2008年之最

这，就是2008最烂的电影！吴宇森可以拍出这种滥片，真的是不简单啊！还斗胆说是依照三国志，我呸！

本小姐并不熟读历史，还很惭愧的说一句，对三国的了解和三岁的小孩子可以相比。可是，这部电影，真的是烂到很够力！我在戏院里竟想睡觉！你说过分吗？

为什么赤壁是２００８年最烂的影片？（排名不分先后）
一、搞艺术不艺术，搞历史又不是历史，结果整套电影不伦不类。
二、角色人选有非常大的问题！金城武演诸葛亮？有没有搞错？！还有，找个日本人来演中国历史，声音也不配一下，很不专业。
三、英雄全部变狗熊！这些历史的英雄，在吴宇森的杰出导演之下，全都变成做事不认真、优柔寡断、好酒好色、没有影响力的狗熊！
四、林志玲像去色诱梁朝伟多过像饰演老婆。在梁朝伟受伤后，这老婆除了演不出焦虑，还在为他包扎伤口的时候偷吃豆腐，摸上摸下，像非礼多过像包扎伤口。
五、梁朝伟练兵途中，突然赶回家帮马接生！
六、有句对白我听了很晕：“你很有个性。”
七、中国历史片，用的全是西乐，音乐竟是出自日本人。
八、演了两个半小时，竟然还没进入主题。你可以说Ｌｏｒｄ　ｏｆ　Ｔｈｅ　Ｒｉｎｇ也是如此，不过那是一套你看完第一部马上想看第二部的电影。赤壁，恰好相反了！
九、赤壁的电影里说，曹操是为了一个女人去打的这场仗！太过分了！
十、这部电影，毁了所有好演员！（对不起，这不包括林志玲。）

之前Ｋｕｎｇ　Ｆｕ　Ｐａｎｄａ有篇小得不足以泛起涟漪的新闻，就是一位中国的艺术家，控告Ｄｒｅａｍｗｏｒｋｓ侮辱了熊猫。我觉得，这是哪位艺术家想趁机搞新闻。而这次，我希望中国的历史学家挺身站出来，控告吴宇森。真的！

吴宇森，这部电影，是为了什么？是讨好些什么？

Control...

Just as I thought I have some control over my EQ and temper, I found that I can actually control one case by one case, but not when they all come in a bundle.

I said to myself:" Loser...."

I have been putting myself with lots of negative energy lately. I bug myself for lots of negative things that had happened to me, and keep thinking about them, keep wanting to talk about them, keep defending, keep avoiding, keep protecting... I feel so helpless, as if the only way to get out of it, is to finish the episode. I hope it to be asap.

I need to get back to the normal me.

丝竹传奇

昨晚，我“有幸”被“邀请”出席一场新加坡华乐团的演奏会。为什么会被邀请呢？说来话长。本小姐有一回同伟平和文慧一起到新加坡植物公园，观赏新加坡华乐团的一场公众演出。看完演出后，我不爽，又有点吃饱没事做，就写了一封挺长的电邮於他们的宣传部。写完以后，我也忘了。反正这种电邮通常都会被遗忘在邮件箱里头。

但是，出乎意料之外，我竟然得到回复。更出乎意料的事，他们竟送我两张7月26日《丝竹传奇》的音乐会票。这让我惊讶。惊讶新加坡华乐团的宣传部，是真的有读我的电邮，还花了时间恢复我。也惊讶我不过是想发表意见，却送我票？这是鼓励我以后写更多电邮於他们吗？

奇怪哦！

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说回这场《丝竹传奇》。我想用四个字。

不知所谓

并不是我想挑剔。我知道新加坡华乐团的水平其实很高，不过，当晚的歌曲，实在是不敢恭维。除了第一首“心贤”，及最后一首“卡门”之外，其他的，我真想离场。

整场音乐会由严洁敏（二胡）及张维良（笛子）主演。除了开场的曲目为合奏曲之外，其他的都是独奏，新加坡华乐团伴奏。

第一首——心贤
这是歌颂扬培贤的一首曲。旋律简单，听了舒服。

第二首——梦幻星岛（张维良独奏）
由张维良作曲，崔权、张建配电子音乐。电子音乐！这电子音乐可怪了，所有附加的电子音乐，是敲击组可以办到的事。却偏偏加上电子音乐，然后让整组敲击组组员呆呆地坐在台上！太过分了！曲目也写得不好，听了很乱！

第三首——远古回音（张维良独奏）
同上！

第四首——痕迹之五（严洁敏独奏）
这首歌曲，是设法模拟书法家写书法的艺术。可是……
第一部：我跟毓豪说，“听起来很像王家卫的电影”
第二部：毓豪根我说，“很像恐怖片！”
第三部：我跟毓豪说，“好像有很多苍蝇”
第四部：毓豪问，“要回了没有……”难为了他。
总而言之，如果只是一幅书法，是我看都不想看的书法。

第五首——卡门（严洁敏独奏）
这首是全场最好听的歌曲。严洁敏的二胡很好听， 乐队也很配合。所以，以这首收场，可说是最好了。至少，弥补我耳朵之前所受的折磨。

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茅盾的是，之前我投诉是因为植物公园里奏的曲子，全是西乐，不伦不类得很。而这次，我最喜欢的，是西乐。

其实，为什么古典音乐要搞新颖？西方的古典乐也不是几百年来还是古典乐吗？传统有什么不好？我真的希望，他们别再搞什么创新了。

Things to Ponder

Life's been going on a very fast pace lately. I've been excusing myself way too often, from pondering things that had happened. Today, I've decided not to give this excuse to myself, and to sit down and think.

Of job
I've finally have a clearer mind of what I'm doing. Seriously for the past one year, I've been... struggling to find out where do I come in to help? It was so troubling, that I don't really know my stand. Now, I grabbed, and I hold it. It was troubling because, it feels like you're living without a purpose.

Uncertainties
There are so much uncertainties nowadays. Too much anxiety in the air to bear with. But my colleagues are right, the big fishes are changing their position but small prawns will still have to work. So don't worry.
Well, when there are so much uncertainties, you just don't really know what will turn out to be. Maybe, it's for the good. We'll never know. So, why worry?

EQ level
Kia Hooi congratulated me yesterday, for my improvement in EQ level! Yes, in one way or another, I grabbed the knot to control myself not to get crazy and stay calm when people step on my tail. An improvement to celebrate :)

So?
Well, so... now I've found the purpose, I'll have to live with the purpose. I'll remind myself from time to time.

Remind me when you catch me being lazy and procrastinating.

蚱蜢

很久都没静下来思考，总是一有空就往外跑。约朋友啦，看戏啦，追日剧啦，拍照啦，看音乐会啦，都没什么闲下来，想。

其实，没有好好地想，只不过是不敢面对，只不过是在逃避。心里知道应该面对的问题很多，应该计划的事情很多，只是一味的逃避，就可以“很快乐”的把时间拍得满满的，过得很充实的样子。只是这种多姿多彩的生活，骗得了别人却骗不了自己。难道，问题只要逃避就可以不用解决？

M. Scott Peck说得对，生活原本就是suffer。只要你意识到这个事实，你就会有勇气面对生活的一切难题。如果你觉得生活原本就是无忧无虑的，那么，你就永远想要逃避问题。这个，让我想到了蚂蚁和蚱蜢的故事。

现在的我，就是那只只想寻乐的蚱蜢。

随意

我要求很简单




我只是




想要很随意

The Dark Knight

I watched The Dark Knight on the first day it was shown on cinema. I just can't wait for another day...

It was a GREAT show!

Christian Bale was still as good as when he was in The Batman Begins. But, Heath Ledger as joker just managed to steal the whole show. He was the BEST joker ever. Of course, Christian Bale was also the best Batman ever. George Clooney was the worst...

Anyway, back to the show. I personally think that these superhero genre type of movies are improving from time to time. The movie makers realized (finally!) the importance to settle some of the problems in the movie. For example, when the Hulk bought his pants, he looked for flexible pants in the latest Incredible Hulk. Whereas in The Dark Knight, the Batman requested for a more flexible suit so that he can turn his head around! Make so much sense!

It was as dark as any batman show in the history, in fact, darker. The Joker was the scariest and most intelligent Joker I've seen in Batman. He played and fooled around with people's mind. He knows how to read mind like a psychiatrist. That made him very different from the Joker from the past, whom was only crazy for nothing. And he also managed to make you fear that Batman might have lost. (Although you know it was impossible)

Heath Ledger, the Joker

On contrast of another villain, the Two Face... was almost forgettable. He didn't get lots of scenes as Two Face, and he's not as evil as Joker. Even before Two Face became Two Face, the Mr. Nice Guy didn't plant too much of images in my mind. With Heath Ledger and Christian Bale in the movie, he just didn't get a chance to be remembered. Even the policeman was better than he was. Honestly.

I strongly recommend everyone to watch this GREAT movie because:
1. It was a GREAT Batman show!
2. The Joker was very good!
3. You're not going to see Heath Ledger in cinema anymore...

家

那天从家里出来，到我熟悉又陌生的新加坡。我心里一直很不好受……

不知道为什么，回家越来越像度假，越来越缺乏真实的感觉。我仿佛是个在家的旅客。撇去除了对家居事物摆放处不清楚，我还对家里大小事情一知半解。这让人很难受，究竟是我的家，还是我度假的地方？为什么这么不了解？为什么那么不清楚？

我想了很久……有时候，我真的很想回家，弥补空缺了五年的——家。

My Uncle Oswald

It's been a long time since I blogged about book. Not because I didn't read for all the while, it's simply because I'm lazy and some of the books that I have read, just not worth my time to blog.

Anyway, My Uncle Oswald had again proved that Roald Dahl was a writer with super wild imagination, even when it comes to sex. Yes, you didn't read it wrong, SEX! Mind you, it's not a porno type of sex. If you're a Roald Dahl reader, you will know his style, imaginative, crazy, bizarre, creative, wild, and of course, FUNNY!

My Uncle Oswald is an excerpt from Oswald's diary on how he made his fortune to millionaire. He started off by selling Blister Beetle (Viagra) at 17 to made his first fortune. But it ain't enough, and he teamed up with Yasmine and Aurthur later to collect sperms of famous people, such as Rachmaninoff, Stravinsky, Albert Einstein and lots more. The funny and wild obviously came from how they actually collect the sperms, which, I'm not going to tell here.

Roald Dahl, Roald Dahl, you'll never get bored with his books.

It Must Have Been Quite a Scene, If...

I vomit...

As what I have planned, I went to gym after work. But it was already quite late, around 6.30pm, and what's worse, I was actually a little bit of hungry. As my storage of food in the cabinet had went low, I didn't take any snacks for tea. And I still insisted, that I have to go gym.

After close to an hour of exercising, I came back. Bought a Subway sandwich and sat in front of my TV as usual. After 3/4 finishing the sandwich, I felt full all of the sudden. I didn't suspect anything, so I just put the sandwich aside. And then, I started to feel something in my throat. I knew it's something but I tried to convince myself it's NOT! Mind you, it's within minute after I set the leftover aside.

Then, I just walked calmly to my toilet bowl and BLAAHHHHH.... Here goes my $5.50 meal.

I was thinking, it could be a scene, if this would have happened in Subway itself :P

Anyway, no worries. It's not that I'm falling sick, I just upset my stomach with emptiness for too long and even strained my body to gym. I shan't do that anymore...

$5.50, wasted :P

After Fruit Fasting

As per Kia Hooi's request, here's my followed up report of fruit fasting...

Well, my fruit fasting didn't really go as what I've expected. I managed to pass through all the temptations of food. I even accompanied Yee Hau to have his lunch while all I had was just a glass of papaya juice. (I'm so proud of myself!!!) The only temptation is----> THE COFFEE! Anyway, the whole day went on fine.

The next day, out of my expectation. I didn't go to toilet thousands of times. Instead, twice only. That could be due to on the fasting day itself, I have had 2 toilet trips already. I can't be sure. But after close to 3 hours of patiently waiting, I ended my "toilet waiting" with 2 half boiled eggs breakfast like any of my usual weekends.

I didn't feel hungry at all at lunch time but I had a light sandwich to go with, and another juice. Then, I went shopping shopping at Orchard :D And I managed, to not drink a tiny bit of coffee :D

Then for dinner, I decided to go for delicious yet light food, the Japanese Soba at Paragon. (This delicious home made soba was recommended by Sock Hoai, it's called Shimbashi Soba at level B1 in Paragon. It's a bit pricey, but delicious.)

How do I feel? I obviously do not feel lighter, but my stomach was obviously flat in the morning! Maybe I should do this regularly? Say... once a month?

Anyone care to join?

Fruit Fasting

Kia Hooi had shared her fruit fasting experience with me and made me want to try it so badly. Just because I know, I have way too much toxic in my stomach due to my food liking behaviour!

Anyway, I am not as "adventurous" as trying a week long detox plan, I'm just doing a one-day detox. The fruit fasting :)

My symptoms:
sleepy and headache (I think these two were somehow related to my caffeine-free today)

Expectations:
Lots of toilet trips tomorrow morning!

Let's just see how it goes :P

爱，原来……

以为爱是一百巴仙的浪漫
以为爱是两人不管一切可以在一起

原来，都是错的。

长大后才发现，爱是一件很复杂的事情。少女情怀的浪漫，原来只是爱情的一小部分而已。而大部分？两人在一起必须考量将来，必须考量两人的成长程度，考量两人的责任……并不是开开心心在一起就等于爱。

以前看日剧，觉得有句对白很笨！
“以结婚为前提谈恋爱”
现在渐渐了解，这才是恋爱的终点。如果两人考量的结果是两人根本不能够一起生活，那就不用想了。因为谈恋爱不是只有那热恋期，而是还有更长更远更多的责任要一起走下去。

可是，在一起又不可以只靠责任，没有一丁点爱意，责任也很难维持一段感情。

你说，谈恋爱是不是很奥妙？

多年以前，多年以后

从来没有想象长大的样子
从来没有想象一起成长是怎样的
也从来没想象长大后回想从前是什么感觉……

今午和慧妮网聊，谈着谈着，我问她13岁的时候，有没有想过10年以后的我们谈的是这样的话题？

想想很不可思议，就这样十年光景过去了。13岁的时候，我们聊的我都忘了。仿佛为她整理行李的那一天，只是不遥远的以前。原来我俩都已经是上班人士了。我的思绪禁不住地飞回校园，那仿佛很接近，却有很遥远的回忆，模模糊糊的。

那些曾经陪我长大的朋友，谢谢你们曾经留下足印。

至今对我仍不离不弃，陪我走着多年成长的路，互相扶持的朋友，谢谢你们在我的生命中的每一天，留下新鲜的痕迹。

原来成长的路上有人陪伴，是件很美好的事。你说是吗？