My Year 2012

Since the world didn't end on 21.12.12 as predicted, I am still given a chance to sit down and list down my yet another interesting year.

Well, let me think what I have done, it didn't feel much this year...

1. Started my year 2012 counting down in Shanghai with my family.
2. Went to KL twice for just weekends. Once with Yee Hau just for weekend getaway, another time was to send En off to University.
3. Ran half marathon in midnight and in the rain for the first time of my life.
4. Flew to HK just to meet up with Hui Nee, since I haven't got a chance to meet her up for the entire year.
5. En visited me at Singapore for the first time (by himself) before entering university. 
6. Went to Universal Studio Singapore for the first time with En even though I stay there and going there can be so convenient.
7. Attended 3 best friends' wedding in a year, to be exact, in 3 months.  
8. Learned simple make up for the first time of my life. DIY through Youtube. Don't you just love internet!
9. Had our own DIY prewedding shots in Penang with an entourage of 7 people. It was fun and tiring! Luckily we only have to do this once in a life time.
10. Planned and finally done with our own wedding in Singapore.
11. Got married.
12. Invited and seated at media seats for the first time of my life in Singapore National Chinese Music Competition 2012.
13. Preparing for 2nd and 3rd episodes of our wedding.
14. Had a great time with my cousins at Penang, and finally went to some famous cafes in Georgetown, like a tourist!

 I'll leave the reflections for myself.

Happy new year everybody and have a great & wonderful year ahead!

And to my friend, Cindy, Happy Birthday!!! *hugs*

2012全国华乐比赛获奖者音乐会与颁奖典礼

期待中的获奖者音乐会，终于在星期天晚上过了。期待的原因有几个，第一、我很想知道自己对合奏小组排名的名次和评判的一不一样；第二、获奖者音乐会是双人票，我可以和佳慧一同出席；第三、我也真的很久没有观赏音乐会，华乐的更不用说。

没想到，omy让我们坐媒体席位。本小姐第一次有机会坐在媒体席，有点小高兴。又痛恨没得照相，要不然一定把单眼带来。

音乐会由公开组的得奖者开始表演。笛子独奏冠军，林明慧《鹰之恋》、二胡独奏冠军，周俊如《秋韵》、中阮独奏冠军,谢伟建《满江红》，独奏皆由新加坡华乐团伴奏。我对《鹰之恋》和《秋韵》都不熟悉。可我偏爱《鹰之恋》的旋律，带点新疆音乐的感觉。而《秋韵》，可以说是非常典型的二胡独奏曲。周俊如的技巧确实没话说，但是本人有点小小的意见，就是音乐感情不够投入。《满江红》是我很喜欢的曲子，我本人的小小见解，就是中阮的音量厚度不在，没有岳飞的气势。因此，让我选择的话，我比较喜欢笛子独奏的演绎。

如我之前所预料，精英丝竹乐团获得了合奏公开组的冠军。他们演了《音诗——大漠遐想》，演绎的很好。音诗里有一大段的音乐，像是在冥想之中。让我联想到《沙地尔传奇》也有一段类似的冥想，让人不知不觉中沉醉在自己的世界里。

中场休息以后，是颁奖仪式。少年组、青年组和公开组的得奖者分别上台领奖。少年组的最可爱，最年轻的才8岁，而且还得了冠军。现代城市的小孩至小有很多不同的见识，机会自然而然的也比较多。想当年我八岁的时候，在学校玩泥沙吧～

公开组由李显龙总理颁奖。第一次看见总理本人，还是那句老话，总理好高哦！我心里在想，公开组奖项赢得多值得啊。以后的日子，你可以炫耀说，奖项是总理颁发的呢！多骄傲！

颁奖后，是少年及青年组的表演。可能小孩子不管做些什么都比较可爱吧，我觉得下半场的节目更精彩。陈欣宇就是那八岁弹琵琶的小女孩，表演了《天山之春》。她的演绎一点都不象八岁的小孩，技巧成熟，感情也投入。音乐透出了自然的欢愉。接着是李文玓唢呐独奏《正月十五闹雪灯》、高程锦扬琴独奏《落花·夜》、郭威胜古筝独奏《溟山》。对于唢呐和古筝，我没有很大的认识。扬琴呢，我会的曲子吧，都很落伍了⋯⋯《春到清江》、《节日的天山》⋯⋯都是过去式的独奏曲。《落花·夜》让我感觉象钢琴曲，象日剧里的插曲。高程锦的技巧让我想躲起来，别告诉别人我以前弹扬琴。

压轴曲目，是敲击小组的《Strange Loops》。我对于华乐的看法一直是很传统的，我总喜欢听见很经典很传统的华乐曲目。因此，对于整首曲子我都在期待敲击的传统拍子，但是，没有。当然我不排除这种新派的曲子变化比较多。那些期待，仅仅是我个人比较刻板的喜好。

谢谢omy让我们有机会回味我们中学被华乐包围的回忆！

新加坡全国华乐比赛2012

上个周末，拖着刚刚从Standard Chartered Marathon回来而疲惫不堪的躯体，我开始有点后悔参与这个活动。但是，是我自己题上自己的名字，怎么可以放飞机。所以，我还是把自己从床上拉起来，到Tanjong Pagar的Singapore Conference Hall去观赏新加坡全国华乐比赛，合奏小组的初赛。

当天参与的合奏小组总共有三组：精英丝竹乐团、吉丰华乐团、大巴窑西民众俱乐部精英华乐团。

精英丝竹华乐团呈献了两首歌，西湖梦寻的第二乐章《鱼乐》和一首西乐改编的曲子Typewritter，都是比较轻快的歌曲。一直以来，我都对轻快的歌曲比较有好感。这两首曲子很快就感染了我。再加上，Typewritter之时，敲击小组的其一成员带着她的不知名的敲打乐器，当起了主角。她活跃的台风让我情不自禁地想起了冯少先。（啊！冯少先，真让人怀念！）

吉丰华乐团呈献《抒情曲》。歌曲中有一段高胡和大提琴的对唱。我一直以来都很喜欢大提琴，可惜的是歌曲里的大提琴的声音不够圆滑敦厚。唢呐短短的独奏，也玩得不够自信。多可惜，整首曲子只有短短的那一段，应该抬起头自信快乐的吹奏。我对这首曲子一点都不认识，不过由于我个人对低音的偏好，如果低音部分（大提琴、倍大提琴、中阮、大阮、笙）玩得更有厚度会更好一点。拉弦和吹管组的音准也应该加紧注意。

大巴窑西民众俱乐部精英华乐团呈献了《乡音寄怀》。扬琴乐手最引我注意，不仅仅因为自己当年也是弹扬琴的，她是三队里最年轻的乐手吧。这首曲子是很典型的华乐，让人怀念的典型华乐。那种敲打乐器在后面“庆庆锵锵”的典型，让人怀念的吵闹。或许是因为队伍里的成员年龄参差不齐，他们个人对曲子的了解和诠释有点不一，我有时候不小心就分散了我的注意力。

我个人喜好，我最喜欢精英丝竹华乐团的表演。我不知道最终的成绩是什么，这纯粹是个人意见。

大学第二年以后，我再也没有亲身接触华乐。（大概有六七年了！）偶尔应朋友的约，听听音乐会还是有的。但是家里那台扬琴早已被遗忘在一个角落。中学时期，那些玩音乐的日子就随着扬琴，尘封在回忆里。

有机会看见热爱华乐的朋友在台上表演，还是让我回味无穷。自己心里太清楚，要维持一个业余的乐队实在是太难。津贴的问题往往是最头疼的问题，再加上成员们各自都有工作，要拥有多少的热忱和纪律才能把乐队维持下去，可想而知。这些业余的乐团，都值得大家给予更大的鼓励。与此同时，这些乐团也应该多多为自己打广告，招招生。

听完了初赛，说真的也没有后悔拖着疲惫的身躯而来。毕竟，能够借着表演回忆回忆还是很好的。

十二月九日晚上八点，将会是获奖者音乐会（所有组别－独奏、合奏、打击乐）及颁奖典礼。这是一个售票的音乐会， 票价十元，可在sistic预购。从今天到九日的比赛，是免费入门的。有兴趣者可查询此网页。

谢谢omy的邀请，我才能知道这两年一次的全国赛正进行中！期待这个周末的表演 :)

Married!

Despite of all the uncertainties in myself, we've walked the red carpet, and signed the life long contract.

Yes, signed, and no turning back.

The entire process of getting married was pretty tiring and at the same time exciting. I've got to finally understood what all my married friends gone through. And the feelings they described, not all the same, but yes, now I know how they must have felt at that moment!

The most common question I got when I got back to work after married, was "How do you feel being married?" Unfortunately, I can't put the emotion in words. Yes, we're happily married, but things don't really change a lot since we've been staying together for years.

How do I feel being married? I felt loved. I felt loved not just from the one I signed the contract with, but from families and friends. My friends complained about me not giving the speech on that night, but I guess I could not. If I did, I might be crying. So, let's just leave the talking to the Man.

The wedding dinner, was the one we've always wanted. Mostly casual, our guests were roaming around, talking to friends from other tables, exchanging their own seats to catch up with old friends. It's a wedding dinner + gathering of friends to us. We were busy roaming around too, trying to talk to as much friends as possible, but even with this setting, we still didn't manage to entertain all guests. Really sorry to the guests we've missed.

While we're enjoying the day, we've put stresses on our friends. Poor friends, we're truly sorry. They're the ones who took care of the decoration, the reception tables, the flow of the ROM and dinner, dinner for the live band, the alcohol, the videos etc. This group of friends took off our all stresses so that we didn't have to run around the hotel like mad.

We're really glad our guests left mostly at 10pm onwards. Ever since we're preparing for the wedding dinner, the bridal shop, the photographer, the hotel, the live band etc. were telling us buffet dinner mostly ended at 9-9.30pm. Especially it was a Sunday evening, the dinner will end even earlier. But we guessed the guests enjoyed the night as much as we did, the dinner ended unexpectedly late. We're very happy with that.

With all the blessings from everybody, we're finally becoming Mr & Mrs. Our promise to all of you, we will live happily together, we will not disappoint you :)

How did it happen?

So, at one time you're still thinking, "It's still some time away... Don't worry...". Another minute, you realized it's less than a week from now!

You panic, you freaked out, you tried to squeeze fun time+quiet time+preparation time+working time+relaxing time+friends time+pak tor time+daydreaming time.... in less than a few days.

That, really made me crazy!

My friends made getting married seem so easy. And I on the other hand, made it sounds like a scary thing in my life. I didn't feel much when I was preparing in the past few months. One day, I woke up from my sleep, realized, I'm going to sign the most important signature in my life, not long from now.

That, was the point I freaked out.

But, believe it or not, an afternoon by myself, I calm myself down a bit. So, some alone time did quite a good job I guess :)

It's the Perfect Time to Freak Out!

It is!

Looking at the calendar, it is!

JGL

A man that proves that you do not need the sexy good look and nicely built body to win over hearts.

All you need is a cute smile.

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Liked him since "500 days of Summer" and been watching all the movies he acted in after that =)

语不惊人死不休

我有个年龄相差相当远的表弟，今年才6岁。每次见他，都让我们哭笑不得。从小，他就是家族里，唯一一个还称得上“儿童”的成员（直到妹妹出世）。从他学牙牙语至今，他就发挥他充满喜剧的天份。

今晚刚刚和他们一家吃晚餐，这小子的喜剧功力一点都不退！

我在地铁站会他们。一见面，他很热情，兼很骄傲地告诉我：“I got bird bird in my pocket”。汗颜，竟被6岁小孩骚扰！然后，他从他裤袋里很吃力地掏出一只蓝色的鸟。我和他爸爸（既是我舅舅）连招呼都来不及打就笑到不行了～～～

小孩子转变话题总在眨眼间。还没有笑完，他又开始说话。

我牵着他走出地铁站。他一副很无奈的样子告诉我：“我都不知道你在这里！我以为你在槟城。”我答：“我在这里做工啊！”他：“为什么你住在火车站里？”⋯⋯（我来车站接你，不是住在这里啦！）

晚餐吃得七七八八的时候，桌上还有两个小笼包。我问他要不要，他说不要。我把小笼包放在勺子里，叫他喂爸爸。正当爸爸张开嘴巴的那一刻。他说：“Papa so greedy, stomach so fat still want to eat”。舅舅的嘴巴张着，吃也不是，不吃也不是⋯⋯

妹妹比较慢热，话没有哥哥多。但是两人一唱一和，我们今晚是看了一部喜剧回来。每次见他们就特别搞笑。要是时间停留在这里，他们可以永远这么可爱就好了～ （不过这样，我的舅舅舅母就会累到不行。哈哈哈！）

不是吧～

又生日了？

去年生日好像才刚刚过，可现在又是一年⋯⋯

今年是我最后一年庆祝二十几岁的生日，说穿了，今年“小妹”二十九。真无奈，青春往哪里跑？都在一年又一年的生日蛋糕里给挥霍掉了。 最后一个二十几岁，是不是应该疯狂两下？

可是，什么叫疯狂？把酒当歌，喝成个醉人才是疯狂？到酒吧和一群陌生人狂欢？抑或是看一场又一场的电影，哭完又笑、笑完再哭，搞到自己人不像人鬼不像鬼？还是，喝咖啡喝通宵？还是，即兴买张机票到天涯海角？（这个像是我会干的事）

二十九岁和二十岁有什么分别？说真的，我还比较现在的我呢。现在的我，有经济能力。我可以去玩，我可以买东西。我竟然还比二十岁的我还放肆。还有朋友称赞我，是个fun的人。 我觉得自己比二十岁的时候有自信。唯一差的，可能是体力和精神。三张靠近了，真的不得不承认体力上是比较吃亏的。而且，鱼尾纹悄悄的报道了。唯有安慰自己，因为天天哈哈大笑，鱼尾纹才提前报道。

想想，这样的二十九岁还不差。

希望我一直fun下去～

吾家有弟初成长

The memories of my little brother crying so hard when I left home for Singapore are still so vivid. That was 9 years ago.

And now, he's the one who left home for university. And lucky enough for him, Selangor is not too far from all of us, we have all came to send him off. Making sure everything is alright before leaving him completely alone in a new place, for the first time in his life.

I'm sure he will be enjoying his uni life soon, making new friends, blending into the environment, making full use of the facilities in the uni etc. And of course, missing all the home cooked food and the warmth at home like we used to be. But I can't help to worry.

The last thing that came into my mind before I slept last night after coming back was, will he be lonely on the first day? The first thing that came into my mind this morning was, will he be waking up on time for orientation?

There had been hiccups, but I'm sure things will be fine. Most importantly we will support him and make sure he won't give up easily!

I wanted so much to hug him before I left, but I didn't because I was so afraid I will cry before I realize. When I left, I cried quietly when nobody noticed. The home will be so much different without him. I know it sounded crazy but I miss him the moment I left KL.

But I know, he's going to have the best 3 years!

Frequent Flyers, I Definitely Am

The Man was looking at the calendar in his iPhone (Yes, the man actually has to key in the days I fly in his calendar) and said, "There's only 5 days left of you this month that you will be here in Singapore with me. Can you stop going out hanging out with friends when we have the time?"

Trust me, the Man usually don't complain about my social life. But this year, particular this month, I've been flying like nobody business, even I'm scared of looking at my calendar. I can't even look at my wallet!

I have a desk calendar at work to keep track of all my air tickets. It is purposely displayed on my desk so that my colleagues will know my whereabouts in case they forgot. Especially my neighbors, they're somehow "obliged" to answer inquiries on behalf of me. Sil always complain to the others by flagging my calendar, "See how many times she's flying every month?"

I didn't really take leaves to go for holidays (yet) this year, but still, I have flown so frequent sometimes I forgot what are the tickets I bought for this year. First of all, I have a lot of best friends wedding to attend to just this month. Then, as usual I go home for long weekends and some festive seasons. And, I have my own wedding to prepare as well.

I really wish AirAsia and Jetstar know that I'm like their No.1 fan! I'd very much like to show them my calendar and my credit card bills to prove that they've been earning a hell lot out from me and wish they would probably give me a super loyalty card in return! (Dream on Wei Wei!)

Even without any cards to prove my frequent flyer status, I guess, I am truly.... A frequent flyer...

重看《网络情人》

某一天，我的电脑的random播放了《网络情人》里最著名的插曲。想起青涩岁月追日剧的我们，我把youtube的片段share在面子书上。

阿媛反映最热烈，竟然把日剧的链接送来。我⋯⋯竟然也无聊到把那日剧看完了！

观后感，我只能说，我要不是老了，就是世界的步伐实在是变得太快了。我根本不能再相信，世上的两个人用电子邮件联络，搞了老半天，还是不能在一起。可能十几年前，速食年代刚刚开始，那个速度已经是很快了。而对于现在的我，这个真的有够拖拉！（我也只能够这样想，我一点都不想说自己老了）

以前看起来很美好的，现在的想法完全不一样。

我想，很多很多事情，用回忆把它锁住就好了。重新体会只会把感觉彻彻底底的转变。换来一阵失望⋯⋯

今天大家服侍我

平时不赖床不起床的我，今天被一阵疼痛来袭，马上清醒，但却不能马上起身。大概是近来压力大，再加上长时间面对电脑，在地铁里往往是低头族⋯⋯种种原因吧，我的颈项竟在睡醒的一刹那，扭到了。

完全不能转身，别说转身，连走路都痛。那一刻，我还真的好担心是不是伤到了哪里。还好，在男人的帮忙之下，我可以稍微活动。用了比平时多一倍的时间刷牙、洗脸、洗澡、上厕所、穿衣服⋯⋯反正就一个字，痛。

男人体贴的弄了早餐，然后陪我打车上班去。

在公司， 好多事情都做不了。连午餐都要靠同事们服侍，午餐啊、咖啡啊，都是别人送到我面前。疼痛来袭的时候，还有中医师（有位同事已把中医课程念完）帮我推拿。拿不到的东西，还要靠同事帮我拿。反正，差不多身边的所有人都得服侍我。很paise⋯⋯

但愿明天我的颈项可痊愈。

祈祷中⋯⋯

天生一对？

两个人在一起，最希望彼此天生一对，两人配合得天衣无缝。

可是，要创造天生一对的情侣不容易。

最好两人的性格一样
最好两人的家庭背景一样
最好两人的宗教信仰一样
最好两人的教育程度一样
最好两人的爱好一样
最好两人对未来的诠释一样
最好⋯⋯
最好⋯⋯

种种条件，要符合所有，几乎不可能。即使是双胞胎，都不可能如此相似，更何况是两个不同家庭长大的人。

结果，在一起的两个人，根本不可能是天生一对。只有努力培养，迁就，配合在一起的情人。成功的，就被誉为“天生一对”。失败的，只好因为“性格不合”而分手。

世上还有没有天生一对，恐怕我越是长大，越是不相信了。

Coffee Addict vs. Coffee Lover

我爱喝咖啡。

从大学开始，我天天早上一杯咖啡提神。大学时期，上课常常打瞌睡。早上那杯咖啡，好像救命恩人。不过哦，往往也救不了多少，两堂课之后，瞌睡虫还是找上门。有时候，一堂课还没有完，已经要钓鱼。

这个习惯一直延伸到今日，上班也一样喝咖啡。多数都在早餐时分喝。有时早餐喝，下午也喝。不过，都尽量控制在一天不超过两杯。不过，我最享受的是每个周末我自磨咖啡，好好享受周末。

男人不太赞赏我这个喝咖啡的习惯，不过，也没有极力阻止。近期，我却自己“良心发现”，或许，该戒一戒吧。不过，和卫斯理戒酒的道理一样，不是完全不喝，只是不要喝得太过分。既然以前是天天喝，我就戒成“不天天喝”就行。不过，周末自磨咖啡的享受，还是mandatory的。

说戒就戒，不喝咖啡真的不是什么大不了。我也没有头疼，没有流眼泪。生活一切照常。爱喝的时候，还是会喝，只是不天天喝。哈哈哈！

In my own defense, 我是爱喝咖啡，并没有咖啡瘾 (^_^)

五年了

2007年的今天，我懵懵懂懂地走进这间办公室。这样懵懵懂懂，也过了五年！

想当初，真的懵懵懂懂。推却了脚车公司的合约，一头栽进美国公司。不到半年，老板告诉我他要走了（只是被调去其他部门，没有离开），我傻傻的问他，“那我怎么办？”当时我的portfolio不清不楚，不是不慌忙的。

后来，一路跌跌撞撞，不是没有失败过，也不是没有气馁过。还好，世上的好人比坏人多，我总算在两年多后，有个像样的portfolio。

从小小的一个团队，五年后的今天，我们出外吃午餐是何等庞大的阵仗。现在，我觉得工作就是热热闹闹，开开心心。没事的时候，闹一闹，认真起来合作感觉也比较拼。问我工作如何？公司不过不失，就是同事之间开心，让我觉得工作还是挺开心的。我很幸运，人家说离开校园以后很难再有好朋友，我还是认识了一班疯疯癫癫的好同事，好朋友。

有后悔推辞脚车公司吗？没有。我根本不知道我失去的是什么，后悔也没有用。我也没有后悔当初挨过经济最低靡的时候，现在才能继续快快乐乐工作。

五年了，接下来是什么呢？

Running in The Rain

Sundown Marathon 2012 is my first marathon in the midnight. When I signed up for this, I didn't know the timing will be this crazy. The past 4 years, I think the race started around 10pm and I thought that was acceptable.

But no, this year they've decided to change to 12.30am. I was shocked, needless to say. But I was excited too, to have a first run at midnight.

For the whole week, it started to pour at night. I was praying hard that it won't happen to us when we're running our half marathon. But clearly the sky didn't hear my prayers (As if I even had one), and it was pouring rain when I entered my 18km.

When it started to drizzle, I ran with my head down, thinking "Shit, I have to get to the finishing line asap." But after a while, I said to myself "What the heck! I'm wet anyway".

I've always been secretly wanting to walk in the rain, without umbrella. Now here I am, running a half marathon in the rain. My dream came true! The only worry I had at that time was my iPhone, but my pouch proved it worth the price that I paid.

I can't describe how beautiful the rain was when I looked up and just let the raindrops falling onto my face. I wish I had a camera to capture the moment.

I didn't regret a single moment that I signed up for this race. I might even considering this for next year :)

Up in the Air

Have you ever let something hang in the air, in between, not spoken, but understood?

Sometimes, I wish I could have just break the unspoken, but I guess, it's for the best.

It's for the best to remain.

Unspoken.

Forever.

French Breakfast

Taken with iPhone and edited on photography apps

Woke up 6.40am this morning to cook breakfast.

Incredible isn't it? I woke up much earlier than I normally do on weekdays. And what I did? Just making breakfast, and enjoyed it together with the Man. And when he set off to work, I turned on the laptop that had been in rest for a few days and started surfing as usual.

It's wonderful sometimes, to wake up early, having some extra time that I don't usually have.

Now, I'll just be waiting for my laundry, listening to Adele in Royal Albert Hall. Maybe, some yoga practice later.

Have a nice weekend ahead peeps!

Oh, by the way, it's really kinda French breakfast that I cooked. It's not a typical French breakfast the French will have. (At least not what I observed when I traveled to France) I named it French breakfast because, I learned the omelet from "French Food at Home", the toasts were French baguette. And the toasts were supposed to go along with the canned food that I bought from France last October :)

Emptiness

I have not been turning on my laptop for a few days, I guess it was two or three days. And I came home every night, disciplined myself to shower. Then, I sunk myself into the beanbag, picked up Lone Wolf to read.

Jodi Picoult is the only author that hasn't failed to make me cry in her every single book. Mind you, every single one. I remember reading Songs of Humpback Whale on my way to the States, crying through most of the part that made the guy beside me looking at me curiously most of the time. (I tend to cry even more easily on the plane. Why is that so?) Then, to make the matter worse, I read Sing You Home on my way back to Singapore for the same trip.

Currently, she is the only author I don't miss any single of her new release. Of course, my sister too. We're suckers for her book!

I hate it when I finished her books. I wish I have something that is as good as her books to read on. But it's hard to come by. Sometimes I wish to read her book slowly, so that the feeling of "emptiness" doesn't come so soon. But somehow, I just continue flipping through the pages. And sometimes didn't even realize it was already past midnight.

Today, I decided I should go to Kinokuniya to look for something good. It's just been one morning without a good book, and I've already felt empty.

延续生命

朋友生了一个女孩，今天中午收到她的短讯，那个小小的女婴包在厚厚的被里。我不怎么会看婴儿，总是看不出像爸爸还是像妈妈。别人说什么，就什么吧。是替她开心的，两母女健健康康，安安全全就是好事。

为什么要生小孩？为什么要组织家庭？其实，至今是我摸不着头脑的问题。或许你认为我出生在幸福家庭，应该对拥有一个家庭挺向往的，可是却偏偏不。我不过介于不排除，也不特别向往。坐在墙上。

以前我天真地认为大家大体上也是如此，原来不。有些朋友，真的很想要有自己的孩子。也有很抗拒的。

如果我有个孩子，她一定是女孩。我要把我的多愁善感，我的欢笑，我的眼泪，交给她。爱笑的人，也很爱哭。哭笑都是感情的一种抒发，我一点都不反对。她要爱旅行，我要叫她爱上雪山，我要叫她在旅途认识更多有趣的人。她最好是个摄影师，是个作家，抑或是画家。充满热忱的那种。

其实，生孩子是不是为了延续生命？ 我还是摸不着头脑。

杂想

终于回到家了。

家里一切还是一样，还是一样一尘不染，还是一样舒服。永远不会肚子饿，也永远不想离开。妈妈真的持家有道。

近来忙得很，没有好好把思绪整理，更甭想把他们写下，结果，一团糟。

朋友要宴请，我问她，你会不会请A君、B君、C君⋯⋯都是多年不见，失去联络多时的朋友。但是，都是曾经的好朋友。答案往往是不知道。其实，也不过想借机会知道，到时候的我，又该怎么办。

曾经，我定下的“条规”是如此，一年或更久不见面不联络的朋友，就不用请了。不过，更深一层地想，这个定下的条规一点都行不通。好像，太不近人情了⋯⋯以我们的生活步伐，其实，好多朋友，都是一年或以上都不联络的。

后来，我定下了所谓“更理想的条规”。列下一个宴请名单，每个名字，都想一想这个问题。

“如果，‘大吉利是’某某君有天离开人世，你会如何？”
A非常惋惜
B伤心，后悔当初没有更常联络
C非常伤心，大哭一场，恨他为什么就这样离开⋯⋯

如果你选C，我看这位朋友，你还是请吧。（当然，有更多不同的反应，不过是举个例子，请自己衡量）

有些人，即使你不联络，可能三年、五年，你永远关心他。从别人的口中得知他的消息，你还是为他开心，衷心祝福他。这种朋友是缘分吧，或许见面的时间不多，但是，有些人有些事，并不用时间来衡量。

我没有名单，可是我知道，我有这样的一些朋友的存在。

你呢？

Salmon Fishing in the Yemen

I didn't really care what was the story of the movie, it's Ewan, who cares! :)

Story:

A visionary sheik wanted to introduce salmon fishing to his home country, Yemen. This dream however sounded impossible, because Yemen is a desert, very non-fisheries friendly place. Sheik ordered his assistant, Harriet (Emily Blunt) to find the fisheries expert to make this project possible. Emily found Dr. Alfred Jones (Ewan McGregor). It's a story of how people make the impossible possible.

It's a British produced film. Everybody spoke in the very heavy British accent, which was perfectly fine for me, I'm always drawn to men in British accent. There weren't many characters in the movie, since it's a simple story. But I really like the supporting actress, the President's press secretary, Maxwell. She was a strong opinion woman, in which provided quite a number of humorous scenes in the movie. To add, the sheik was a really handsome man.

Salmon Fishing in the Yemen was really a good relaxing movie for a Friday night. Simple love story, British humor (I know some people don't quite get it), good looking actors and actress. Not a fantastic movie, but definitely pleasant to watch.

The Flower of War 金陵十三釵

这是一部很沉重的电影。以南京大屠杀为背景的故事，当然不会是一部欢喜的电影。不过，我怎么也没想到，我竟也低估了电影所会带来的沉重。

电影是从严歌苓的小说改变而成的。张艺谋导演，陈其纲作曲电影原声带，Joshua Bell独奏小提琴。幕后都是大师级人物。幕前，就是无人不晓的蝙蝠侠Christian Bale主演。其实，单看幕前幕后的阵容，已是下了定心丸。

故事大纲：
我也就不提了。我从来都不爱在看电影之前，知道故事的来龙去脉，也更不想破坏大家看电影的乐趣。

观后感：
生活在非战争年代的我们，太幸福了。

生活在南京大屠杀的那个黑暗年代，基本上对人性会完全失去希望。战争原本就是残酷的，可是更残酷的是，人与人之间可以这么的丑陋，可以把他们所占领的人，当动物来看待，为所欲为。

夺取别人的性命原已是一种罪，折磨而拖延死亡的时间，更是一种不可理喻的行为。可是，这种行为在日本军占领南京时期，被视为英雄的作为。也不是高官没有把小兵士们管理好，而是由上到下，都抱着这种心态和态度，将黑暗蔓延整个南京城市。

如果当时在日本军队的蛮横霸道之下，你只有能力救成人与小孩，其一，你该怎么选择？小孩固然可怜，但难道成人就应该牺牲？左右不是人，救谁牺牲谁，没有一个选择会让你好过。每个人都有活下去的权利，谁该救？谁不改救？

只有对人性更为失望⋯⋯

评价：
所幸这部电影是张艺谋导演。若果这种故事，掉在好莱坞的手里，美国马上变英雄，大美国主义让人窒息。Made in China就没有这个问题。况且，在历史中，南京大屠杀期间确实有外国人伸出援手。Christian Bale的角色，也就不做作夸张。

电影里，以女人女孩居多。同张艺谋一贯的电影一样，不管是女人女孩，她们样子都是那么讨好。

值得一看。只要对电影的沉重有所心理准备就可以。



谢谢OMY的Preview Screening!

Crazy Bit of Me

I realized I haven't blogged for a long time, especially this blog.

Well, first of all, my Mac was crashed! The Man tried to fix for me, the fix only lasted for a day. Or should I say a night? I've been computerless for more than a week, I started to feel deprived! I can't blog, I can't photoshop, I can't research on the things I want to find, I can hardly read blogs, I can't keep in touch with my friends (Well, I have to admit I only chat with one or at most two good friends), I can't.... The list just keep going on.

Life's been pretty much the same, except I've been crazily determined to make a proper chocolate hazelnut brownies. The first brownies was a total failure (and I blogged about it on my photocautious.blogspot.com), and I was very determined to make another one.

And I did!

Last Saturday, when I had too much of sleep after my Yoga class. Half way chatting to Kia Hooi, I told her I felt like making brownies. Guess what? That was 12am. She thought I was crazy, I thought I was crazy too. But I still proceed with that. While she was imagining me in horror movie, mixing ingredients in the dark dark kitchen...

It didn't take a long time to bake a brownies. The only matter was, whether it turned out to be brownies. Sad to say, No! However, a big improvement from the first baking experience, the "brownies" was quite edible. The  only problem I have with my "brownies" are, they are not exactly brownies, they are chocolate cake!

Well, looks like I will have to make 3rd batch of brownies this weekend!

好朋友

Taken by Ah En

前年，我一个人懵懵懂懂地跑到上海去，和佳慧过了一个寒冷但又不飘雪的圣诞。去年，我们举家到江南旅行，碰巧是佳慧在宁波工作的最后一个冬天，再加上慧芳也江南游，我们无论如何都要见面！

慧芳和我最夸张，连续三天，分别在苏州、南京、上海见了四次。我和佳慧则分别在南京和上海见了两次。

我们三个女人坐下来，有象面线一样长的话题，永远讲不完⋯⋯

能够在这个冷冷的冬天，过这样温暖的一个下午，感觉特好 :)