2011年12月12日星期一

2011年12月8日星期四

睇到你前边,憎到你后边

今天才明白,这句话是有道理的。

当你不喜欢一个人,不管他做什么,不管什么情况,就是看不顺眼。即使是一丁点小事,也会让你觉得那是眼中的一根刺。

2011年12月6日星期二

跑半个马拉松

这不是我的第一次,但我也不是特别有经验,才第三次而已。

第一次的经验是惨痛的,我的膝盖在5公里以后竟然不听使唤,痛起来。我原本想开始走路,可是想到前方有16公里的路要走,可是很远哦,只好继续跑。到了不知道多远,才开始走路。

第二次有备而来,进步了,但是就埋怨路途的斜坡太多,跑得太累。

第三次,我已经知道路线和去年一样,一早做好斜坡很多的心理准备,只是一直祈祷不要下雨。果然没下,好开心。只是因为意外、旅行、再加上懒惰,没什么练习,又比去年差了。

因为已经有了心理准备,再加上同事一直告诉我,不管多慢都要跑,开始走路以后就很难再跑了。我撑着撑着,也跑了14、15公里吧。正当我在跑着的当儿,我发现自己只要撑过上斜坡的路,路途就很好过。所以,我的马拉松啊,就是这样⋯⋯好痛苦啊~~~~咦,好可以哦~~~~好痛苦啊~~~~咦,还可以哦~~~~这样一来一回,“惨痛”的跑完。

我一面跑,一面想到我的工作,也是一样,痛苦了一阵,然后又轻松,然后又是一轮,再一轮,再一轮⋯⋯(脸上的青春痘也一样)只要撑得过,没有什么是解决不了的问题。只要努力,一切是会过去的。只要保持正面的态度,日子会好过一点。自己好过,身边的人才不会痛苦。

跑了半个马拉松,这是我要提醒我自己的话。

当然,我也要提醒自己,以后不要“ke gao gao”,没有训练就跑马拉松!膝盖承受不了,意志力也不够坚持!

2011年11月28日星期一

男人贵在潇洒

最近,我发现原来我真的不能忍耐婆婆妈妈的男人。

很多时候,女人比较犹豫不决(普遍上而已,并非所有)。遇到什么事情,总是左右为难,做不了决定。尤其像我这种人,老是希望可以两全其美,又担心得罪人,总是做不了决定,总是犹豫。在这种时候,我总是比较喜欢有个人站出来决定,说:“就这样吧!”。

当我遇上一群比我还要犹豫的女生,我会在适当的时候,帮姐妹们决定。但是,我不会忍受不了姐妹们的犹豫。反之,如果对方是男生,我可会抓狂!你可以说我discriminate。我不否认。

比起犹豫不决,我更不能忍受男人行动慢。我可以等女生洗澡,我可以等女生打扮,我可以等女生上厕所⋯⋯可是,来个男人让我等上十分钟,可就不行了!不是我只给他十分钟,而是他比我用多十分钟。不能接受。

这种男人的女伴,一定要有一定的耐性。

还好,我的男人等我,不是我等他。

2011年11月13日星期日

自得其乐

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中文是这么好听,叫自得其乐。套句我们常用的话,叫shiok sendiri。表面意义一样,却完全没有一丝文绉绉的感觉。

从2005年开始,在北京学会了到处游走。旅行这些年,我发觉我学会了自得其乐。

路途颠簸,五脏六腑都被蹬出来,这叫体验。
迷路走远路,以致目的地好像永远不会到,我们说看沿途好风景。
等待的时间长,那就把相机拿出来玩,或是写写日记。
⋯⋯
反正后来,这些沿途小事,会成为美好的回忆,也是很好的饭后话题。

你看,沿途不忘自得其乐,一切就好似称心如意。

2011年11月12日星期六

心态

有些人做起工来特别爱埋怨。

曾经有人跟我抱怨:“唉,真没意思,拿一点点薪水,每天都得烦别人的事。”
我说:“你可以换工啊!找个高薪的工作。”
他说:“市道不好啊小姐!有些工作很压力的。”
我有点不耐烦了,“先生,拿人钱财,替人消灾。公司总不能白白给钱。既然领钱,当然得烦。不想烦别人的事,就自己做老板咯!我肯定那时你天天只烦自己的事。”

我不喜欢在工作的时候有人向我抱怨。工作是不容易,生活本来就不容易。既然如此,倒不如看开点?

其实换一换心态,工作没那么难做的。生活也就快乐很多。

2011年10月27日星期四

现代的小孩

在旅行途中认识了一个小孩,说小不小,说大不大,刚刚步入青春期。虽然如此,在人人眼中就是个小孩。他样子小小,可是说话却大人到不得了,长长一副小大人的样子,总是逗得我们笑的眼泪都要流。

他说,一个人要是结了婚,喜欢另一个人,可是没做什么,那不算背叛。

我昏!

2011年10月11日星期二

我28岁了

爸爸10月9日晚上打电话回来,祝我生日快乐。

我抗议:“还没有到啦!”
爸爸说:“我怕忘记,先打来。”

哈哈!爸爸提醒我,我的生日是辛亥革命,也是台湾国庆日。呵呵,爸爸的中国近代历史特好,没办法。

28岁了,昨晚毓豪问我有什么愿望。我想一下,原来我不知道我有什么愿望。小时候生日愿望很简单,不过是想要有哪个玩具,哪个书包,哪个游戏机⋯⋯一大堆不知所谓的东西。大一点,我希望考试可以顺顺利利的过。再大一点,希望可以进大学。再大一点,希望工作顺利。(一些不知所谓的东西还是有的,不过就免提了)

再大一点⋯⋯我没有什么愿望,不过是希望我和身边所有人(伴侣、家人、亲戚、朋友、同事)都健康平安快乐。自己一个人快乐是不够的,所以,大家都一起来,最欢乐。不是吗?

28岁了,回头望,从大学毕业以后,我把一生的“事业”,都放在玩乐。真的,就是玩乐。不要羡慕我,不是因为我特有钱,而是因为我特舍得。还可以玩乐几年,就是几年,玩吧!

28岁了,展望的几年,想要做什么?说我没有想过,当然是骗人。要我讲?也就算了。太懒惰,长篇大论又何必?

28岁了,踏入28岁前一周,竟然来场意外。身边人给予的关心满满,让我复原的快。平日举手可做的事,在这周内有时候是不方便到让人难以启齿。要人帮忙,问多几次又不好意思。硬着头皮来,又不能。所以,平时给予别人一点点方便,真的可以帮人很多。

28岁了,我最怕的竟然是我的运气几时会用完?这次小伤真是不幸中的大幸!现在过马路,我的反应偶尔会迟钝。站在路边看着飞驰的车辆,我会担心“这种速度撞下去,飞到十万八千里去,哪里还有命?”

28岁了,说老不老,说小不小,真尴尬。

28岁了⋯⋯

思绪混乱,我还要做的事很多,我要得做的事很多,我要看得还很多,我要玩得还很多,我要学得还很多⋯⋯所以,我会继续好好的生活!

大家一起加油!

(对于我的语无伦次,抱歉了!)

2011年10月8日星期六

关心担心

知道如果我把意外的事情告诉爸爸妈妈,他们会担心。即使我如何把那件事情形容得像笑话,他们难免担心。现在,我妈妈每晚都打电话问我伤口怎么样,吃什么。不可以吃“有毒”的食物。我以前当然不管,不过这一次要到西班牙旅行,很听话。

唉⋯⋯是女儿不好,让你们担心了。

亦舒小说里爱写:做孩子的,好好活着便已是一种孝心。以前不怎么会意,现在身在其中,感同身受。真的,好好活着已是一种孝心。

我会小心的。

爸爸妈妈,我爱你。

2011年10月4日星期二

意外后感

~讲古~

事情是这样发生的,周日傍晚我和毓豪跑步去。正当我们已跑到最后一公里的时候,意外发生了。我在前头,跟着地上的箭头,看着路上的红绿灯,不知道为什么,当时那几秒钟,我好像有点失去判断能力,我竟然过了马路。我是迷迷糊糊过的,究竟为什么,我探不出答案来。

第一条lane的车子全停着,到了第二条,有辆电单车直直的驶来。电光火石之间,我想避开,但是,心里也盘算着,太迟了。因此,嘭了一声,就撞了。

说也奇怪,我到现在还是记不起我当时是怎么跌倒的。我的记忆停留在电单车撞我的那一刻,还有我坐在地上,转头看见毓豪奔向我的那一幕。之间的百分之几秒,完全没有记忆。

说也奇怪,我竟然没有哭。同事打电话来问候,头一句就问:“一定哭了啦,你这哭包!”。说你也不信,我不只没哭,还因为觉得是自己有错,还叫毓豪先把电单车骑士扶起。几个路人才七手八脚把我们扶到路边去。

这骑士也太没道理了,竟然开口骂我,还摔头盔发脾气。当时我就气了,我也在痛啊,我就叫他住口。路人又七手八脚帮我们叫了德士,我回家取钱包,就往医院去。

一路上,我想起毓豪紧张的样子,我很内疚。一直握着他的手,说对不起。就这样坏了他一个周日晚上。也是在路上,我的伤口越来越痛,膝盖上的血流了下来。很恐怖一下。

到了医院门口,紧急室的人员和毓豪推了轮椅出来让我坐。二十八年的人生,还是头一次!哈哈哈!登记完毕,就等号码。

护士第一次叫我,帮我看伤口,顺便洗一洗。我对痛的忍受度是很低很低的。当消毒水一碰到伤口,我的眼泪就不听使唤的流下来。轻轻地包扎,又等医生。医生检查看看有没有骨折的危险,然后把我送进X-Ray房里。报告出来,我安全了。护士又把我叫进另一间房,包扎伤口。又是一阵眼泪流不停,护士真好人。她一直在安慰我,还跟我说sorry sorry,还不停的给我纸巾。我还以为护士都是凶巴巴的,让我碰见好人,真不错。

也是神奇的,第一位看我的护士要给我止痛药,我竟说不要。我真的很奇怪的。后来,我的解释是,我担心要是有骨折,因为不痛了,我也不会知道,还是看完医生了才吃。

手续办完,已经是几个小时后的事情。可怜的毓豪早已饿到不成形了。付了钱,我们打车回家,在楼下的小饭吃饭时,已经是十一点多。累得⋯⋯


~谢谢你~

回到家,我很想洗澡。我是跑步回来的,头发身体,一阵汗臭味。可是又很困惑,怎么洗?我的身体的一半不可湿水。被撞的都在右边,右边脸肿了,黑青了,右边肩膀流血,右边手臂全是瘀伤,右膝盖流血了,右脚也是瘀伤。总而言之,右边不可以湿水。

毓豪放了一张凳子在冲凉房,让我坐着,他帮我洗头发。伤口处,用他发明的“胶袋套”裹着,以免湿水。哈哈哈!洗澡是个大工程。

把所有事情弄托,我们累得睡不着。毓豪明显的是被整件事情吓坏了,担心我会有什么不测。让他这样伤心,我也觉得有内疚。想起他紧张的样子,我躺在床上哭了起来。被撞伤的时候都没有哭,整件事情结束了才来哭。

也因为这样,我不敢第一时间打电话回家,担心一开口就哭。像小孩一样,明明小事,爸爸妈妈一开声安慰,就会哭。所以,第一时间只通知姐姐。

朋友和同事的也不停的来电、简讯、电邮安慰,谢谢你们。

毓豪在整件事情上也辛苦了,谢谢你。


~做人不要贪心~

话说我们两人,太好了,觉得多多少少是自己的鲁莽,就决定不要报警,私底下解决好了。还打算给他一百块,算了。结果,这个人却越来越过分。说这个要修,那个要补,一点点钱不够。太过分!你撞到我,虽然是我的错,你还反过来要求多多!

因为意外当天,是毓豪和他交换联络号码,他一直烦毓豪。一直打电话,传简讯。后来我联络他,说不可以再烦他了,我从这里handle,我这就去报警。他说,可以谈的。我说没得谈,就二话不说报警去。

警察哥哥告诉我,现在你报警了,他不可以在烦你了。交警会向你问话,届时应该是会惩罚他,毕竟你是行人。

好,我对你好的时候,你不领情!还贪这贪那,现在现今没拿到,还得受罚!活该!

~~~~~

好啦,我的故事终于都说完了。

很长,谢谢阅读!(^_^)

2011年9月22日星期四

不能挥霍的感情

感情一向是比较难以捉摸的东西。自古以来,多少情歌在流唱,多少文艺小说电影在感动人心,每个人都知道爱情这游戏有多棘手,却无奈人人都陷身其中,甚至无法自拔。


幸运的,在感情世界里找到知音,手牵手走完下半辈子。不幸运的,你爱的不爱你,爱你的你不爱,错综复杂。更不幸的,明知道你爱他,他不爱你,却处处留下模棱两可的暗示。


其实,后者最讨厌。既然不爱了,为什么不放手?为什么继续挥霍这份可以让他人更幸福的的感情?既然决定这不属于你,那就应该拱手让人。何苦让对方越陷越深,还让人在你的婚礼看你幸福的微笑?


感情这回事,还是积多一点福。因果报应这回事,你听过吗?

2011年9月13日星期二

吕思清梁祝小提琴协奏曲

事隔6年,我仍然记得我站在北京中山公园里,中山音乐厅的售票处失望地离去。当天无意中让我发现吕思清同西崎崇子合演梁祝,兴奋地想买票。可柜台小姐告诉我,票还是有的,只是吕思清手受伤了,当晚应该演不了,只有西崎崇子上场。

我只爱吕思清的梁祝,老觉得西崎崇子的硬邦邦,没感觉。再加上学生时代,哪有这么多钱看音乐会,还看自己不喜欢的,很笨!只好回家去。

这么多年了,他从来没有光顾新马一带开音乐会。幸得伟杰通知,我们才知道今天有“中秋伴梁祝”,吕思清的梁祝!

梁祝被安排在小息前的最后一首。吕思清的小提琴一拉,那声音,和我的CD一样。陶醉!真陶醉!没有人的梁祝可像他一样。

可美中不足的是,我不太喜欢广州交响乐团对这首曲子的诠释,有点太快了。而且,“破坟”那一段,Brass来的不够“凶”。我一直有点耿耿于怀。还有,定音鼓的拍子进错的时候,我眼睛瞪大了!唉⋯⋯坏了吕思清的梁祝,还是我CD里的中央交响乐团好听。

不过,能够现场目睹吕思清拉小提琴,还是非常值得的。他还安哥了一首“查尔达斯”,很好了啦!最衰就是没有签名会,要不然,他可帮我在我收藏了十多年的CD上签个名字。

他如果再来,我肯定在光临!

今晚发梦可能会梦见梁祝 :)

2011年9月1日星期四

长得不美不是我的错

最近很伤心。我一直是那种喜欢别人直言快语的人,因为,我自问反应迟钝,猜想别人的想法,并不是我的拿手好戏。你开不开心,快不快乐,直接告诉我好了,我在适当的时候,就不打扰你就是。

可是,可能日子久了,大家大概觉得我很直爽吧。就连批评也开始很直接。

我这一年来,收到的评语多不胜数⋯⋯

老了
惨了
脸瘦了,样子越来越不好看
头发短,不好看
头发长的时候很老
胖了,游泳圈都出来了
鞋子青色,很难看(连鞋子都批评)
以前比较可爱
老虎牙比较可爱
⋯⋯

我自己都记不清。

我知道天生不是美女,也一直不是勤劳扮美美的女生。以前被人家说说,我也只是一笑置之,我能够怎样。不过,近期,真的被讲到⋯⋯我都不知道该怎么形容。

我知道我不美,你们不需要天天提醒我。让我自自在在地过,可以吗?

2011年8月28日星期日

张学友1/2世纪演唱会2011

所谓的半世纪,就是张学友歌神的年龄。

50岁的歌神,真的是到一种无法想象的境界。中年的他,一开场就来三首快歌,又唱又跳。不过,最‘估你唔到’,张学友竟用“花花公子”作开场。很多像毓豪这样非忠实歌迷级的听众,真的是听到一头雾水。毓豪问我:“什么来的?”哈哈哈。

我虽然不喜欢开场的三首歌:花花公子、小姐贵姓、初吻。都来自80年代比较不出名的专辑。不过,他为了配合他为这场演唱会的音乐电影故事才选的吧。还好我是忠实粉丝,虽然不怎么会唱,还是不会懵嚓嚓。

除了那三首,整场的曲目,都是我喜欢的。尤其“你的名字,我的姓氏”,让人眼湿湿。不知是否他本人的爱情路上,都让人有种甜蜜温馨的感觉。他唱这种情歌最醉人。“如果爱”也是如此。我承认我泪腺浅,不过,真的很动人。

我最不喜欢“吻别”,总觉得凭这首歌曲让他在全世界红,有点不明不白。他的好歌多得数不清,为什么偏偏是这首。不过,经过分析,我觉得歌神本人可能也不很欣赏这首歌,所以每场演唱会的吻别,都不是原版。摇滚版、爵士版,都比较好听 :)

饿狼传说、头发乱了、这个冬天不太冷,也是演唱会必唱必跳的劲歌。可是,岁月是残酷的,已经看得出他不比4年前的灵活。不过,半世纪了,还是很厉害!唱“月巴女且”歌颂肥姐的时候,他还一字马。尖叫到我没命!哈哈哈。

不过说真的,如果不是他偶尔唱错词,你会怀疑他是否对嘴。即使在劲歌热舞的时刻,他一口气都没喘。体力很好,肺气量很大。一点都不像50岁。说到唱错歌词,电脑技术人员真的很可爱。只要学友一唱错歌词,他就把歌词删掉。直到学友唱对了,他在把歌词放回。真体贴!:P

全场演唱会,让我最失望的,莫过于观众。当晚的观众,是非常非常的冷静。像是付了$8看电影似的。一点热情都没有。室内体育馆的灯光暗了,大家还是很冷静的灯张学友出场。我很无奈。张学友一出来,我大喊大叫,在别人眼中无疑是一个傻婆。然后,最后一首歌还没唱完,大家就走了!很不可思议!!!!我连喊安哥的机会都没有。气愤到无法形容!

在吉隆坡看过三场演唱会,只要场上有一点点动静,开灯:尖叫!;关灯:尖叫!;乐队出来:尖叫;技术人员调麦克风:尖叫!;歌手出来了:没命的叫!!!!!!所以,这场半世纪演唱会,我真的真的不习惯,太冷漠了。张学友会不会很灰心?

以后,我还是到吉隆坡看吧。

还有,这一生一定要想办法到香港红馆看一次!

当然,不是毓豪我也没有机会坐在26排,所以,这真是我今年最美好的礼物!谢谢!!!!

很怀念张学友了,是不是该看看十二月有无可能来吉隆坡看?

2011年8月21日星期日

书的前途在哪里

Borders倒闭了。

书店越来越难做,这个年代看书的人越来越少。资讯发达,人人都上网,谁还奈何得了捧着一本书。

我还是喜欢看书。我鲜少闻到味道,但是,书本的味道,纸张发黄的味道,我还是喜欢。喜欢翻书的质感,喜欢捧着书的感觉。

真心希望,以后的世界,我还可以买书,逛书店。

书啊书⋯⋯求求你不要绝种。

2011年8月19日星期五

没有理由让你等

曾经听有人说,他下班后在他老婆公司附近等老婆等了四个小时老婆才下班。四个小时!

四个小时,你可以做什么?

我可以煮饭、吃饭、洗碗碟、看电视、洗澡,然后再上网。
我可以看完卫斯理小说。
我可以看完亦舒小说。
我可以⋯⋯做很多很多事。

可是他选择等老婆。

我的惊讶程度非同小可。

老婆没有告诉你要等多久?没有
老婆为什么不搭的士?她不喜欢
为什么不回家后再来?不知道她几点下班

我,无言。

我不喜欢等人,我也不喜欢让人等。准时是美德。如果你不能准时,请你通知他人。如果要他久等,告诉他先做别的事。每个人只有二十四小时,我们没有资格夺取别人的青春。要是你应经告诉他,他还是痴痴的等,那是他的事。至少你没有存心浪费他的时间。

女人,不要以为让男人等,他就是爱你。我们没有活在琼瑶的世界里,每个人都有纯在的意义。每个人都应该有自己该做的事。

我们没有理由让任何人等。

2011年8月16日星期二

我的Eason Duo

慧芳问我为什么这么久了都还没有写一些关于陈奕迅演唱会的感想。懒惰咯!

Eason Eason,我当然是哭了。我比预想中哭得少。可是,当他用他那股听起来有点沙哑悲伤的歌喉,唱“富士山下”的时候,我的眼泪不听话了。

誰都只得那雙手 靠擁抱亦難任你擁有

要擁有必先懂失去怎接受
曾沿著雪路浪遊 為何為好事淚流
誰能憑愛意要富士山私有
何不把悲哀感覺 假設是來自你虛構
試管裡找不到它染污眼眸
前塵硬化像石頭 隨緣地拋下便逃走
我絕不罕有 往街裡繞過一周
我便化烏有

有谁抵挡得住那种悲伤。

很多我很想听的歌,他都没唱。“我什么都没有”、“无人之境”、“七百年后”、“我的快乐时代”⋯⋯不过像姐姐说的,不管他唱多久,我永远不会觉得足够。只能够盼望下次他再来,我再出席他的演唱会。

好几首歌,是全场大合唱。富士山下、明年今日、夕阳无限好、你的背包⋯⋯尤其明年今日很厉害,我简直认为那是国歌。还有一度,Eason也哽咽,太多人陪唱而感动?

因为香港2010DUO的缘故,我爱上“陀飞轮”,是很爱很爱的那种。可是,不知道为什么,他竟没有为大马准备。Encore的时候,他问台下观众想听什么。VVIP那里,有人要求“陀飞轮”,我和姐姐,还有好多的歌迷也是喊的没命似的(虽然知道,他完全听不到),也是要求陀飞轮。

他很诧异,一直问“真的?你们真的很想听?”台下歌迷简直没命地喊。他说,等band找一找歌谱。那时,轮到我很诧异,他们完全没有意思完这首歌。还是找到了,还是唱了。

然后,一开始唱,我就哭了。陀飞轮的时候,我几乎都不唱,我怕我唱了,这首歌就毁了。

陀飞轮,还是我Duo里的最爱。毓豪说,还好VVIP有人要求了,要不然我可睡不着。我日盼夜盼的,就是这首歌。

一直到今天,很不可思议的,我还在Eason Mode。有时候,一听见他的live,我还来个鸡皮疙瘩。

唯一要怨的,就是银河娱乐实在太太太不够意思。开场迟了,还不要紧!请来一个年轻小伙子,说是开场嘉宾,唱了又唱,还讲话感谢他妈妈,我们在台下坐到很不耐烦,一直喊“回水!!!!”然后,不知道为什么这么吝啬,才唱三个小时。以前张学友一场,可是4个小时的哩!!!哎⋯⋯Eason,为什么???

Eason走了以后,我还是很不舍得。结果远远被我瞄到鼓手Ah Jun还在台上。我们走到台前。我犹豫了很久很久,忍不住叫了一声:“Ah Jun!”原来身边一群女生也是在等他,不好意思喊,一听见我喊,也喊了起来。Ah Jun只好来entertain我们一下。或许以后在大马演唱会,他就有机会表演了 :)

还不到两个星期的时间,我就要看张学友了。我对张学友是很长情的,从还没有读书就开始听,到今时今日。美中不足,我还在Eason Mode的时候,还得硬硬来,转为Jacky Mode。不过,一点都难不倒我,张学友的,我几乎都会唱 :)

不过,Eason,我真的很想你啊!你几时再来?

2011年8月5日星期五

不完美,但太漂亮

正在为即将来临的陈奕迅演唱会兴奋着。

陈奕迅不象张学友,他没有完美华丽的歌声。他偶尔破声,但是,他比张学友在我身上赚得更多的眼泪。他不完美,但是伤心歌曲在他的诠释之下,往往有种让人难以呼吸的感觉。然后,眼泪就不由自主地掉下来。

好多好多他现场的演唱,是我最喜爱的版本。只有象他和张学友这种真正的实力派歌手,才有现场比专辑好听的能耐。

一个月之内,一场陈奕迅,一场张学友的演唱会。我这个月要不兴奋都很难啊!

2011年8月1日星期一

Favourite Activity--Suicide in Group (集体自杀)



One of the activity that I enjoyed most during my stay in Sipadan Water Village, was jumping into the sea from the jetty platform.

Ai Mei and I tested water on 2nd day, and persuaded everyone else to jump like us on 3rd day. I know it didn't sound like a bunch of 30-to-be should do, but what the heck!

We had real FUN!

Enjoy the video made by Yee Hau :)

2011年7月31日星期日

Close Encounters with Animals (Part 2)

Coming back from Sipadan Island had left me dreaming about that paradise for one whole week. Yeah, that's how crazy it is.

The thing that I loved most, when I was there, is getting close encounters with turtles of all sizes, everyday.

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Photo taken by Bey Yee Hau

I envied those who had seen turtles in Redang before I've been on to this trip. I've been to Redang and Perhentian twice! And never saw any of them. However, this time, I've seen too many of them, I can't count.

Swimming with the turtles are simply wonderful. They "fly" gracefully through the water, flip their "wings" effortlessly but yet, having the speed that is so fast, we had to swim harder to catch up. Looking at them, is really something peaceful.

Apart of being able to swim with the turtles, Ai Mei and I were chased by trigger fish while following a small turtle. I guessed we were too close to its nest and offended it. We swam away for our life, but we laughed our heart out after that.

Besides, we were lucky to come into contact with a school of big eye trevally! Our guide swam through the tornado of fishes, and let us in. We were in the middle of the tornado! How cool was that!

Then of course, we saw several white tip reef sharks. This was the 2nd time I saw sharks while snorkelling! It's so cool!

What's my next close encounter with animal?

Part 1, please refer here.

PS. Now I'm really crazy for turtle, I'm looking up and down for the soft toy turtle from Finding Nemo. If you know where to find it, please tell me :)

这小子怎么长大得那么快?

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看看这相片里的靓仔,就是踏入十九岁的弟弟。

我不知道是不是每个姐姐都希望弟弟永远长不大。永远都是那个可爱到让人想捏一把的样子。永远都停留在对每样事情都好奇的年龄。永远,都在玩玩具车,都在骑sing sing car。

还记得我离开家里,到新加坡的时候,阿恩在车站哭得稀里哗啦,害我也好像开水龙头一样,一发不可收拾。那是N年前的事情,不过却历历在目。离家那么久,其一最遗憾的事,就是弟弟的成长历程里,一大部分,是少了我。

唉,这么快就长大了。看再过不久,就是带女朋友回家了。我这二姐要靠边站咯!

恩,生日快乐!我们下星期庆祝!

2011年7月11日星期一

Bumblebee & A New Friend

Call me crazy, when I got this watch as a present from Yee Hau, I called it Bumblebee. The colour combination reminds me a lot of Bumblebee.

I wanted to get this watch simply because of the step counter that comes with it. Besides, it tells you how much calorie you burnt. (Girls love this) It tells me I walked average 15km per day during my backpacking travel. I'm proud of it. I've been loving it.


However, there's a problem with the rubber strap. It stains easily. At first, water is good enough to clean it. Then, I have to start using soap water. Then now, soap water doesn't do a good job too.

It struck me while I was watching TV, "Why didn't I try wet tissue?". Please don't call me aunty, but I always have the habit to keep the wet tissue given by restaurant. Hence... after shower, I was cleaning my Bumblebee with wet tissue. And it works! Now it's clean!!! :)

* * * * *

But there's one problem with Bumblebee, it's too sporty. It doesn't go well with all my outfit (Girls... *roll eyes*). So, I've been eye-ing the white watch from Casio for some time.

Then, finally I had my friend to get this for me all the way from HK! It's $40 cheaper, how can you blame me? :P

And for the record, this is the first watch I ever bought for myself. Like, seriously.

Will I regret for it's pure white? I guess I will. But I'm loving it for this moment.


So, no more watch for ... I dunno, another few years.

2011年7月10日星期日

我们又上国际新闻了

No news is good news.

有时候,我真的相信这个。报章上的新闻,90%都不是好消息。

打开互联网页,大家都在谈Bersih。政府一塌糊涂的谎言,让人觉得愚蠢。这是什么年代了,怎么还把子民当作笨蛋来看待?

一个干净的政府,似乎是最遥不可及的梦想。我面对网站上让人心痛、心碎的映像、照片、文字,只能够默默流泪。

应该保护人民的警察,平时捉贼没有那么英勇。面对手无寸铁的人民,却表现的如此“威武”。国家应该是我们觉得安全的地方,政府应该以人民为主。可是,我们的国家,真的安全吗?

我看见国外的其中一个新闻影像,结束前,记者说:“This is democracy, the Malaysian way”。好啊,我们又成为别人的笑柄了⋯⋯

2011年7月3日星期日

陀飞轮



最近,姐姐、毓豪和我,忙着为八月六日陈奕迅的吉隆坡演唱会做准备。除了一些机票酒店等事情,我们忙着练习。对于陈奕迅的旧歌,我们再熟悉不过,不过,近期的两张专辑,还没有很熟悉,所以很努力 :P

从来没有注意“陀飞轮”这首歌词。昨晚因为Eason的现场演唱太过感动,搜了歌词,在房里大声唱。现场的版本,比专辑的好多了。为什么,他的现场总可以这样动人?

真的真的,很感动。

我等不及啦!!!!


作曲 : Vincent Chow 
填词:黄伟文
编曲 : Gary Tong
监制 : Alvin Leong

过去十八岁 没戴表 不过有时间
够我 没有後顾 野性贪玩
霎眼廿七岁 时日无多 方不敢偷惰
宏愿纵未了 奋斗总不太晚

然 後突然今秋
望望身边 应该有 已尽有
我的美酒 跑车 相机 金表 也 讲究
直到世间 个个也妒忌 仍不怎麽富有
用我尚有 换我没有 其实已 用尽所拥有

曾付出几多心跳 来换取一堆堆的发票
人值得 命中减少几秒 多买一只表
秒速 捉得紧了 而皮肤竟偷偷松了
为何用到尽了 至知哪样紧要

劳力是 无止境
活着多好 不需要 靠物证
也不以高薪 高职 高级品 搏尊敬 wo~
就算搏到 伯爵那地位 和萧邦的隽永
卖了任性 日拼夜拼 忘掉了为甚麽高兴

曾付出几多心跳 来换取一堆堆的发票
人值得 命中减少几秒 多买一只表
秒速 捉得紧了 而皮肤竟偷偷松了
为何用到尽了 至知哪样紧要

记 住那 关於光阴的教训
回头走 天已暗
你献出了十寸 时和分
可有换到十寸金

还剩低几多心跳 人面胀水晶表面对照
连 自己 亦都分析不了 得到多与少
也许真的疯了 那个倒影多麽可笑
灵魂若变卖了 上链也没心跳

银或金都不紧要 谁造机芯 一样了
计划了 照做了 得到了 时间却太少 no~
还剩低几多心跳 还在数赶不及了
昂贵是这刻 我觉悟了
在时计里 看破一生 渺渺

伟文的歌词一向都很好,不过,如果歌手演绎得不好,再好的词,也是一塌糊涂的音乐。就像方文山写给周结论的词,往往我都觉得被糟蹋了。

2011年6月21日星期二

痴痴的笑~

最近,我常常在地铁里痴痴的笑。无他,全是郭靖的错!

中学时期,姐姐老是尝试要我看金庸的小说。我看的第一套,是《笑傲江湖》。第二套,是《射雕英雄传》。可是,看到一半,家人竟然怀旧追TVB黄日华、苗乔伟演的连续剧。结果看到一半的射雕,永远搁着。

后来,我看《天龙八部》。可是屡看不成。第一次,因为段誉实在太讨厌;第二次,因为虚竹真的很笨。第三次,忍着看完。

我也看《鹿鼎记》。然后,重看《笑傲江湖》,因为我真的太喜欢令狐冲。

射雕快看完了,下一部该看《神雕侠侣》吧?

看这些武侠小说有个很大的问题,就是黄日华老是浮现我的脑海。他曾是郭靖、也曾是萧峰、还曾经是大笨蛋虚竹,看小说时脑里满是他。够力!

看完射雕以后,我应该会很空虚。还是慢慢看好。

2011年6月19日星期日

2011年5月23日星期一

Life in Boxes

For the past one week, we've been busy packing our belongings into boxes and luggages.

When I stared at the pile of boxes, I felt funny. On the first day of packing, we're organized, we tried to put things in order. I can almost see my life in different categories, i.e. "for my memory", "sentimental", "personal secrets" etc. And of course, the other normal things like clothings, shoes, bags, books and electronic stuffs. As if I've put up an exhibition of my life and I'm the only person who is allowed to walk through all the secret paths.

At the very last minutes, time is tight, we can't afford to be perfect and nostalgic anymore... And, we packed a lot of random boxes that we do not know how to categorize, or rather, we do not have time to categorize anymore.

Is that how we live our life? When we have time, we try to make things perfect. But when we're out of time, we give ourselves excuses, and we start to put everything together, without considering the consequences. (Of course, in this case, the consequence is that we took longer time to unpack the random boxes)

Maybe, it's time for me to sit still and organize bits of pieces of my life. Because I really hate those random boxes!!!

2011年5月18日星期三

I'm Loved!

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We were busy packing our stuffs to move on Saturday afternoon. I have a bad habit when it comes to packing. I would sit there, soak myself into the memory lane... And wander for a long time.

Over the years, I have stuffed sentimental little things into a little box. And the little box got full, turned into bigger box, and bigger, and eventually it is an IKEA storage box. Among the things I have, I precious the letters and cards, the MOST. They always have a separate box.

Yesterday, I tried to rearrange them so I threw them all over the floor. And before I knew it, I was starting to read some of them.

Then, I rearranged them into categories of senders. And housed them into a cuter box.

Right now, I am really considering to consolidate those I keep in my hometown and these together, so I have a full collection of them :)

With these much , how could I ever giving up sending things to my friend?

P.S I found some handmade cards by Yee Hau back in those days when we're still VERY much romantically in ♥. Hee Hee ^.^

Anyway, Yee Hau said I can refer to these letters when I need to write a biography of myself when I grow old :P

2011年5月17日星期二

I Have My Regrets

I do have my regrets, and sometimes they came into my mind. Today, I do not know why, I decided to write them down. Maybe because I always believe when you talk them out, they are out of your mind.

You know how people tell you college life is the best time of your life? But you know what? After my graduation, when I started to work, I didn't have any bit of intention to get back to study. Really.

I didn't suffer through the 4 years, they weren't hell, but they weren't heaven too. During my first semester, I somehow managed to get myself into scholarship officer's office to "talk" about my results. Then, in my second semester, I got a book prize and of course I never went into that awful office anymore. But the awful office, was just awful!

Study aside, I wasn't active. Unlike my secondary, I can do everything for my orchestra. But during my college, no activity seems to hold my attention long enough. I didn't join them with my passion, more to just collect some points to stay in the hall. I hate to admit this, but I really hated this kind of intention behind.

I stucked with mostly Malaysian students most of the time until 3rd year of my study, when I went to Beijing. I realized the way I lived my college life was wrong. When I came back to Singapore after internship, I became solitude, I read a lot of self help and inspiration books. 4th year, I moved out from hostel with my friends.

I never got crazy for my entire college life.

I never got as active as I could.

I never got fantastic in academic as well.

The only thing I didn't regret was spending a semester in Beijing. What a shame.

Sometimes I wonder, why my college life didn't sound like me at all? Why would I find it difficult to fit in? And what the hell was wrong with me that I took 4 years to try to fit in?

I can't explain myself.

2011年5月14日星期六

Someone Like You by Adele




She sings this so beautiful, so sad. It moves me to tears...

It's really more than words to describe. I love the album version so much, but when I found this live version, I think this is my favourite! I've repeated this more than 30 times just today.

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

2011年5月11日星期三

That creepy old thing!

It's getting on my nerve because

I can't seem to control my appetite for potato chips.

I can't seem to control my appetite for hot and sour food.

I can't seem to control my mood.

Mood swings and crazy appetite!

Sigh...

2011年4月10日星期日

Blogging from T3

This is the first time, I depart from T3. It's going to be a long flight, I have been trying not to think about it but... It's really a BLOODY long flight.

Just by going through my itinerary, made me feel tired. I know it's just a short 2 weeks trip in the States, but maybe there's too much in my mind, I have been having difficulties to let go of my thoughts.

I've been travelling alone lots of time since I work, for work or leisure, but I do not know why, this is just a little bit different. I hope everything will go on well.

Wish me luck!

2011年4月3日星期日

看见小时候的我们

昨天晚上,我和毓豪到SCO捧他朋友的场。这一次,是SYCO的演出。全场都很不错,尤其那位15岁吹唢呐的小弟弟,看样子,他将来必定成才。

音乐会的其中几首曲子,是快节奏的。有位打木琴的小男生,完美地打完一段跑音以后,对自己会心的满意的微笑。我仿佛看见N年前的自己。以前,我们也一样。完美地奏玩一首歌以后,满意的笑。或者,更极端点,到后台抱头痛哭。

小时候,就是如此。一切喜形于色。

我看见那小男孩,仿佛看见了我自己⋯⋯

2011年3月14日星期一

Virtual Chats

Can't deny the fact that internet has brought us lots of convenience in communication. We can always keep in touch with friends, anywhere anytime.

However, it does hit me hard when some people are rather irresponsible in what they chose to say in these virtual chats. How can you say something to a person, sarcastically and tell them him/her in the next second that you don't mean it, that you're just joking. And you drop a "lol"!

Please don't say something and then say you didn't mean it. What do you expect from the receiver? If you don't mean it, please don't say it. Especially in virtual world where I can't see your expression, and I really can't tell the difference between jokingly and seriously.

Please don't take the convenience of internet for granted.

That is why, one should never ever confessed by chatting. You see, you'll never know if this is serious.

2011年3月13日星期日

Still Alive & Kicking

So, here's the story of how a poor caterpillar accidentally came to FA lab.

One fine day, this poor fella fell on the wrong person at the wrong time. It fell on the shirt of a technician specialist in my lab and followed him back to the lab. When he found it, he felt disgusted and threw it into the the dustbin.

But the lab is full of sympathetic girls and women. They decided to pick it up from the dustbin, and kept inside a glass bottle.

Knowing our nature of job... We immediately "inspected" the caterpillar under the microscope! I got to tell you, it was rather interesting!!! Hahaha... But I told my friend, it is only cute when it's in the bottle. I don't want to have any contact with it.

I tried to feed it with leaves but it refused to eat any of them. My colleague thought it was too stressed out because of the way we handled it. I thought it wouldn't make it through the day and I will have an extra SEM specimen. I even googled "How to SEM insects" when I got home.

The next day, the first thing I looked for in the lab, is this poor fella. To my surprise, my operator told me it's still alive!! And it turned into a cocoon!!

A cocoon in my lab! How cool was that?!

Then suddenly, I have a whole new thing to do with this caterpillar. Instead of SEM it. I decided to keep it alive until the end of metamorphosis.

So, I gave it a big and comfortable house.
Like this :)

I hope it hasn't turned into a butterfly or moth yet, because we haven't been around for two days for weekend. Hope it's still in a cocoon and we will have the chance to witness it's transformation!

We kept a caterpillar in the lab as pet!

How cool is that! :)

It was Stressful

过去几天,日本的天灾实在恐怖。地震、海啸,再来个power plant melt down。机场关闭,交通瘫痪。不管那个新闻网,都在报道。

好多人都知道毓豪和朋友在日本度假。纷纷问我他在日本如何。说真的,周五早上看见新闻,还是吓了一跳。幸得他所在的地方有wifi,向我报了平安,我也安心。

他们是很幸运的。原本这趟日本之行,包括东京。后来,他跟朋友说我很想去东京,这次还是去北海道好了。当初听了当然很高兴,现在更觉得幸运的不得了。北海道之行,他们到Hakodate去。离开以后,Hakodate淹水了。真的,上天保佑。

今天,我从早上都没有他的音讯。心里焦急。虽然昨天已知道一切安好,可还是情不自禁地担心起来。一直在查Haneda机场的讯息,八点钟发现他的班机不会延迟,稍感安慰。电话一响,我就紧张。可每次都不是他。直到晚上10点。

我从来没有这么不安。或许因为昨夜梦见海啸侵袭特别不安宁。或许网上的新闻真的搞到我心煌煌。这种感觉一点都不好受。

所幸,他已经上了飞机。明早6点,就会抵达新加坡。

我大可安心睡觉。

2011年3月3日星期四

放假了!不是我⋯⋯


男人放假了,在开始新的生活之前,到日本北海道好好玩一场。

好多人都问我为什么不跟他一起去?原因有几个。其一,本小姐的假每年都不够用。另外,他们四个男人打算疯疯狂狂,我出现了难免有点扫兴。他们不方便,我也不方便。所以干脆点,把假期留下,到别处去玩。

我们两个,总是各有个精彩。旁人不能明白,我也不明白为什么别人不明白⋯⋯不过,真的没有什么不好。我们总有很多故事告诉对方。

趁单身,玩够他一场!所以,他会玩得开开心心的。(所以我近年来很放肆,妈妈问我忙什么,忙着玩!)

纵使如此,回来难免觉得空荡荡。屋里多了一份清静。寂寞开始了。

明天,谁叫我醒⋯⋯

2011年3月1日星期二

When Everything Seems Right

There's nothing wrong with my life.

I have a job, happy with it.
I have a place to stay, even though it's just a rented place, but I'm happy with whom I stay with.
I have Yee Hau, family and friends when I need them.

When I look around, really, there's nothing wrong.

But did you ever have the feeling, when nothing seems wrong, it feels nothing's right too?

I don't really know how to describe the feeling. But that's exactly how I feel. Let's just call it quarter life crisis, which I always seem to have.

Life's like a party since December last year. Parties, gatherings, travel, celebrations, stay-over etc. After all these came to an end, coming into a quiet March, I actually feel, empty.

Where is the passion?
Where are the dreams?
Where are my determinations?

It's time to think, again.

2011年2月13日星期日

Friends

Watching "How I Met Your Mother" makes me missing my gang!

You guys know who you are :)

*hugs*

2011年1月23日星期日

在别人眼中的你

I think sometimes, it's rather interesting to understand from the others, what they think about yourself. Of course, you have to ask someone who will be definitely honest to you. And you yourself, have to be prepared of what others said about you, be it good or bad.

Just few days ago, a colleague of mine told me his point of view about me.
  1. Unpredictable, can be explosive at times
  2. Very adaptive, can survive in other teams in the department
Maybe I shall start collecting views from others and do a proper reflections of myself.

What do you think about me?

2011年1月20日星期四

On the Way

We're always on the way to somewhere or something. And believe me, on the way is a wonderful thing.

When you're tidying your room, you will first have to make a mess of the room. Things are out of the drawers and boxes before you sort them out and put them into places again. In the mess, you tell yourself, I'm on my way to a clean and neat room.

I'm having my braces. And every month my teeth make some progress, but there are still a lot of gaps to fill. But I tell myself, it's ok, my teeth are on their way to become neat.

When you're on your way, you know something good will come about. You know the results, you are anticipating it.

If you're not having a wonderful life now, if you feel that life sucks... Please, tell yourself "I'm on my way to wonderful things! I'm on my way to beautiful life!".

But don't forget to keep walking, if you don't, you're not on your way.

2011年1月17日星期一

Peace

It's such a cooling weather we have these days.

After work, I gave up the company free shuttle service, took a long walk, accompanied by Yo-Yo Ma & Wu Tong, from the office all the way to Alexandra Hospital. I made it slow, it was so slow, everybody just walked pass me. I don't know about you, walking slowly in such weather, has been quite therapeutic for me.

I am not in any troubles, I am not too stressed, I am not having any problems. But yet, by doing this just made me feel so peaceful.

What's more, I cooked myself a bowl of soup and rice when I got home. I haven't been cooking for myself for some time. Doing that, I just felt, satisfied.

I found peace in myself tonight :)

2011年1月15日星期六

Different Concept

I am frequently being misunderstood.

I have been frequently asked, "You seem so happy everyday. You must be so free at work, having nothing to do."

Yes, no doubt I'm almost always on the positive energy side, happy and excited, all smiles and laughs, but it doesn't mean I have nothing to do at work.

Why do we have to be grumpy just because we have work to do? We're paid to work, if you forgot. We have our monthly income because we're hired, and we work. So, why don't we just make our life better, by being happy. When we're happy, works seem easier don't they? At least to me.

I have my stresses too, but I always find a way to laugh, I try.

I'm so glad I have a team of happy colleagues, who make my working life interesting. And they never asked me "You seem so happy everyday. You must be so free at work, having nothing to do."

If you chose to be grumpy, so be it. Don't expect me to be the same. We're just different.

2011年1月10日星期一

黄舒骏的歌词

最近很想听黄舒骏的歌。发现自己电脑里只有几首,好沮丧,快快下载几首。

黄舒骏的词,是越看越精彩。听着“谈恋爱”几次⋯⋯太绝了吧!

《谈恋爱》
我真是愉快
能和你如此相爱
但是高兴之外
有些话必须说明白
我们现在相爱
但并不代表也包括未来
为了想永不分开
我们得做一些安排
我们要天天思念
但不要天天相见
只需要悱恻缠绵
绝不要柴米油盐
有共同生活经验
绝不用共同的房间
我们要天天思念
但不要天天相见
你可和别人约会
只要不让我发现
我偶尔也会出轨
但保证心在你这边
说出来有点不该
唉!但是又何耐
我想自古以来
人们总被自己打败
我们都喜新厌旧
我们都欲望太多
如此去芜存菁之后
让我们安心谈恋爱
只需要悱恻缠绵
绝不要柴米油盐
有共同生活经验
绝不用共同的房间
我们要天天思念
但不要天天相见
你可和别人约会
只要不让我发现
我偶尔也会出轨
但保证心在你这边
我们要天天思念
但不要天天相见
你负责美丽妖艳
我负责努力赚钱
如果想倒过来演
我当然也不会反对
我们要天天思念
但不要天天相见
万一要移情别恋
最好也和平解决
让回忆充满甜美
心甘情愿话当年

这么多年,还是觉得黄舒骏的歌词真棒!现在的歌词,已经找不到这种“精神”了!迷恋着~