长大·回家

以为工作了的自己，已经是个大人。可以不为离家而感到悲伤……

原来，我还是不能。我总是不喜欢离开家里的感觉。巴士开走后，我恨不得自己有更长的假期，好让我狠狠的呆在家里。可我不能。

原来，这种感觉，是不分年龄的。只要我的家人有在，我就会永远都想在他们身边。

难忘的音乐会

我可以给你写保单，你肯定从来没有看过这样的一场音乐会。也从来没有想过，原来华乐可以这样玩。什么女子十二月坊，根本就遥不及昨晚冯满天狂野的华乐演奏。

摇滚的华乐，你听过没？

曾经在冯少先的店里，听过冯满天那迷人的“流浪”。自此，我就念念不忘那中阮的轻摇滚。从2005年10月开始，我不断地提醒顺有老师，不管如何，你一定要把他请来马来西亚！

我们都觉得欣娣的形容很贴切。她说：“冯满天的歌唱，让我忘了呼吸。”我告诉你，这是真的。我虽然有准备相机，但是全场只能够专注的欣赏，无暇照相。我都差点爱上他了！

而冯少先呢，虽然一把年纪，但仍是精神奕奕。而且不改以往的风范，随性演出。爱快就快，爱慢就慢，表演欲还是这么强烈。“北方民族生活素描”里的“渔歌”，至今仍是我的最爱。冯少先的渔歌，仍是我听过最好听的。只有冯少先的渔歌，让我觉得自身在渔船上，悠悠的飘荡在水面上。

冯少先一直是个讲故事的人。不管是黑土歌，还是口述的故事，还是音乐的故事，冯少先的故事，永远最动听。

冯少先和冯满天两父子，是我见过最出色的舞台表演者。他们对音乐的热情，往往可以感染在场的所有人。他们的故事，一直可以让人深深地感动。

我很庆幸，我没有错过这场精彩的音乐会！

（我会想办法我轻摇滚的华乐放在部落上！）

My Expensive Hobby

How much does your hobby cost you?

I think I have expensive hobby. I like music, classical, chinese orchestra, pop etc. I like to buy them as well. Pop songs can be downloaded easily nowadays, simply click on any website, you've got what you want.

However, for classics and chinese orchestra, you can't download. Firstly, because we have less source on the internet. Secondly, and very importantly, you have to be choosy! At least for me. I chose the orchestra, the place of recording, the conductor, and of cause, the songs. And most of the time, after using the elimination method, you'll end up buying quite expensive CDs.

I went to check out for John Williams albums lately. I finally found quite a few in "That CD Shop" in Tiong Bahru Plaza, with quite a reasonable price too. But sadly, I came home empty handed. This was because, the first CD has all the John Williams songs but played by some dunno what orchestra and conducted by dunno what conductor. The other CD, conducted by John Williams, played by Boston Symphony Orchestra, but only 2-3 of his famous movie theme songs...

Sad...

Anyway, I'm listening to a CD that I bought last weekend, "Classical Moments" by Czech Chamber Philharmonic Orchestra. And the songs were recorded in a church in Germany, where Mozart and Hadyn used to perform there on 15th century. Cool~

Ok, I got to work... Shit! A lot of paperwork need to be done. And I'm taking my break now.

Things Changed

Nothing's forever, whether you like it or not. Face this!

You thought the one you love will be the eternal love. The next thing you know, he/she has another person by the side.

You thought you have a hapy life in the small town you lived in. The next thing you know, you've moved to a bigger city to live like an adult.

You thought happy life in small town will not change when you moved. The next thing you know, the happy small town becomes another big city.

You thought friends are forever. The next thing you know, you're telling yourself "Friends are not forever. But best friends are."

Don't get me wrong. I'm happy and grateful with what I have at the very moment and live my fullest all the time. But maybe sometimes, other people need to face this fact too. Don't you think so?

感谢

有无试过含着泪对苍天说谢谢？

我对宗教有很浅的认识。宗教那一栏总是填着free thinker。因为，世上太多神，我不知道应该相信哪一个。并不是他们都不好，我相信宗教都教导我们应该行好行善。

因为事情发生的突然，觉得自己真是非常的幸运。身在其中，却完全不被伤害。连少少伤都没有，而她却得承受生理和心理上的痛楚。大家怜悯的讨论着她，我就越是觉得不舒服，也同时觉得自己很是幸运。非常非常的幸运！

想要感谢。没有祈祷的我，不知道该向谁说谢谢。神灵们都应该住在天上的吧，我只好仰天对他们说，衷心的谢谢！

Life is Fragile

Things can happen over a split second. They really can!

We thought we're trained for something. We thought the training is sufficient. We thought we knew. But at that split second, you stunned! You couldn't do anything but stay in shock.

You could have run for help. You could have called. You could have helped whatever it was yourself. But HELL NO!

All I can do now, is to pray. And to feel grateful, that everything is fine for me.

I will pray for you.

It is a Happy Never Ending-Just another Reflection

It's never ending learning process, and I'm definitely enjoying it.

It has been two months since I started to work. I have learned to be more confident in things that I have doubts and also a lot on technical site of my work. Thanks to my boss, he had given me the freedom to ask whatever I have in my mind. He encourages me to ask scientific stuffs, because he said sometimes these people work too "engineeringly". They only "hentam" to get something but never understand how and why.

Had a little talk with my boss today. He had given me the whole picture of the business organization. He had done this on my 1st week in company. But at that time, I have totally nothing in my mind. So, he decided to give me another one, a more thorough one. And of course, I had my mind and thoughts expressed too. Felt better as I have not talked to my boss a single word for a month. It always seems like he doesn't know what I'm up to.

There's too much to learn, and too little time we have. If I'm not energetic enough, I think I'm not going anywhere. So, I'm dedicated to learn more and more with high energetic level! ^_^

Plans that I have:

1. Run at least 2/3 times per week so that I can make it to 5km on 1st Sept and 10km on 2nd Dec.
2. Salsa introductory classes commencing on 31st Aug.
3. Start my saving funds for travel and DSLR!
4. Read everyday.
5. Financial Planning!! Learning! Learning!
6. Never give up on my dreams (secret :P)

Things that I'm looking forward (SO MUCH!):

1. Feng Shao Xian's Concert on 25th Aug back in Penang (Dewan Sri Pinang)
2. Jacky Cheung's Concert on 14th Sept in Bukit Jalil Stadium

Things that I hope I can have more ($$ of course!):

1. More FREE concerts in the park
2. Variety concerts in halls etc.
3. Pick up my music back to the track again... ( I doubt)

What I need to improve:

1. Stop letting myself brain dead. THINK THINK! Don't do without thinking!
2. Note down things even though I think I'm going to get them in my brain, but eventually I didn't!
3. Have some time to rest my mind... Stop the noise pollution in the brain for a moment.
4. Pay attention!

Ok, I think that's all I have in mind today. Maybe I shall get some fresh air and get a peace of mind now.

^_^

Concert in the Park

It's a well spent weekend.

I went to Botanical Garden for the first time in Singapore with Sock Hoai, SH's sister and also Ching Siang. We went there because of a Singapore Symphony Orchestra FREE concert, outdoor! Been wanted to experience an outdoor concert all the time (after watching Vienna New Year Concert on DVDs etc), and this is it! Thank you to SH for recommending!

The journey to Botanical Garden was CHALLENGING! As SH had refered to streetdirectory.com, we should alight at Commonwealth MRT station and take a bus to somewhere and walk into the Palm Valley. But HEY..... We're lost! We ended up taking 2 buses and cab to get into the park! Streetdirectory.com appeared to be not as helpful as the bus guide SH's sister was holding. The journey back home was much more easier...

The concert was nice. I like the environment so much! Everybody was relaxing at the park while enjoying the music. This was GREAT! But if you're listening to the music carefully like me, you will not be that enjoying! The sounds system was not as good and the quality of the music played, I could say it's not the 100% effort of what SSO can present to their audience. But still, I hope they have more concerts in the park so that I can have picnics with my friends!!! I really do!!

I am a concert freak! If only I am making enough money for me to spend most of them on concerts... This FREE concert has really accelerated my "looking forward" to the CO concert that I'm going to watch! I am WAITING!!!!!

Draw Your House

It's been some time since I played some personality tests... Tried this from Celeste's blog. Draw you house and give it a try too~

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

Draw your house and see what's your personality.

PS It's damn difficult to draw with mouse...

跑步

不知道是愁伴我
还是我伴愁

我和愁
赌着气在太阳还没落幕之前
决定把气给从汗水中流走

是赌气
还是耳边闹哄哄的摇滚乐
我特别使劲！不停地跑。

摇滚乐的鼓励
身边飞快的车辆的比拼
我也没头没脑的挥了一身汗

身边的路人甲乙丙丁
来来往往地跑
我却突如其来地躺在草地上

一颗星星
伴随着晚霞给夜晚开序幕
隐隐约约地
不突出自己的闪亮
也不输给晚霞的缤纷

在我还没发现之前
一阵风却把彩霞给吹走
留下呆呆的我
在赞叹自然的魅力

小孩懵懵懂懂的走过来
好奇地看着我
和我挥挥手
啊！连小孩都注意这不修边幅的姐姐

云
被风吹走了
小孩
被球带走了

我的愁
散是散了

但是
没有风
我的愁不能像云一样
说走就走

没有风
云何来散？
云何来聚？

我和处女座

曾经有想过要写写这话题，但总是被遗忘。今早，竟一大清早起床和无聊的小狼在网上乱乱聊，从朋友聊到星座，才让我想起曾经放下的话题。

我是天秤座的女孩。曾经看过好多好多的星座的命理推算，都批我和处女座是不匹配的。天秤座和白羊座是最好的搭配。虽然如此，我总是看看而已，总不能百分百相信这种算命吧？！

其实我身边的处女座可多了。毓豪是处女座的，爱媚和Sock Hoai（我的同屋）都是处女座的，Hock Chuan也是。当他们全都在家的时候，我就是屋檐下唯一的天秤座。我大四的fyp mentor也是处女座的。而且，他可没告诉我哦！是我认识了他一段时间后，随口问他，你是不是处女座的？他很惊讶地说，你怎么知道？

大概是我已经被处女座的人包围着太久了吧！所以我多多少少可以做点小猜测。虽然并不是每一次都是准确的。呵呵！

其实什么星座算命嘛！我还不是好好地跟他们相处了那么久？

落叶归根

举头望无尽灰云
那季节叫做寂寞
背包塞满了家用
路就这样开始走
日不见太阳的暖
夜不见月光的蓝
不得不选择寒冷的开始
留下只拥有遗憾
命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底
喔～远离家乡不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

但愿陪你找回
所遗失的永恒
当我开口你却沈默
只剩一场梦

Presentation

I always recognize the fact that presentation skill is indeed very important to every single person. It's not just important to the $ making machine like me. Daily conversation, job interview, self introduction etc are presentation of us as well as the REAL presentation which requires you to speak in front of the crowd.

I attended a seminar today. There were several speakers to introduce the participants to the latest technology of the analytical tools. There were SEVERAL speakers, but there was only ONE that I think he's interested in his own project.

I was bored... So bored...

How could you expect others to feel enthusiastic to your work when you yourself are not showing any interest and energy? How could you expect people to stay awake throughout your presentation when you yourself are half asleep although you're actually presenting?

I saw people dozed off one by one, taking turns. And I dozed off too! I tried to stay awake, as I think it's really a respect to the speakers. Besides, the tools are useful in my job. I had several cups of tea and coffee. But even if I stay wide awake, I couldn't understand. Some speakers were simply murmuring words to themselves.

It is always HARD to find a good presentor in engineering courses.

IS THIS TRUE?

I hope not! At least I have to assure myself not to stand in front of the crowd withouth any energy level. Even if your English sucks big time, energy and enthusiasms of yours will still attract people to what you want to share.

Right?

距离

人和人之间的距离
应该如何衡量？

我和你相隔那么远
可是聊起天来却那么靠近

我和你面对面相逢
可是却感觉到那座桥断了

人和人之间的距离是很抽象的
因为，我们永远无法科学地衡量

人和人之间的距离是真实的
因为，我们永远欺骗不了自己
要改变的，已经改变

这一次
是我将桥砍成两段