Choices and Chances

Choice, is actually given to everybody. Chances too.

How often do you mourne for being in bad luck? How often do you complain to your close friends for being dumped in a very terrible situation? I have to admit, it does happen very often to myself! And it happens to friends arround me very often too.

If we take our time, to sit down and think for ourselves. Choices and Chances are always given to us, under any circumstances. No? Think again.

Several days ago, a "kaypoh" person started out a busy body conversation with me, telling me "someone" whom doesn't want to be named told him that he/she can always hear my laughter in the office ALL THE TIME. I asked him:"So?" I was not happy to be very honest. I know, and my boss knows that our aisle is the quietest aisle compared to those around us. We do communicate among team mates, don't get me wrong. But we just don't spend most of the time talking. Such a remark, can't stop me from thinking it is unfair to judge. Especially the "someone" is actually from the aisle we always think "how come they never need to work?", because of simply talking so much.

I wasn't happy. And I told Yee Hau and Kia Hooi. Both of them told me just be myself. These people simply want to find things to say. Yes, be myself, be happy.

Why find flaws in people? When you can see good things in them? Why busy body? When you have so much work to do. Why bother to listen to the crap? When I have more educational things to learn.

In this case, I was given a choice to ignore and given a chance to learn. Ignore nonsense, and learn the fact you can't cheer everyone in the world.

Choices and Chances. Let's think twice before act.

我的弟弟

有个弟弟的感觉其实很不一样。小的时候，我就是小霸王，虽然不至于要风得风，毕竟是家里的小女儿，父母疼爱，姐姐也很爱我。弟弟的出现，来得很突然。虽然妈妈怀胎九月，对我来说，仍是突然发生的。我从小就养成观察但不要问太多的习惯。这都是妈妈“教”的。小时候问东问西，总是被一大堆弄我一头雾水的答案搞得我糊里糊涂。所以，就渐渐养成自己寻找答案，或者问姐姐。妈妈也没告诉我弟弟几时会出来，除了肚子大了点，我们的生活并没有什么改变。

直到那一天早上，姐姐把睡梦中的我叫醒。“快点准备，我们去看弟弟！”我朦朦胧胧，觉得好奇怪。看见他的那一刻，只觉得他长得好奇怪，那一头站着的头发，很好笑。可是，人人都说他长得像我。

把弟弟带进家庭的前几个月，我想我都在适应如何应付这么小的东西。姐姐则溺爱他得像个年轻妈妈溺爱自己的儿子一样，每天给他唱个哄他睡觉等等。生活突然多了很多乐事。

小时候的弟弟，真得很可爱。他除了很好玩，很好奇之外，还很信任我。这让我觉得很新鲜。我叫他做什么，他都做。简直把他当作自己的洋娃娃。在大一点的时候，他就开始懂得分辨错对，那时更好玩，家里总是闹得天翻地覆。因为，他很爱喊。而他越爱喊，我就越爱作弄他。

我：恩，什么葡萄最好吃？
恩：不知道（带点口吃-bu gte gtao)
我：恩恩的葡萄最好吃！（手抓恩的盘子里的葡萄吃！）
恩：啊！！！！！！！！！妈咪！！！！！！

这条＂ｋｉｕ＂我用了很久，他还是每次都喊！很奇怪吧！我总是觉得他也乐在其中。

现在他长大了，声音变出了，也比我长得高了。我偶尔怀念小时候的他，我会看看他的照片。我总是在想，这个弟弟长大后会怎样？几时交女朋友？什么时候开始会拒绝和我一起看电影？有个弟弟的感觉，有时和妈妈一样。想要他长大，却又不想他长大。

你明白吗？

中秋节快乐！

不知道大家有没有注意这现象，现代人啊，庆祝佳节好像就是为了吃。中秋节嘛！就是大卖特卖那奇奇怪怪的月饼！有榴莲味、柳橙味、tiramisu、芝士等等。对我个人而言，都没有传统的月饼好吃。都是生意的手段？还是在这个年代，真的是不得不跟着步伐走？样样要更新？

妈妈的月饼更好吃，可惜没回家。

这个中秋节，也就这样和普通日子一样，糊糊涂涂地过。除了先前在吉隆坡买了一盒月饼回公司以外，什么其它的都没有。也没看见小孩提灯笼游街。我在想，会不会有一天，我问小孩，你有提灯笼吗？他会看着我，把我当成不小心乘坐小叮当的时光机到未来世界的人？他也或许不会这样想，因为他更不知道小叮当？哈哈哈！

我最喜欢小时候，自己一人拥有好多灯笼。除了那最传统的纸灯笼（也就是我认为最美丽的灯笼），还有一条龙、一条鱼、一只蝴蝶……但往往灯笼都被我烧坏，所以最后，每一年爸爸只给我买纸灯笼，便宜实际，烧毁了也无所谓。甚至每年中秋节玩蜡烛的时候，都会把那五毛钱的纸灯笼给烧毁，反正新的一年又有新的灯笼。现在想起来，真是浪费而且不环保！

不管怎样，中秋节快乐！

Why are you being dumped by your friends?

Saw this title on the cover page of the "teen" magazine in NTUC this afternoon. And the first thing that came into my mind, this is not a problem for teenagers only.

As we grown, the friends around us come and go. Some may return, but some, you might have even forgotten their names and looks. This is the reality of life, all start with "busy" as an excuse of losing the communication.

Come to think of it, we can continue the friendship by being the one who takes initiative to contact each other. This is just a button away since now (almost) all of us own a mobile phone and a pc. Right? Forgive me for sometimes I didn't take initiative... And I forgive you too, that when I have taken my initiative but you never reply.

Friends, are not work, not competition. It's true, that we have best friends, good friends, normal friends, hang out friends, know-by-name-only friends etc. There are different levels of friendship. But nonetheless, please don't get jealous when your friends appear to be closer to the other. This is just life. That you may have a closer friend that him or her too, right?

Friends, are not forever. Only true friends are. Who are your true friends?

The Mind Cafe

It's a belated birthday celebration for Sock Hoai. Happy birthday gal!~

We spent our night at the Mind Cafe. I am never a big fan of board game, but this is really fun! At first I wasn't quite keen to the idea, as I thought board games might need a little of my brain... But Ching Sian assure me, that I don't really have to bring my brain along. So, I voted for this, putting 100% trust on what he told me.

IT IS REAL FUN!

We had mostly brainless games! And 9 of us, been acting like we had forgotten our age, our identity etc.... All we did, were shouting, grabbing, cheating, crazying.... violently! The neighbouring tables were looking at us, curiously. And of course, when we put aside the games, they will pick them up to play. Hahahaha!

We spent 5 hours in that particular cafe. I guess, I don't have to further elaborate how fun it can be :)

Don't Defence Your EGO

It's been 3 months since I started to work. It has been eventful, with all the ups and downs. I was surprised, that so many things can happen in such a short period of time.

Sometimes, I would get confused that my job is just to be there to talk to people. To be able to get my job done, I have to arrange for short meetings with people from different area just to understand my role in certain issue. Sometimes, I need to get information; Sometimes, I need to address my boss; Sometimes, I need to request for something; Sometimes, I need to read emails and reply all of them and digest them as well; Sometimes, I need to call the vendors... And, so often, I do all these on the same day, and I end up doing talking and listening for the whole day!

I always tell myself, maybe this happen just because the lab is temporarily down for now.

I start to understand how all things go for different people in the team. There may be some of the things that I dislike, but we'll have to understand, nobody is born the same. This is a simple fact. But sadly, I don't think everyone understands this. Sometimes, I have to remind myself of this too.

Due to some changes we need to make now in the lab, I start to understand how people refuse to accept changes. At least, in a positive way. It's very hard to get people being convinced of what you're trying to do, especially you're such a FRESHIE. And I start to feel the Tai Chi in the air, that people fan away responsibility, and defence their old thinking.

But, nobody is born the same. Change is the only constant. So everybody needs a change eventually...

So, don't defence our ego.

Malaysia... Oh Malaysia...

I'm not sure if any one of you having the same feeling as I do. Every time I go back to Malaysia, I'm simply feeling very happy. Even if I go KL, not my hometown, I'm feeling very good, that I stepped on my "own" land.

Is it simply because of the food? That taste like my childhood? That taste like my memory? I think I don't really have the answer. I guess, it is simply because you grow up on this land, and you feel wonderful when people are speaking the language that you once know, in the tone and slang only you know the best.

I have spent quite a lot back in KL last week. The main contributor is of course the concert ticket which cost me RM200 per pax. I paid for 2 because it's a birthday present for Yee Hau too. Then, we have to pay for the hotel and the return bus ticket as well. And, we paid for the shopping and food that we had! Hahaha!

These photos are just a few that I picked to tell you where did I go, and what did I do over the weekend in KL.

Of course, our main purpose of going to KL, is to watch Jacky Cheung perform in his concert. Yee Hau, me and my Ah Ku were having the ice-cream I bought at the gate of stadium.

The next morning(well, not really a morning...), we had breakfast in Chinatown. Ham Chim Peng and Yew Cha Koay were my favourite. You can't get freshly cooked Ham Chim Peng in normal Singapore hawker centre, but you can get this everywhere in M'sia.
We checked out the hotel, and head towards the famous MidValley. To my surprise, the Rapid KL is very new and fast, and good! Took photo on the bus like some Shua Ba Gao...
Then, due to my crave for having some caffeine, we stopped by at San Francisco Coffee in MidValley before starting with all the shopping.

Some random photos of shopping...Then, the hungry me went to Nando's Chicken. This is the cool pic I took for Yee Hau, isn't it nice?Then, the supper is Satay! Singapore satay are extremely expensive compared to Malaysia. So, it kinda like a compulsory event to do in Malaysia.Then, the Ha Min (Prawn Noodle), which was quite good!Then, we boarded the bus to go Singapore again... With my stomach, filled with all the good food. Of course, hawker food in KL is nothing compared to Penang. Penang is the best place for hawker food, it's even voted the best in some famous magazines. It is no doubt, people like us, can be very choosy for GOOD food... ^^

学友光年世界巡回演唱会

说起张学友，几乎没有朋友不知道，他就是我从小到大非常崇拜的一位偶像！我多年的期盼，期盼有天会亲身体验他的演唱会，终于都在九月十四日那天实现了！姐姐写的“薇薇的张学友”很简单的形容我对张学友的爱戴。

为了张学友，我不惜一切，请了半天假，把小舅和毓豪都给骗到吉隆坡去。可惜，姐姐忙得很，未能参与我们的阵容。我们订了RM198的票，订了酒店，就一直等着星期五的到来。说实在的，有点压力。因为，前阵子学友他取消了香港的演唱会，加上现在高速公路甚严，一直很担心半天假请得不够……
还好，最后我还是坐在演唱会现场了。

长话短说，张学友的演唱会实在是太棒太棒了！由开场到结尾，我都未能形容，他声音的那爆发力给我带来的无力感。这种声线，这种完美华丽的歌声，真的只有张学友才配得起“歌神”这称号。由“爱火花”、“头发乱了”等四首快歌，学友把大家都弄热了！然后，就来点经典的歌曲。如预期中的“每天爱你多一些”、“吻别”、“遥远的她”、“只想一生跟你走”……

此外，张学友为了那些从来没观赏过他的“雪狼湖”的观众（我！），特别带来一个超短歌舞剧，由“如果·爱”和“雪狼湖”的歌曲组编而成。这整个歌舞剧，我几乎屏息静气的，无法按照正常的规律来呼吸，因为，学友的歌声，就是太棒太棒！

歌舞剧后，学友竟然说再见。歌迷们当然不愿意，我们安歌了又安歌，张学友突然唱出“我真的受伤了”，差点害我喊破喉咙，皆因，太好听了！然后陆陆续续几首非常熟悉的歌曲，“情书”、“她来听我的演唱会”、“暗恋你”、“等你等到我心痛”、“李香兰”、“蓝雨”、“月半弯”……听得我如痴如醉，真的不想演唱会就这样结束。

学友最后以一首“祝福”送别歌迷。我那时真地想哭了，怎么就这样结束了吗？好想他再继续唱下去，可是不可能吧！都将近4个小时了……

下一次（不管学友那时50岁还是60岁，甚至70岁），我一定要付更多钱，坐在前排。因为，前排的歌迷安歌可以点歌哦！前面的安娣就是这样点了“李香兰”，虽然我也很喜欢这首歌，但是我有更多更多张学友的好歌想听……“真情流露”、“你的名字我的姓氏”、“不老的传说”、“分手总要在雨天”……哪有可能给列完呢？

除了歌唱，值得一提的是设计和编排。燃放烟花、灯光、音响，都可以说安排得很好！总是给观众带来惊喜连连，值得啊！值得！当然，少不了称赞那非常厉害的乐队。没有他们的音乐，当然就没有张学友的演唱会啦！

就这样，我第一次观赏张学友演唱会。以后，一定还有以后……

Dragon Boat

I had fun today!

It's the PE's quarterly team building again. This time, in short notice, we went to Kallang for dragon boat! I was actually quite excited when I was informed with the news. How often can someone like me go for dragon boat? NEVER!

We gathered in one of the restaurant located near Kallang indoor stadium, Mushroom Pot 9am. Then, we had comm session which our director shared some visions with us. We then brainstormed for some posters competition when we're divided into teams according to the products. After that, we had STEAMBOAT in Mushroom Pot. It's a chinese traditional herbal soup and different kinds of mushrooms!!!! Oh, carnivores, don't worry, the restaurant serves meat too! Hehe! The steamboat is good!

At 1pm, we started to gather to walk or drive to the place that we're going to have our dragon boat experience. Lucky enough for me, my colleagues drove us there. At 1++, we're already stretching according to the instructions given by the coaches (2 outsiders, and one colleague which is a member the company dragon boat team.) We're complaining like school kids cause we just had our mushrooms... We're imagining the mushrooms swimming in the stomach! Managers with big belly were complaining too, because they can't touch their toes... :P

We're divided into 3 teams, each 20 people with a coach. We're briefed with safety instructions, safety always comes first. Then, we board the boat! Ok, this is the best part... I was wondering at the moment I boarded because I thought I should sit at the right place. But, apparently there were two guys who can't fit into the seat of the head of the boat (Their butts are too big for the narrow seat). And one of the manager just grabbed me (since I was stoning) to sit in front with one of the guy. This is a wrong decision to say ok. Cause, the one in front is so important, I have to shout all the way! OMG!

Sometimes, I think working adults are no different from the school kids. We're supposed to train and compete among each other. But before the competition, we're already competing. We're chasing each other's boat (it's so hard to play chase on the boat!) to splash water on the opposing team! Gosh! My responsibility is to get my team member out of the danger! ROW FOR YOUR LIFE!

I really had fun playing! Dragon Boat is so cool!~ Maybe it's cool only because all of us are so crazy when we're out of our computers and projects. I like this.

Anyway, if someone wants to go dragon boat some time, please remember to invite me. But this time, make sure I sit behind :P

(PS. Found out that one of the manager in the team is so cute, that when he smiles, I can't see his eyes. Like this - - hahahahaha!!! Never notice that because I never really talked to him.)

Good news for my FA team, that one of my colleague's wife delivered a baby boy when we're rowing the boat. He's so happy~

煮饭

爸爸说为什么我没把自己煮的饭菜照相后放在网上?我想想,大概是觉得自己煮的不过是普普通通的东西,放在部落上是献丑啊!况且,我平时放工比较迟,回家都晚了。即便是煮饭，也多数是毓豪煮的，随随便便，有的吃就好。

今天周六，难得我没有节目。一觉醒来已是十点钟！哈哈哈！无无聊聊的，洗了澡便到市场买菜去。煮几道菜来尝尝！

反正闲来无事，便学学石媛，把食物的照片放上网！

豆腐

材料：

1. 豆腐一块
2. 虾米
3. 辣椒
4. 蒜头
5. 酱青

煮法：
现将豆腐放入锅内清蒸。然后，准备浆料。首先，爆香蒜头。之后，把虾米和辣椒一同加入。片刻，加入酱青，在加点水。多炒一会儿，就可酱料倒在蒸好的豆腐上。上菜！~

蔬菜

材料：

1. Broccoli一粒
2. Carrot一条
3. 蘑菇两粒
4. 蒜头
5. 蚝油
6. chicken granule

煮法：

1. 爆香蒜头
2. 放入broccoli
3. 加点水
4. broccoli稍软后，加入萝卜和蘑菇
5. 加点蚝油
6. 加点chicken granule （根据喜好）
7. 爱吃软软的萝卜和蔬菜，就稍微炒久一点

一桌的食物，一下子就扫个清光。除了以上所提的蔬菜和豆腐之外，我还尝试模仿阿嬷炒的鸡蛋。结果和众位阿姨和妈妈一样——失败！阿嬷的炒蛋是全世界最好吃的蛋！可惜，我没有天分。然后，我还煮了一过老黄瓜汤！

嗯……还可以啦！呵呵！！

The Longest Day...

It's been very tiring for me!

I've been dragging too long to complete my PR application. So, I decided I must do this, TODAY! I went out earlier than I normally go to work, because myths of ICA crowded with people really scare me...

Guess what! I've spent, 7, 7, 7 HOURS in ICA!!!!

This is really scary...

Who gets the damn to say Singapore Government Service is efficient and fast? Try to sit in the immigration office for 7 hours...

This is really a pain in my ***... I was sure that I nearly bored to death in the office... I exchanged so many SMSes with my colleagues and friends, and read almost every article in the newspapers. I didn't have my lunch either... And I didn't get back to my office too...

This is a piece of SHIT!

Celebration for AiMei and Hock Chuan

Please join me to send wishes to the happy couple! *claps!*

Oh, don't get sad because they didn't invite you for the ceremony, just in case you are. It's a birthday celebration! (As for the wedding, please check with them when will it be. I'm sure they'll send out the RED BOMB!)

We celebrated AM's and HC's birthday last Saturday, by having buffet lunch at Chinatown. The environment was nice and cosy, but the food was just ok. However, we still managed to spend almost 5 hours in the restaurant. Hanging around, catching up with each others... Hehehe...

The birthday gal giving out her action in shampoo commercial! Hahahaha!

Jerry, me and Sock Hoai... And a BIG guy having whole plate of salmon sashimi.

Some Collection of Photos Weeks Ago...

It's a normal Saturday, that Yee Hau has to work half day while I spent my morning sleeping away...

We met up in the town for movie, Bourne Ultimatum. Then, we headed to East Coast Park, supposedly meeting up with some JSHS people for gathering. But, that gathering screwed up big time. We ended up waiting for Ai Mei and Book Kgim, whom were victims as well. We're bored, so we took some photos by the beach.

Just when you thought I'm a bit crazy...

Please look at THIS...We got to catch a romantic sunset by the seaside...
Some "art work", "By the Beach"

小马条(Matthew)在新加坡

小舅趁着国庆日的假期，带着一家大小到新加坡来走走。这是小小马条第一次踏足新加坡。好久没看见这“乖懒”的小表弟，真是越来越向他爸爸（一样乖懒）。这次看他，发牙了，很可爱！但是小小马条很好动，很难为他照相。

冯少先·冯满天——难忘的音乐

The Rock Star~

顺有老师让我们躲在后台的贵宾房里拍的照^^

我和佳慧在后台

我们都是拼命的挤才照得相！冯满天都被我们挤出汗来了！

我和伟杰

Memories...

Memories flash back with a little of feeling, especially the one that goes down.

Unlike the movies, my memories never come to me with a smell, a food, a taste, a colour etc. I wonder whose will? They always come suddenly, along with tears.

It is strange enough, memories seldom come merrily. But they are mostly those episodes, of a little ups and downs.

I walked home from MRT station as usual. But what I saw, were not cars and traffic jams, but pieces of music in DSP, tears from my team members, broken hearts and hard lessons learned for the fact that games are never fair. And often, the adults are playing their own board games, and we're just the little green soldiers. I felt the heart broken still, and I thought I was back in 16 year old.

Suddenly, I remember the touch from snow, for the first time on my nose. I thought I wasn't in Singapore for the moment.

Then, I remember the times in uni, that dinners were served with tears. Dinners were never served on dining table with family you love, but on the study table with a couple of meaningless dramas that portrait some families having their dinner together. How I wish I was never here.

Suddenly, I remember the scenery of The Great Wall which came along with "The Great Wall" music pieces. I wished there were real soldiers. I always imagine.

I remember, clearly how so many of us packed ourselves into a small hotel room in Park Royal Penang when we're having longest holidays. We chatted like no tomorrow, and we tasted sea water with some banana splits. That was, the greatest time I had with them.

Suddenly, I remember how Yee Hau tucked me in when I'm shivering on winter of Beijing. And I remember how I missed him when we're apart. Sometimes I still wish I could miss him this way.

I remember I cried over for Dajie's stories. I cried so hard, that I forgot those weren't happening on me. And I thought, I really love her, that she's a part of me, though we're apart.

I reached for my keys mechanically. And I entered my room with some tears rolling down. For what reason? I never understand. That is the time I wish I study psychology to understand what is there in my mind. Why do the tears come when I'm living absolutely fine?

Memories never end because we never stop making new episode everyday...

What are yours today?

Some Rubbish

If my life was going to be on TV, and I happened to watch it, I'm going to turn it off, and curse the producer.

I think I've fallen into a comfort zone again. Sometimes, I think I have already given up some of the things that I SWEAR to myself, that I'm going to do. But I stopped at one point. Remember is one thing, execute is another.

What's excatly important to me? And what's not?

What makes people falling into comfort zone? Laziness is the first thing, dependency is the one comes next. Laziness and dependency, come together. I've realized that I depend on YH so much, that I even need him to count my $ for me at the end of the month, just because I think my accounts screwed up big time! And when dependency is there, laziness comes too. Or the other way round. And expectations come too, and fight comes along.

I believe, that our life won't be taken away, if we believe we have many things to achieve, if we know we have to do so much to help to make this place a better one. If you believed in god, I think you will think god will see you doing a hardwork for all you believe, and won't take you away. I truly truly believe, that the creator of the world will not take someone who have missions to accomplish away easily. That is why, I think I need to load myself with lots of missions.

But is this true?

I have lots of things going through and on in my mind... All the time... It's always a bit here and there. And here they are, some of them noted here. I don't even know what points do I want to carry out for you, but I just want to let some of them out, like letting a ballon of air.

I have so many things to say, but yet they're too scattered in everywhere. That's why I called them some rubbish.

I don't really know what I'm talking about...

Can I Ever?

I had my 5km run this morning. Or rather, I should say, it should be a 5km. It should! Mind my words...

It started just like a normal morning, except for being up a little bit earlier. And I took a ride on Ching Siang's motorbike to East Coast Park. It's a smooth journey and we're able to reach there on time. We met with Ai Mei and Hock Chuan, then my colleague, then Phey Hong etc.

The race started, I ran off just like the other HPers... But, my shoe laces loosen up for at least 5 times, by the time I got up, everybody was ahead of me. And the WORST thing to happen to your run, I had a TOILE-RUSH! I ran into the second toilet that I saw on the way...

This is how I ended my run.

I lost my confidence now of being able to run well on Dec, for 10km! Shall I? Or shall I not? You tell me...