917

周六应了SH的邀请，都到了917帮忙搬家。
没想到，最后我们全都离开了917。

917 里
那四面墙是不是会记得我们曾经在这里
那厨房是否留着我们烧菜后遗留的芳香
那房间是否还带着开夜班车留下的余光

如果打开那扇门
会否再一次听见我们的笑声
还有稀稀疏疏的心事和秘密

或许，917会留下我们的味道，那些只能够缅怀的过去，还有， 还有一起展望的未来。

关上了门，回声原来特别的响。

再见了。

新年来咯！

薇薇的傻老相机
摄于牛车水的一角
（特别注释，因为有人以为是网上的照片 ：P）

新年来咯！

上周到牛车水，想要感受感受一下春节的气氛。果然不错，大街小巷全是卖着新年的用品，装饰品，食物，当然还播放着吵吵闹闹的新年歌。还有，络绎不绝的人群。

虽然新加坡是个华人占多数的国家，可是不知道为了什么原因，新年的气氛总没有圣诞节那样盛大！好遗憾吧……

不管怎样，我期盼春节回家团圆的心情，永远不变。

新年见吧！

好期待哦！^_^

Food

It's been some time I never uploaded some photos of the food that I had. Well, I had some Korean style BBQ chicken last weekend in Cineleisure, Orchard. I don't really remember the name of the shop, but the shop is located at the basement of Cineleisure. The rice isn't great, but the BBQ chicken is well marinated, hence, yes, quite delicious. However, the salad is just "maa maa desu". Nothing special.

Chicken Soup, a drumstick and a Shitake mushroom >.<

Sweet Chili Prawns

Bean sprout, carrot and fishball with XO sauce ^_^

It's been a while since I cooked my own lunch. Finally, I did it again. Went to the nearest NTUC to buy some groceries last night. It's SOOOOOO crowded! I thought the whole population of Jurong came out to squeeze in NTUC! Crazy... However, I still manage to get myself some food.

Not the best meal in the world, but satisfied :)

那种淡淡的想念

打开我的skype，看见只有我亲爱的阿媛在线。毫不犹豫的打扰她一番，却发现是她姐姐在用着她的电脑。没办法也只好说不好意思。

还记得隆隆在电邮说的，怀念我们一帮很无聊的人在skype里玩conference。他那句话，让我们一群死党都感觉很窝心。那种被朋友淡淡的想念，那种对朋友的关怀，真不是金钱可以买到的。在skype里的胡闹，虽然在旁人眼中毫无意义，因为总是一晚的废话。然后大家互相讥笑谁的房间太吵了，谁的风扇很恼人，谁一直上厕所，谁一直在吃东西……谁下线了，而谁有上线了……总是这样就闹得凌晨一两点才告一段落。

现在大家都忙了，可是没有任何人忘记任何人。我们都各自远在一方，可是却心心相系。

春节快到了，非常期盼和死党们再一次胡闹。

One complain filed :P

I've filed a complaint from Vinh (my FYP mentor) that I've been writing my blog too much, in Chinese. Hahaha! Anyway, I didn't write this in English just for you. I do this because I'm so tired and lazy today. But I promise I'll do some balance, if possible.

I'm sitting in the dining room, drinking my jasmine tea like every other night and writing down something in the blog. Because I figure it's really time for me to wake up and grow up! Now that I know, how the "reality" is. Nobody is going to care, and so you're going to learn to cover your own ass! And you know what? I start to ponder, am I going to live this for the rest of my life?

*cough*

But no matter what, I know I ain't going to give up now or in the near future. I will achieve what I have set for myself, some big things, before I made any big changes in my life. Never say die! I'm so going to do everything I'm doing now, and DO IT WELL!

*Keep my fingers crossed*

I realize, life is nothing, but inertia. If you're once lazy, you're going to be lazy for a long while, or even forever. So, if you're really going into something, make sure you keep yourself doing. Because, I'm really experiencing this. Remember how I said I want to keep a healthy life and diet and so on. Well, good that I'm still going to gym or swim at least twice a week. But the bad thing is, I sort of couldn't control myself for junk food! Sigh... I even have to "hide" my junk food away from my cubicle, and keep them in my colleague's cube, since he's away for 3 weeks to reservice. But we're sitting way too near...

I need determination.
I will develop my learning skills.
I will figure out what is there for me.
I will achieve big things, and I will have to draw a plan.

I will! I swear I will!

I think if I were to master in some of the theory in Buddhism bla bla bla, I will have no facial expression changes, no anger, but clear mind of what had happened this week.

Life is again, nothing, but to learn, endlessly.

蓝色星期一

早上的地铁有故障
地铁站人群像逃难
原来上班根本是打仗

开会开得特别长
星期一真的特别蓝
放眼一望
大家原来在闲话家常

看看天空真的很蓝
我拎起书包往外窜

泳池里的世界没有人来人往
只有个无聊人在寻找宁静的家乡

话说那杯像浆糊的咖啡美禄饮料

我的“还说咖啡”，引来姐姐的不满。

“ah wei, you didn't talk about my neslo a? hmm..... next time i won't make one for you. ha ha! ;p”

所以，我在这里要特别介绍她独特的neslo。

Neslo并非什么新饮料，好多人在mamak档都尝过了。而我，在还没见识过世界的时候，我真的相信那杯像浆糊的neslo是姐姐创的饮料。真是没见过世面！竟然被姐姐骗了。

虽然被骗了，我每次回家还是嚷着要她给我泡一杯超大杯的neslo冰。姐姐的neslo冰可以说是独一无二吧！因为哦，以美禄市场上的价格，我相信没有一个老板愿意这样给你泡美禄。姐姐一杯美禄冰用的美禄，在外头可以当三杯来喝。所以，我特别喜欢！（妈妈就惨咯！整天要添美禄！）那杯neslo的浓稠度，只有我和弟弟（姐姐以外）可以承受的。爸爸说：“像浆糊！”

你们休想喝我姐姐为我泡的独一无二浆糊咖啡美禄冰哦！那是我的！：p

咖啡咖啡，原来真的有很多故事……

幸福站

有没有一个名叫幸福的车站
有没有一趟名叫幸福的列车

把所有在伤心码头等待的人
带往幸福的方向

我想如果有幸福列车
每个伤心人看见的印象都不一样
因为解铃终需系令人
让每个伤心人开心的事物都不一样

可是可是
搭客都开心了
车长却载着满满的伤心
一个人
漫漫长路从幸福车站回到伤心码头

车长
就是幸福列车上最不幸福的人

——完毕——

还说咖啡

咖啡的香浓，背后是一段段的故事。

印象最深刻的是在北京的日子，非常不习惯中国式的咖啡。比我们南洋喝的咖啡，淡了许多。一小包装的三合一雀巢咖啡，只够我泡上半杯。非常不过瘾！因此，我偶尔上街就买上一杯starbucks咖啡，非常贵，但解瘾。

还是夏天的时候，日新国中华乐团到了北京参加一项中学生的比赛。顺发、顺有理所当然的带团。也因为顺有，我的厨房多了三大包怡保旧街场白咖啡。乐得我！两包是妈妈托他带的，一包是他给我带的。我就这样，非常珍惜那咖啡，让自己一天只可以喝一包。

后来咖啡喝完了，老师也再也没到中国，我又回到那喝没有咖啡味的咖啡的日子。在我生日的那天，我收到了毓豪给我寄的信。里边满满的，才发现有几包白咖啡，还有一对小手套。在公寓的亭子里，我非常感动。好像秋天突然变暖了，好像他就在我身边。虽然他一直都不鼓励我喝咖啡，可是最后，还是给我寄来了，解一解我的乡愁。

咖啡和美食一样，配上了一点小故事，往往更浓，更有人情味……

你喝的咖啡，有故事吗？

咖啡

突然从抽屉里倒出了前阵子在tcc拿回来的咖啡小册子，想在这里分享一些我原本不知道的咖啡小故事。

Coffee Quote
Mmm! How sweet the coffee tastes, more delicious than a thousand kisses, mellower than muscatel wine. Coffee, coffee I must have, and if someone wishes to give me a treat, ah, then pour me out some coffee!
--Johann Sebastian Bach (1732, The Coffee Cantata)

J.S Bach一直是我不太喜欢的音乐家。他是巴洛克时代的，而基本上我本人觉得巴洛克时代的音乐多半沉闷。没想到，这位我不太喜欢的音乐家，确实超级咖啡迷。哈哈！

除了这个，小册子里还有十个关于咖啡的问答题。
1. How long does it take for the coffee tree to produce its first full crop after the coffee sees is planted?
a. 1yr
b. 3yrs.
c. 5yrs.

2. Approx. how many arabica beans does it take to make one pound of roasted coffee?
a.2000
b.3000
c.4000

3. In Japan, the official Coffee Day falls on,
a. Apr 1st
b. Oct 1st
c. Dec 25th

4. Who was the famous musician that was reputed to have always counted 60coffee beans for each cup he brewed?
a. Ludwig van Beethoven
b. Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
c. Peter llyich Tchaikovsky

5. Apprx. how many pounds of coffee cherries can an arabica coffee tree produce in a year?
a. 12lbs
b. 18lbs
c. 24lbs

6. Coffee beans are generally roasted between 400F to 425F
a. True
b. False

7. It was believed that adding sugar to coffee may have been started by:
a. French philosopher, Voltaire
b. French monarch, King Louis XIV
c. American adventurer, Count Rumford

8. It takes approx how many coffee beans to make a shot of expresso?
a. 42beans
b. 44beans
c. 48 beans

9. Iced coffee in a can has been popular in Japan since
a. 1908
b. 1945
c. 1948

10. Coffee is the most popular beverage worldwide with over 400 billion cups consumed each year. (Isn't that obvious?)
a. True
b. False

欢迎随便猜猜。答案自然会揭晓。

这个陪伴我若干年的杯子。

咖啡里的咖啡杯子。

柜子里的各种咖啡。

我并非超级咖啡迷，我从来没有研究咖啡。虽然，我也偶尔想买一台coffee maker。但，总是想想而已，然后罢休。对于喝咖啡，也没有太大的讲究。三合一虽然不怎么美味，可是懒惰起来，三合一还是好朋友。我不一定要喝starbucks,但偶尔一杯也很好。

对于怡保的旧街场白咖啡，我简直觉得是马来西亚的骄傲。这么棒的咖啡，这么大众化的价格。每一次回家，那是我和朋友们必定相聚的好地方。

Autocity 旧街场白咖啡分店

咖啡，最迷人的，是香味，还有香味带来的一段段的往事。

幸不幸运

你幸运吗？

有些人把幸运的定义，定于买马票会不会中头奖。有些人，有个安慰奖就很高兴。
有些人把幸运的定义，定于考试不用读书也可以金榜题名。有些人，过得了关就很开心。
有些人把幸运的定义，定于差点发生意外而还是闪过了。有些人，没什么大碍，死不了，就是福。
……

有些人天生命好，长得漂亮，有份好工作，好上司，工钱高，老公有钱，有车有楼，老公不到处拈花惹草，家人特别关爱……让人艳羡。
有些人，就连谈一场恋爱，都很辛苦。

究竟，这一切是不是命中的注定。究竟是谁，在天书上给我们的命运写下了故事。我们，究竟有没有权力更改？

我觉得我的命是不错的。家庭幸福，老友鬼鬼都待我很好，功课向来比上不足比下有余，工作还算可以，男朋友也很好。
虽然不够漂亮，但总算有人要。虽然钱不是很多，但总算没有饿过。虽然不是很聪明，但总算不是白痴……

幸不幸运，可能是个人对生活的要求而定。我觉得我的命算是很幸运，可是套在你身上或许不够用。你觉得你的命好，我若在你的鞋里，难不保我不喜欢。

反正如此，不如豁达一点。开心过生活，每天都相信自己是世上最好命的人！那是最好的了！

谢谢所有在我生命留下痕迹的人，是大家让我的生活更多故事。
谢谢所有爱我的人，现在我知道珍惜更多，因为我知道我不在的话，你们会想我。

水里的世界

细看之下，原来那滴水里有好多灰尘……
好多事情还是别那么清楚的好，雾里看花，总是比较漂亮。

朦朦胧胧……

那个相反的世界

细心从另一个角度观赏
我发现在那不显眼的角落
有个相反的世界

Just...

Time really flies, it's already 2nd week of the year. Have anyone tried to monitor whether you get to discipline yourself? I did. And I didn't manage to discipline myself for several things. The first one in the list, BED TIME!

I still go to bed after midnight everyday. Sigh...

Anyway, I am quite content these few days. Lots of things going on in office and lab. Busy.

Well, as per the title of this entry.

Just... Nothing...

阶段

人生的阶段，我们究竟走过了多少？在每个阶段，我们达成了什么？又失去了什么？

昨天一位很有经验的同事向大家公布了她将离职一年的消息，消息来得太突然，大家顿时不知道该怎么回应。之后，大家谈谈，才知道她离开的原因，是因为想给孩子多点时间。离职的决定来的不易，同事叙说的时候，眼睛也有点发红了。要放弃一份这么好的工作，实在不容易。可是为了家庭，她还是做了选择。一年之后，这位子还在不在，是无人晓得。Leave of absent，只是确保她一年后，公司里有什么空缺，她可以有所选择。

至于我，一个刚刚从大学出来的小小打工仔，刚刚好处与一心想向上冲的状态，恨不得手头上那比较紧要的工作可以早点有成绩，可是又急不来。急工作，又烦钱财。市场上样样东西都起价，身上那区区的几个大洋，如何才能存的更多钱？

将来的哪一天，我肯定还有很多大大小小的决定要做。每个阶段，都有烦恼。你看他好，他看你好。不如好好把握，把人生里的每个阶段，都画上最好的色彩。

你说，是吗？

请听

或许这是一个速食年代，效率总是被提倡，包括人与人之间的联系。

很多时候，我们忘了如何倾听别人的话。我们或许都已经把话听进耳朵里，可是，没进心里。第一时间感觉很有效率，这些人好似已经懂了我要表达的事。可是不尽然，隔一天就有人来问你同样的问题。即使你已经三番四次用不同的方式呈现。

我得承认呈现方式很重要，那是每个人都应该注意的地方。我也一直很努力的在学习。可是，用心聆听也是很重要的一环。谈话中听电话、回电邮，让人觉得很困扰，至少对于我吧。

不管是公事，还是私事，请将你的一颗心，交给说话的人，全心聆听，百分百了解。了解的时间可能长一点，可是，了解以后，达成共识再努力往共同的方向走，那不是更有效吗？

聆听。

2008

I can't write.

I think I had a long holiday, too long, that caused my brain to rust. I can't write, I do not know what to express, and I do not think properly.

I should have planned how to achieve what I need to, in the remaining 364 days. But I didn't... I shall beat myself up.

Exercise
Anyway, I gave my 2008 a good start by going to gym after work. I knocked off work earlier today, as I really can't focus myself. (Thank goodness that flexibility is the culture) It's been a exactly a month after the Standard Chartered Run. Meaning, it's been exactly a month I did not exercise. So, I consider this as a good start for myself.

Coffee
As a start of my 2008, I restrained myself with just a cup of coffee this morning. Yup, I have been drinking a lot of coffee lately. Erm... I think I shall admit it's plainly addiction. We'll see what will be tomorrow and the day after.

Food and Weight
Again, as a start of my 2008, I had salad for my dinner today. I indulged myself with lots of good food (good is an understatement, SUPER DELICIOUS FOOD) in Penang. From hawker stalls to restaurants, and never missed that, HOME COOKED FOOD! I had a party on X'mas night, and we had lots of grilled food. Too much of meat, and also wine for the December. And I gained my extra inches already. I weigh 49kg this evening! That's why I decided I need more vege and fruits.

Salad is good.

Of Reflections.
There's one thing I really need to address to myself. I found that I am still lack of confident at work place, and sometimes, hide away from things and get back to the shell. I think, one of the very very main concern, is I'm always afraid to be embarrassed. I know I have been improving a bit, but it is not enough.

This is the main concern, and I need to work this out!

Bed Time
It's 12.10am right now. I shall sleep soon.