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It's late at night, I know I'm supposed to be on my bed, having my dreams... But I just can't let go of THE book I'm currently reading, and my thoughts.

"The Road Less Travelled" by M. Scott Peck. (Thanks KH for recommending this)

The book had caught so much of my attention, that I couldn't stop myself thinking, reflecting based on what the author had written.

I need a change.

It's not just about the book. I've been pondering since the final semester of my uni life. Is that what I want from myself? I read, I searched, for something I once thought, is the meaning of life. But now I think, I'm actually looking for more, I'm searching, for myself.

I think it's very important to recognize yourself, to keep yourself conscious about your unconscious, to lead yourself to something really meant for you.

To get yourself doing things that you want to do, the best way which works for me, is to write it down, and to constantly remind myself.

I want a change.

Change in:

1. temper
2. level of assertiveness
3. guts to present myself with confidence

I lost the sense of "dedication" to things I love for the 4 years in uni. This is the reason, I thought my life in uni, in a way, SUCKS. I still very much remember my CO days, that all of us, dedicated our time, our energy fully to achieve the common goals we set for ourselves. We went through everything together, held each other strongly, to "fight" with the "authority" whom we thought they're "enemies" in a way, we never gave up.

I lost this DEDICATION.

I want this back so much.

I think, dedication makes me feel so much alive.

If you find me losing dedication again, please pull me back, and show me this entry.