？现在有点害怕……糟糕了！

春节

佳节的意义，在于团聚。这个春节，虽然很累，但是，很充实。印象中，这应该是我最忙碌的一年。家人和亲戚的团聚、好朋友的团聚、老同学的团聚、华乐团战友们的团聚，完全占据了我新年的时间。但是，一切都是值得的。

家人篇亲戚篇

好朋友篇

老同学篇
华乐团篇

My Brain Colour

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

新春快乐！

再多一天，我就可以上路回家去！好想过新年啊！每一次新年，家里总是特别热闹。朋友的聚会也特别多，今年更多！已经迫不及待了，干活的心情都没了……

槟城的亲戚朋友们，我就快回来啦！等等我！

新年快乐！
万事如意！
事事顺利！
身体健康！
学业进步！
恭喜发财！
心想事成！
马到成功！
八星报喜！
一帆风顺！
财源广进！

猪年行大运啊！

音乐会（三）——冯少先

我原想按照次序，但是，说实话有一些音乐会的印象也比较模糊，加上中四、中五所参与的音乐会不计其数，我都忘了……所以，干脆按照自己的喜好写，当然，就是冯少先的音乐会了！

我至今仍记得那场音乐会演出的曲目

1. 北方民族生活素描
2. 黑土歌
3. 算盘
4. 创业
5. 百万雄师过大江
6. 莽式空齐
7. 跑南海
8. 安歌——拉德斯基进行曲

我可以向你保证，你从来没有经历这么一场精彩的音乐会！无论是表演、舞台、音乐感，都是一流的音乐人才可以带给观众的欢乐！我无法一一形容，因为，这是真的非笔墨所能形容的。（我很讨厌用这句话，但是，除此之外，我别无选择！）

还记得“渔歌”过门的八个音符，让我陶醉的无法自拔，完全忘我。就连轮到扬琴了，我都还是呆呆得看之眼前的冯少先，未能相信，这八个音符来自我眼前的那把月琴。那八个音符，悠悠的，感觉很遥远，感觉就像一艘渔船在水面上漂浮……“冬猎”的气氛，紧张得很，感觉就像老虎正向我扑来！

“算盘”，说了你不信，整首歌分成喜怒哀乐，形容一位商人的情绪。而冯少先，仅仅用几个算盘，就在那儿表演。说有音乐吗？我不知道。节奏是有的，但是，冯少先这位非常即兴的音乐家，经常都是临时改谱，他今天爱怎么玩，就怎么玩。所以，我对算盘的音乐没什么印象。但是，却对这个表演的印象非常深刻。他一身古装的打扮，坐在台前，从头到尾，七情上面，挽着不同的算盘，表演着喜怒哀乐。最后，他赚钱了（乐），向指挥（顺有）讨吉利，老师便从口袋掏出个大红包交给他。红包一打开，是一张张真钞啊！在那一刻，我们手里也握这个小算盘，不停的配合节奏。背后的唢呐，传来了快乐的笑声。

更让人无法忘怀的，便是黑土歌。还记得冯少先第一次讲黑土歌的故事，我听的泪眼汪汪，很感动！我还记得，冯少先一直让我们在歌曲的最后部分，“痛苦的嘶喊！”，发挥所有情绪。但是，我们总是好含蓄，每一次的练习，都让冯少先失望。直到演出当晚，我们用着晚餐的时候，我们决定了，要豁出去，把最好的都给演出来。就在嘶喊的那一刻，我们全体起立，完全发泄了我们的情绪，引来了如雷的掌声与赞赏！

那场演出，距离今天已经好几年了。别说我这个演出者，就连观众（姐姐和爸爸）仍是经常把这场精彩的音乐会挂在嘴边，声称那是最精彩的演出。这位全面的音乐家，从月琴、柳琴、中阮、三弦等弹弦乐器，到拉弦的二胡、京胡、板胡、高胡，甚至于各个吹管与敲击乐，没有一样是他不拿手的乐器。每每练习看着他在乐室里转啊转的，教导着我们，心理何止感激与钦佩那么简单？

自从随着顺发顺有到哈尔滨探望冯少先后，我更想念他，还有他儿子——冯满天。他俩的随行演出、冯满天的中阮摇滚乐，是多么的精彩。除了精彩，还是精彩！顺发形容，我当时的眼神，像是有光一样！完全未能按耐着心里的兴奋！

顺有说，今年、今年一定把他俩父子请来……

情人节

情人节并非只是情人的节日。
It is a day, to give and to receive.
情人节快乐！

Feeling Nostalgic

Where are the good old days that I used to enjoy?
Where are the memories?
Where are the friends?
Where are the feelings?

Not having any particular memory or story in my mind, just simply feeling nostalgic.

Probably I am stressed to my yielding point now, I'm tired, I'm feeling confused...

~Thank You~

It's such a wonderful gathering to see everybody, enjoying at the BBQ. Planning for the BBQ is not an easy task, nor it is difficult. The important thing is we get to see all of us enjoying each other's company for the evening.

I do not know how long will this friendship last, I am not able to predict how long will we keep in touch, but the long lasting moment of the gathering will always stay in my heart.

I have faith, that we're true friends, which the friendship will last forever and ever...

I felt like hugging all of you when you said goodbye and left, but I didn't maybe because I felt embarrassing to have such thought. Maybe I'll give you all a hug hug when we meet again for another fantastic gathering.

The best thing of the gathering is---- we didn't have to pay for it! Hahahahaha!!!Yahoooooo!!!!!~~ The working seniors paid for us, EVERYTHING!

音乐会（二）——凯旋冬飞

凯旋冬飞那年，我初三。 那时的扬琴组一团混乱，谁是第一把扬琴，谁是第二把，似乎永远没有答案。在音乐会前不久，才被老师逼得没办法，硬着头皮乱排一场。现在想起，当时的我们真是一塌糊涂。

凯旋冬飞的重头戏是“黄河扬琴协奏曲”。当时请来了瞿建青，她的教导确实让我这黄毛丫头开窍了不少。虽然觉得“黄河扬琴协奏曲”很不错，但是还是比较喜欢原版的钢琴。钢琴的共鸣，小小的扬琴怎么能够相比？

凯旋冬飞的意义，是人生的第一次。第一次参与音乐会、第一次在槟州大会堂演出、第一次和大师合作、第一次尝试被老师严厉要求（还有点苛刻）的滋味、也是一次让我学习如何从混乱中生存。

为什么说老师的要求很苛刻？这件事情我印象太深刻了……那一次，乐谱管理刚刚把黄河的乐谱从店铺里带回来。乐谱分发下来都是热热的，老师就说：“黄河，第四乐章”。那时，我都还不知道黄河究竟有几个乐章！翻开一看，哇！A调！速度忘了，但是听过黄河的人都知道第四乐章是充满希望的“保卫黄河”，音乐轻快有力。我竟然可以把旋律都给弹了出来，但是结果还是被老师臭骂一顿。老师以前的作风，就是骂完就走，我们也只好一直很努力练习……

凯旋冬飞的演出不怎么样，但是，我就是记得一些无关重要的细节。例如，一群黑衣的“小孩”在礼堂外吃鸡饭……那鸡饭的味道怎么突然迎面而来？！

音乐会（一）——飞天

我知道，我还有一个“有故事的歌”才写了一个“大会堂演奏厅”。但是，脑海里突然想起一些音乐会的点点滴滴，不得不在部落里和大家分享。

我和姐姐的年龄相差了7岁，在她热衷于华乐的时候，我才是一个念小学的小瓜。姐姐对我的影响，是这么的大！她所听的歌，她看的戏， 她买的书，是陪伴我长大的一切。甚至包括了她的朋友，也都是我熟悉的人与名。 喜欢华乐，也是因为我自小就往华乐室串。在华乐室里，我深受欢迎，没有多少人记得我的名字，但是我就是出了名的“盈盈的妹妹”，满足了我自小爱现的性格。

不知道为什么，打从我第一次观赏华乐音乐会开始，我就很喜欢扬琴。或许扬琴是最靠近观众，最引人注意的乐器。扬琴总是很大架势地摆在舞台中央，扬琴手的脸也永远向着观众。大概这些，也满足我爱现的性格，所以在我还是小学生的时候，我就想弹扬琴。

飞天音乐会，是我小时候印象最深刻的一场音乐会。虽然日新国中华乐团并非什么著名的乐团，但是，那场音乐会的飞天，带给了我很美好的画面。我对飞天的意义全然不知，我看不见仙女升天的画面，却看见自己仿佛走在秋天落叶满地的小径。身旁空无一人，只有我，还有无边无际的树，还有蓝蓝的天……这种感觉，大概也有点成仙的感觉吧！所以，大姐，你们还是很成功的！哈哈哈！

至今我所参与或观赏的音乐会说多不多，说少也不少。我会为你们介绍我所印象深刻的一些，最经典的一刻。

为什么？

很复杂，最近每样事情都很复杂。让我觉得，做人好难，做好人更难。你想为别人着想，但是他人未必考虑相同的事情。反而，还可能反咬你一口。

朋友说，你是时候发脾气了。我是一个很有脾气的人，但是，有时候对着某些人，脾气就是说什么也发不出来。比如，对着一些很软弱，很脆弱的人，又或者是我不熟悉的人。前者，我认为我发了脾气以后，他或许会受不了，是女的还有可能会哭。后者呢，反正都不熟悉，浪费我的力气！

你烦我不烦吗?！别在因为你烦而烦我！

Murray Perahia

I've been a little bit obsessed by the songs that played by this pianist. Been playing the songs in my MP3 again and again and again when I study in library, when I have experiments in the lab, when I walk to school, when I wait for bus, when I...

Check out his profile here.

(Thanks to Dajie's friend, SH for the recommendation ^^)

Good and Bad day

My gold coated iron particles synthesis has been delayed for quite some time, due to many unforseen circumstances, including today. I do not understand why the system is so rigid with no flexibility and "人情味" at all. All I need is 5ml of the hydrogen tetrachloroaurate... That's all I asked for. But NO! At the end, my mentor has to come to the lab and beg for the chemicals from another nicer researcher. Troublesome eh... I didn't know the school hire my mentor to do such work also, what a waste of money!

And so... I ended my morning feeling bad and cursing the school. But I hate this feeling! I decided to get rid of my habit of cursing things when "unforseen circumstances" always happen. I really have to change! So people out there, please remind me whenever I complain too much again.

By the time we've got the precious 5ml that costs the school SGD7, it's already 3pm. I wasted my morning and afternoon in the school walking around in the empty lab dreaming, and zombie-ing. Worse still, I have to delay my synthesis again.

However, a call from a company that I've applied to ligthened up my day. It's a research based company, which claims to be one of the top 7 private nanotechnology companies in Asia. The person has arranged an interview for me next Tuesday. I'm looking forward for it. It's an R&D job which is more related to my studies. I hope this will be a good and successful one so that I don't have to suffer with job hunting anymore. Better still, once I have my starting date set, I can plan my holiday ahead with my sister, my friends and yee hau! YEAH!!!

Da jie... Pray for me so that we can enjoy in China on June!!!!

Entertainer

曾经期待的电话铃声……

在那个没有true tone的年代，拥有手机就更别说了。那手机，是石媛的吧。悠悠的记得，铃声响起，姐妹们就起哄，是谁的电话？羞涩、甜蜜、温馨总参杂在空气中。

一段初恋，一场音乐会。

因为没有手机，每晚他总摇电话到石媛的手机号，向在吉隆坡准备音乐会的我问好。是每晚吧？我也忘了。每晚聊天的习惯还是没改，但是也不一定是必要。就比如我人在北京的时候，电话费超贵！每晚的“列行公事”也就减少了。

其实我差点忘了这首曲子。直至我发现原来它藏在电脑里的某个角落（非常正常之事，音乐的文件夹有6GB那么大），把它收藏在MP3里，才想起那短暂初恋。

其实他也对这首歌的意义全然不知，因为我几乎忘了，所以从没提过。反正情人节礼物还没准备，不如把曲子改为铃声送给他吧！（呵呵！好便宜的礼物哦！^^)

（PS 今天起，新年歌先暂搁一边，是时候播放情歌，就从这首另类的情歌开始。）

让我们向快乐的音乐翩翩起舞~

寂静

无声·无言

激昂澎湃的钢琴曲目，一首一首地、反复地在播着。对着密密麻麻的笔记，我没有心思。心中反反复复地反思，一些不重要的事情。

抬头望着密密麻麻的学生，在图书馆里优游自在地。

我的世界突然没有了杂音。这就是我喜欢游泳的一个原因吧，更喜欢第一次在热浪岛snorkeling的感觉。没有杂音，没有所有没必要的说话。因此想潜水，却克服不了“大白鲨”的影子。

我的四周还是没有声音。只有我的心跳、只有Murray Perahia的琴声。如果不用说话，就不会引起这些不必要的误解。

一张嘴巴，传达的是快乐？是烦躁？是误会？是谣言？是绯闻？是讯息？这一刻，我情愿不说话。你也别再说了。

我再也不想有怨气。

你忽略了你的妻子吗？

本想一面吃麦当劳，一面看日剧。但是一打开，天啊！没有翻译字幕，我只听懂几个单词。完全不懂荧幕上的人们再说什么。Wakaranai！！

没法子，日剧是看不下去了。我就一如往常打开一些部落，看一些新闻。在雅虎新闻就让我看见了这篇报道，觉得甚是有趣。但是再深一层的想，其实，是挺悲哀的。报道是叙说着一些日本男人，虽然娶了个老婆，但从来都没有真正了解自己的太太。因为，他们工作忙碌，回家只是为了吃饭、洗澡和睡觉。在这个离婚当吃饭的年代，离婚妇女已经不再像以前面对那么多社会的压力。日本的离婚率也因此提高。试想想，那个女人要有个如此的丈夫？很多男人退休后，过着孤零零的生活。女人也一样，在结婚的日子，也一样孤零零。这样子的婚姻，倒不如分手？

其实，是事业重要？还是生活重要？还是金钱？实在是很难衡量。但愿我知道如何得到平衡点。

在这里分享一则小故事。

Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl "Will you marry me?"

The girl said, "NO!"

And the girl lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing, camping, drank martinis, always had a clean house, never had to cook, did whatever the hell she wanted, never argued, didn't get fat, travelled more, had many lovers, didn't save money, and had all the hot water to herself.

She went to the theatre, never watched sports, never wore fricken lacy lingerie that went up her ass, had high self esteem, never cried or yelled, felt and looked fabulous in sweat pants, and burped, swore, and farted all the time.

THE END

Is Chocolate Poisonous to DOGS?

I read this on Scientific American. I just knew that there is a saying that chocolate is poisonous to dogs. I wonder if I ever fed a dog with chocolate...... Sorry if I had.Anyway, bigger dogs can take a small amount of chocolate. I hope I had given to bigger dogs instead of the smaller ones. ^^

Theobromine is the chemical that causes the reverse effect on dogs. Not just dogs, cats too. Despite of the name, the chemical actually contains NO BROMINE. Weird thing, why do people named it this way. In human, theobromine helps to improve our mood. (I guess that's why chocolate is a popular present on V day) But in cats and dogs, they metabolize theobromine more slowly, and causes the so called "theobromine poisoning". And, dark chocolate or unsweetened chocolate contain larger quantity of this chemical.

Oh anyway, don't think that chocolate do no harm to human body at all. It's believed that theobromine causes prostate cancer.

张学友——在你身边

张学友——在你身边

没错，我是张学友的歌迷。但是，热情度渐渐随着岁月而减低，已经再也不是第一个到唱片行抢购的小娃。（那疯狂的日子……）

我还没有购买最新专辑，也还没有下载。我甚少下载他的歌曲，皆因我几乎收藏了所有的专辑，没有全部，但至少最好听得都有了。最新专辑有点让人失望，主打歌“好久不见”虽然听起来不错，但嫌商业味有点儿重。全专辑最有味道的，就是“但愿人长久”。截然不同的旋律，让张学友唱出完全不同的味道。

我还是比较喜欢他的粤语歌。

随意搜索相关的新闻，才知道张学友那么多年的老搭档——欧丁玉已经抛弃了张学友。张学友独自挑起这个制作人的担子。不怪得……我想，学友他还是得好好学习吧！那么多年以来由欧丁玉为他打造的唱片，还是比自己的好。

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The Eating Test

I clicked along the way like what I do usually. And I found this test, very accurate too!

The Eating Test

Here is the analysis:

You are generally a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner or when you and your friends are dancing. Your friends mean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over.

You like art, and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually, and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You sometimes get jealous of people who are smarter or better looking than you, but you wouldn't hold it against them if you got to know them. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they annoy you once in a while. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.

Working Style

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This is my results of the test. ^^

Your Working Style

You are enthusiastic innovators, always seeing new possibilities and new ways of doing things. You have a lot of imagination and initiative for starting projects, and a lot of impulsive energy for carrying them out. You are stimulated by difficulties and are most ingenious in solving them. You can get so interested in your newest project that you have time for little else. Your energy comes from a succession of new enthusiasms and your world is full of possible projects. Your enthusiasm gets other people interested too.

You see so many possible projects that you sometimes have difficulty picking those with the greatest potential. Your feeling can be useful at this point to help select projects by weighing the value of each. Your feeling judgment can also add depth to the insights supplied by your intuition.

Your feeling preference shows in a concern for people. You are skillful in handling people and often have remarkable insight into the possibilities and development of others. You are extremely perceptive about the attitudes of others, aiming to understand rather than judge people. You are much drawn to counseling and can be inspired and inspiring teacher, particularly where you have freedom to innovate. With talent, you can succeed in almost any field that captures your interest-- art, journalism, science, advertising, sales, the ministry, or writing, for example.

A difficulty for you is that you hate uninspired routine and find it remarkably hard to apply yourself to sometimes necessary detail unconnected with any major interest. Worse yet, you may get bored with your own projects as soon as the major problems have been solved or the initial challenge has been met. You may need to learn to follow through and finish what you have begun, but are happiest and most effective in jobs that permit one project after another, with somebody else taking over as soon as the situation is well in hand.

Because you are always being drawn to the exciting challenges of new possibilities, it is essential that you develop your judgment. If your judgment is undeveloped, you may commit yourself to ill-chosen projects, fail to finish anything, and squander your inspirations by not completing your tasks.