2009年3月29日星期日

生命如此脆弱

刚刚从朋友弟弟的部落得知他爸爸因为中风而入院。

朋友是我中学毕业以后一直保持联络的好朋友。虽然见过他爸爸几次,但印象并不是特别深刻。可是,消息来得太突然。我一时之间真的不知该怎么反应。再加上弟弟的部落写得非常伤感,我只能无助地徘徊在文字之中。

人生,就是这样脆弱。

大家趁年轻一定要好好照顾健康。

2009年3月24日星期二

I miss my dogs

This is not my dog. This is Taishan that we met in Yang Shuo, Ming Yuan Cafe.

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I had 2 dogs when I was young. I had one in Ipoh, named Dale. And another one in Taman SriRambai when I was Primary 3, named Beethoven. Both had weird behaviours, that I believe it would be pointless even you had sent them to pets behavioural school.

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Dale, according to my mom (I was too young to recall so many things), likes to wet-floor skiing whenever my mom mopped the floor. And even worse, he bang on the door every time he failed to break. I guess that was how he got a little bit crazy! But my parents had decided to leave him with the vet when we moved to BM, for reasons that remained unknown to me till date, which I also chose not to ask.

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Beethoven, my 2nd dog, was given to us by my mom's friend. I still remember Beethoven's first night in the house... I guess he was probably lonely and scared, he cried for the whole night. It made me sad, and I couldn't fall asleep too. I would go out to the living room to check him out in the little box. He would stop when he heard me, and continue when I was out of sight. I woke up early the next morning even though I hardly slept. And found Beethoven was awake too.

I remember I asked my mom, what shall I feed him. And my mom asked me to make some milk and give him some bread. Beethoven had a habit to keep some small pieces of bread under the tree in the garden every time we served him the food. And in the afternoon, he would have tea break under the tree. Brilliant!

Beethoven had not been a nice dog. He dug holes everywhere in the house. He dug small holes on the wall with my little brother when he was just a baby, and later on continued with bigger and deeper holes in the garden when he grew up. To make things worse, he attempt to attack my neighbours kids who had made fun of him when he was a puppy.

At the end, my parents had to take him away from the house. I never know where Beethoven was. And again, I chose not to ask. But I remember on that day, when my family went out but I chose to stay at home, I called my friend and cried on the phone for so long.

I still miss Beethoven.

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Then, I never had any dog anymore. But my relatives do. My aunt moved her golden retriever from England to Penang, he's Ben. He's the first golden retreiver I knew. He's very clever because he's a bilingual dog. My aunt spoke English to him, while his later owner, my grandma spoke Hokkien. So he understood both. :D

Ben, was also a funny dog. He's completely different from other dogs that I've seen, he loves water. You can't stop him from running into the sea water. You can't stop him from jumping into the garden temporary children swimming pool. You can't stop him from standing out in the rain. You can't... simply stop him from water.

Ben passed away at old age without sickness (except for Hong Sip according to the vet) when I was in University. My aunt buried him some feet under the ground in the garden and planted a tree at that spot. I would thought of him every time I saw a golden retriever.

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I once thought I'd like to have a dog when I have a place of my own. But I have given up this thought, simply it's way too hard for me when I lost them.

Dogs dogs dogs... Never fail to make you love them.

2009年3月22日星期日

Happy Birthday to Kia Hooi

It's not too late, it's still Kia Hooi birthday before 12am :D

I always think, how fast we have aged whenever it comes to any of my friend's birthday and also of course, my birthday! We used to celebrate birthdays together, to sing birthday song in front of everybody in the canteen, in restaurants, in malls, in Chinese Orchestra room... It has always been a bit embarrassing for the birthday girl/boy as everybody will stare at our direction when we did!

All these felt like yesterday!

But before we knew, we had left the town that we grew up together, one by one, to study, to pursuit our own career and life. Now, we can only send cards to each other. Of course, the sms, Facebook messages, MSN messages all come together too!

How I wish I could still celebrate birthday with them...

We're far apart but we never fall apart.

Happy Birthday Kia Hooi! Enjoy you big day!

2009年3月19日星期四

Departures


Saw Sock Hoai's blog recommending this. Since it's been some time since I watched Jap movie, and it's been some time I cried in the movie, I've decided to watch this, alone. But I forgot I wasn't alone at all, because the cinema was packed with people even though it's weekdays. It's school holidays! I've forgotten about that!

It's a movie, where a cellist "accidentally" became a make up artist. Not any common make up artist you've seen, he only did it on dead bodies. It was kind of funny in the beginning on how he struggled to overcome his fears and uneasiness. But, the tears just kept rolling down from my cheek at the end. It's not a very sad movie, but it sure moved you a lot.

Worth a watch!

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Why? Because I'm damn angry and mad right now!

The owner had came to the flat to take BEAUTIFUL pictures of this unit so that we can advertise it for resale. We're not against it, as we do not have a choice. We let her came in by herself as we're all off to work.

I just stepped into my house, like 15mins ago. Guess what I found out? The place is now looking as if there wasn't anybody staying, no shoes, no mat, nothing on the table, nothing on coffee table, even nothing on the goddamn kitchen cupboard! She stuffed all our things into store room and cupboard and never took them out!

I have to find my shoes in store room, my mat stuffed in a corner and even more things that I do not know where to look for. Where the hell is my coffee????

F***!

I wish I could move instantly!

2009年3月18日星期三

In the Middle of...

Have you ever realized your room is always the messiest when you're tidying?

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We're packing our stuffs, to clear the extra room for my owner so that she could rent it to another extra person in this house. The room is a mess, the place is a mess and I'm in a mess too

Just within 10 days, a lot of things turned upside down. When I came back, I learned that my owner wanted to rent out the extra room without a proper door for another person. And I also learned that this situation is just going to be temporary because at the end, all the occupants in the flat will have to move because she's selling it.

That means, I'm going to look for a place to stay, all of the sudden.

One of the housemate is getting married soon. Another, he is expecting us to "find a new place together" but we had rejected his "invitation" kindly.

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We always have a peace, when the tidying job is over. That is when the mess is gone, or we just hide the mess somewhere invisible.

I need a peace of mind and also a peaceful looking place. I keep telling myself, this is just temporary.

When the tidal wave is gone, the sand will set. Ain't it?

2009年3月16日星期一

我回来也!

薇薇摄 (绝对没有edit)


我照得没有李亚石的好(废话!),在兴坪的照片,算是最漂亮的,最像我想象中的桂林。

我暂时还没有时间将2000多张的照片整理,很懒啊!

只是想告诉大家,我回来了!

2009年3月3日星期二

桂林


李亚石摄

我将在今晚开始,至14日,消失在新加坡的小小土地,和姐姐到桂林去。

去飘流吧、去流浪吧、去看山、去看水、去浪迹天涯。不知道那片土地是否是神仙住过的地方?

让我回来告诉你吧!

一切准备好了!很兴奋哦!

2009年3月1日星期日

我的右眼

我的右眼不是第一次有状况。距离这次,是好多年前,大学先修班预考时期。当时起床后发现右眼看得不清楚,照镜子才发现好像长了一片膜在右眼角。吓倒我半死!考完试后马上到眼科医生那里看诊。

还好,医生说只是敏感,问我是否换了洗脸霜还是洗发水。想了一想,还真是刚刚换了一洗发水。医生真厉害!就这样从此我就没再用那个牌子了。

这次,发生在两周前。我的双眼老是在睡觉前非常的痒,几天后我的右眼就在我带着隐形眼镜的时候疼起来。尤其眨眼的时候!所以总是控制不住就在公司里流泪。当时空气里的烟雾很重,我以为就是烟雾惹的祸,所以就暂时停止带隐形眼镜。

上周四,看看空气渐渐变好。我就带上我的隐形眼镜。没想到比之前还痛,眼泪真的拼命流。在没办法之下我就到我们公司的诊所看诊。看诊的过程就免谈了,反正是把我气死,才好不容易拿到了我的Refer Letter,明天到眼科专科去看诊。

怕怕!我最怕医生翻我的眼皮……救命啊!

希望没事吧!