害怕

考试结束了，等待的就是presentation。虽然我还没有准备，实在没有心思，考完试至今，不是看书，就是赖床。哈哈哈哈！其实才过了两天。

和ah giap聊天，谈到工作，生活。哎……我有点胆怯。踏入社会，究竟是什么样子？

我不想保留现状。因为，现在的我虽然不需要为生活上的事情负责任，而且，总是过得很逍遥。但是，由于金钱上的束缚，有些事情，我靠着那笔奖学金，是做不了的。所以，开始工作，我就可以开始储蓄。我不需要被功课束缚着。

说是这么说，但是，开始工作也意味着没有时间。届时，想做的事情，可能就渐渐搁下来，然后，被遗忘。是这样的吗？再也没有现在的逍遥，没有现在的自由。

我有一点胆怯，有一点期待，在跨越栏杆的前一刻徘徊。不想保留现状，却不敢向前迈。这，就是我现在的心情。

什么是爱?什么是牺牲?

或许你没有留意,我"For One More Day"的留言里，有位朋友说了，他觉得故事里的主角的妻子离开他，因为她爱得不够，不能和主角一起挨。

什么是爱？什么是牺牲？

爱一定要牺牲？一个女人，一定要为了男人牺牲？在他最困难的时候默默的支持他。为什么从来没有人说，一个男人，要在女人最困难的时候默默的守候她，体谅她？很不公平。

对，我赞成两个人相爱，就应该互相扶持。但是，有时候有些事情变质了。你发现你以前爱的那个人，渐渐消失了。不管你如何努力，劝他，鼓励他，守候他，支持他……你能为他做的，你都做了。别说其他的，说故事里的主角。天天酗酒，没心思於事业，不能接受自己已经未能在球场上大展拳手，却一直陶醉在自己的世界了。忽略了家人，忽略了爱他的人。妻子放弃了，女儿失望了。

妻子离去，应该被责怪吗？

或许更应该说，两个人都有责任挽回婚姻。没有人有资格要另一个人完完全全的牺牲……要别人爱你，你要先爱自己，爱他人。

你说，对不对？

For One More Day

Here I am again, finished another book by Mitch Albom. It's another good book that I'll recommend to all of you, but still, "Tuesdays With Morrie" is the best among the 3 books from him that I've read.

Chick was a baseball player. He once had a happy family until his father left them, without saying anything. So, he became Mama's boy but he didn't really like that idea. He had done and said many things to hurt his elderly mother. He was ashamed by his mother because she was the only divorcee in the small town.

Chick went to college, dropped out of college to be a professional player after his father came back to see him playing and he married Catherine, and had a daugther. He didn't have a good time in the team and he didn't do well in his salesman job too. Everything seems bad to him and he started to drink alcohol. The wife left him and he wasn't even invited to his only daugther's wedding ceremony. He was only "informed".

He realized he was a big failure and he wanted to kill himself. Until then, he saw his dead mother. A ghost? A real person? Was he dead?

Well, read it yourself. ^_^

最后一张试卷

昨晚我异常的早睡，十点半以前我已合上书本，倒头睡觉！早睡早起的感觉非常的好，我已很久很久没有这种习惯。每晚无无聊聊的，就凌晨一两点才上床。浪费了多少时间，也伤害了自己的身体。

几个小时过后，我就会从考场走出来，说：“我考完了”。声音会否带着快乐，其实，我发现也不怎么让人兴奋。（爱媚会打我的）

考完了就不可以让自己懒散下来。我一定要加油！在这里，我会纪录我想做的事，需要做的事，然后好好计划我的假期。

1. 看很多书！（this is always on top of the list）
2. 不要看太多无畏的连续剧
3. 申请中国旅游签证
4. 准备云南旅游的资料
5. 准备FYP Presentation
6. 学骑脚踏车
7. 调理身体（运动！！！、早睡早起）
8. 学做一些简单的料理（自己煮，省钱啊！）

暂时可以想到的就是这些，还有什么我就往里添。朋友们，若你发现我又懒散起来了，记得提醒我。 我很善忘！

^_^

瘾

我是个很容易上瘾的人。似乎每一刻，我都可以找到上瘾的“来源”。

就说昨天吧，我因为写着MJ，就到Youtube找一些好看的clip。结果，上瘾了。我不停地看，几乎把所有我喜爱的MV还有一些他的演出都给看完。并且，从早上至晚上，耳机里重复的只在播麦克的歌曲。

生活上，我上了咖啡瘾。以前我还可以大声骂小鱼，说我不喝都可以，只是喜欢喝而已。但是这个学期开始，我发现我早上要是不喝咖啡，我下午就会打瞌睡。是不是受了父母的影响？他俩一天喝两杯啊！

部落格，也是我的瘾。几乎每天都写，好像有无止境的话题可以让我写。我还经常边做事情，便想着：“啊，这个可以和大家分享”。但是有人说，网络上的部落各有80%是在说谎。我反对！我的绝对真心！而且，以我身边朋友的部落格来看，说谎的八仙率大概是0吧！（不要告诉我n最小要等于30才可以成立，我知道啦！）

我还有很多瘾，小说瘾、戏剧瘾、上网瘾、音乐瘾、张学友瘾、讲话瘾、等等……无止境的“瘾”，让我无时无刻都很occupied。

哈哈哈！

你呢，你上了什么瘾？

有这么一天

有没有想过，有这么一天，你什么都不想做？

我累了，我想休息。有时候，我突然间发觉我忙着一些对自己无关重要的事情。但是，忙完后，别人是否感激你，好像又是另外一回事。长大后了解，好心不一定有好报，你对别人好，别人不一定对你好。虽然如此，从小到大被爸爸灌输的这种原则就是改不了。

我累了，我想休息。

想象着丽江、香格里拉的风景，我要呼吸自由的空气。

让我和自由出走，让我暂时不理会所有……

Earth Song

The Forever King of Pop

I like Michael Jackson, I think he's a legend of music industry. Despite of all the news he had with the kids (yucks!), I like him. Though I'm not his die hard fans, to be honest, I don't really believe in the news. Or to say, I do not know what to believe. Sounds stupid, I know.

Thanks to MJ, we have all the wonderful MTVs to watch along our favourite songs. He's the first singer who started the idea of MTV. And I think, there wasn't any MTV that could beat his. His MTVs are the best to me, always! Thriller(I thought this one was scary when I was young, I mean very very very young), Bad, Billie Jean, Beat It, etc.... None of the MTV I watch nowadays seem to be as meaningful as his, really. Look at those stupid MTVs which show the singers walk around at the street, you know what I mean. I used to have video tapes of his MTV that my cousin, Keat recorded for me.

Despite of the MTVs he made, listen to the songs he wrote. The meaningful lyrics from "Heal the World", "They don't really care about us", "Earth Songs" (the one I played as the background music), I just couldn't help to not believe in the news because of all the lyrics he had written. I know it sounds stupid...

His life, is a tragedy. Not just him, Jackson 5. Being a singer since he was a kid, grew up in the "cacat" family, I believe that's the reason for him being weird. Numerous times of plastic surgeries, "cacat" marriages, weird ways to bring up his child, weird behaviours caught by the paparazzi etc. I hate to believe the fact that all these are true. He's mentally unhealthy because of the childhood he went through. I think.

How could I forget to mention his "moon walk"? It's the best!!! Not just the "moon walk", do you remember seeing MJ performing dance with his body 45deg slanted? How can someone do this? It doesn't obey the law of physics!! What did he do to his body?

I still love his songs though he hasn't been singing for such a long time. I hope he would come to Malaysia or Singapore to hold a concert again, because I really want to watch him live. And I still remember the drawing of his potrait that my cousin, Keat drew for me. I used to paste it on the cover of one of the notebook.

No matter what have the media said of him, to me, MJ is the King of Pop, a legend! Forever...

PS My whole family listen to MJ's songs. Believe it or not, my grandfather used to like him too!

回忆中学老师（一）

我和姐姐在家除了喜欢看戏、听歌、讨论有趣课题、喝茶、被妈妈骂、被爸爸“念”、一起“欺负”阿恩，还有喜欢一起回味中学老师的点点滴滴。今天，我突然想在这里和大家分享。

第一个出现在我脑袋的，是教化学的那两位好老师，P.S Tan 和 Y.T Chua。前者，是教中四、五化学，后者，是教大学先修班。两位都是学校的皇牌老师！

Tan是一位看似凶巴巴，其实是位很好的老师。除了她的教学，她那高八度的声音就是她的招牌。此外，她是“大牌”的代言人。有她说，你就没得说。她的实验课，你要是迟到，她就会发火，真是一分钟都不可以迟。记得有一次，一位“好”老师因为书本在课室里不见了，我们都得留下来帮忙找。所以，全班迟到。老师气个半死。班长马上解释，说是前一科的老师迟了。老师问，“谁？”名字报出来后，老师竟说：“嘎？他？他哪里会教到那么迟？你骗我啊？”我们都不知道是该笑，还是该哭。

还有一次，有一个危险性较高的试验，需要在室外做。而且，只可以做一次，所以，是她的示范，我们在一旁观看。她命我们先把书本带回课室，五分钟后到操场集合。然后以那招牌女高音的声响说：“你们五分钟后不下来，我就给你们一秒成名！”谁敢不相信，当然是五分钟内乖乖集合。

Chua呢，则是一位温和的好老师。她没有招牌女高音的声量，也没有女艺人的大牌，但是，她说话的速度，真是不敢恭维。至今，我认为我们听课写字可以那么快，全靠她的良好训练。老师说话，比子弹火车还快！第一个星期上老师的课时，我们实在是很不习惯。但是，久而久之，我们不只习惯了，还可能有时说话像她一样。Carboksa,既是Carbon Dioksida (二氧化碳);Hydog... (说实在的，我也不懂应该怎么拼才好）=Hydrogen。真是太难拼了，我懒得在写！哈哈哈！此外，这位老师的家，是每位学生新年期间的好去处。每逢农历新年初四，老师就会请客。学生，不管毕业几年，都还是回到老师家拜年。人数多得像嫁女儿一样！我们建议老师明年在外面塔蓬，哈哈，因为家里实在太多人了。

这两位化学教师，真是一流顶尖的好老师。只要是被她二位教的，政府考试那一年的化学甲等八仙率特别高。更别说及格率了。虽然现在已离开学校，学业上也很少再与化学碰面，我仍是非常感激着两位老师。

你们呢？

（这篇应该只有日新被她俩教过的才有共鸣吧！）

粗心大意

有一天，我可能会被我的粗心大意害死！

几乎每一次考完试，我就会大呼小叫，说做错了，完全是因为把题目看错、或是计算机按错、或是把号码写错等等，都是一些很微小，但杀伤力很大的错误！

今天亦如此，我的考试，就是逃不过这场命运。哎……

我粗心大意的故事虽然不够经典，但是，有些却真是完全不能原谅的！记得中五那年，我手中握着那原本还蛮有信心的考卷发神经。成绩虽然还是不太差，但是，我觉得超级羞耻！心想，“超人”（那老师长得很像旧版的superman)肯定在背后笑我！

1+1=3

这是我至今最为羞耻的数学题！！！真是惨不忍睹！

爱……

爱，真是让人难以捉摸的东西。

爱，很善变。
爱，很抽象。
爱，很长久。
爱，也很短暂。

这一刻，他说爱你，下一刻的你还相信吗？

越是长大，我越是体会，只有父母和家人给的爱，可以毫无条件，可以永恒……

即使如此，我却从来没有放弃爱。

对家人的爱
对朋友的爱
对情人的爱
对动物的爱
对生命的爱
对大自然的爱

因为，人的存在感，来自於它。

爱。

最后的战役

今天,是我学生生涯里的最后一个考试,的第一张试卷。

大学四年，到了今天，很多东西，都是最后一次。

最后一个讲堂
最后一个tutorial
最后一次小考
最后一次考试
最后一次presentation
最后一次……

意外的事，我之前虽然觉得恋恋不舍，但是，到了真正的那一个最后，我却很平静的上课，很平静的离开，很平静的回房间温习。一切平静的非我所预料。

可能，是因为系友们都只想听tips
可能，是因为系友都不想上课，呆在家里
可能，是因为系友们都想温习去，还跟我抱头痛哭不成？
可能，是因为考试的压力渐渐逼近，还有谁像我一样傻
可能……

原来，离开不过是如此。何苦纠缠？

变脸

变脸这绝技，相信你没看过，也肯定听过。

一直觉得变脸很好玩，那一瞬间千变万化，让人百看不厌，也百思不解。

我也希望我会变脸，一直变，让你摸不着，让你解不到。
而且，再怎么变，也是一幅又一幅的面具。

你看不到，真正的我。

振作！

给失落的朋友：

振作！不要对自己失去信心，要永远相信自己的能力。我们都习惯随波逐流，但是，其实不随波，你还是可以带着自己到你要到的地方。路是人走出来的。

早来的不一定好，要来的总会来，而且，还可能更好，更适合你。要相信这一切！缘分只不过偶尔跟我们开一个玩笑，但是，我相信它还是会认真地把该属于你的交回给你。缘分它不过偶尔发小脾气，耐心等待，撑住点。

生活有起落，才是人生。

加油！

Earth Day

How much do we know about our Earth? How much have we done to destroy the Earth? How can we stop this? How long can Earth sustain our inhuman activities?

April 22nd, is the Earth Day. I was very ignorant in the past that I never questioned the objectives of this festival. But now, I'm not. I've checked and I've read through the websites to find more about the Earth day and also facts of the Earth.

Why is Earthy Day celebrated on 22nd pf April? But not any other day. This is because it's vernal equinox. What is that? Equinox is the event when the Sun can be observed directly above the Earth's equator, meaning, the day and night are nearly of the same length. A perfectly vertical pole standing on the equator at noon during equinox will not cast a shadow. (From Wikipedia.)

The official website of Earth Day had suggested what can we do for the Earth. Let me share some here. I hope all of you could click your way to the website and read more about it.

• Change your light bulbs (Energy efficient light bulbs)
  
• Drive your car differently – or drive a different car altogether (Fuel efficient car like Hybrid car or car pool)
  
• Tame the refrigerator monster (Don't set the thermostat too high, door closed properly.)
• Green plants with less water, more trees to provide shade
• Recycle

The list in the website is longer and offer a better explanation in each solution. But I think these are what we can do, at least. Hybrid car is too expensive for now, I guess the engineers should think of a way to minimize the cost. The best thing of hybrid car's fuel efficient is we can save more in terms of the petrol we gonna use. GOOD! Petrol nowadays are so expensive.

I learned from the website that we can actually register to them and organize our own Earth Day event at our community. I wish I could do that now, but I don't seem to have the ability yet. So friends, please remind me of this, it'll be one of my to-do-list in the future.

Anyway, it's not important whether or not there's Earth Day event in our own community. The most important thing is we have to learn to love our Earth. The Earth has provide us so much for so long, but what have we done?

脱节

昨晚，顺有老师在新加坡的机场转机，就顺便给我打个电话聊天。说起我错过的日中华乐团的音乐会，哎……让我感叹不已。

如往常一样，我会关心一些日中华乐团的最新状态，例如有无全国赛、将会派出几队、将会以什么歌曲参赛、其他参赛者的状态呢等等。（当然，这些资料就免提了，免得外人知道了就不好。哈哈哈！）说起歌曲，现在乐团完的歌曲，80% 以上是我所不认识的歌曲。真遗憾！

顺有老师的一句：“你真的脱节了”，让我心酸不已。我承认我脱节，那已经是好久的事。但是，亲耳听顺有老师这一句，还是让我心酸了。

那个成长的地方，只是回忆的一部分。
我就这样，活在回忆里。
永远与它脱节……

刘青云--最佳男主角（我要成名）

对不起，我实在想在这里说一件事，说完就温习！哈哈哈！

昨晚由于乘长途巴士，没得观赏第26届香港金像奖颁奖典礼。虽然，历年我也没有什么太注意此类颁奖典礼的新闻。但这一次不同，刘青云终于守得住他一早应该得到的最佳男主角。刘青云是一位出色的演员，我想我也不必啰里啰唆，想必你们也知道。刘青云所演的电影，不管是喜剧、爱情剧、无理头电影、文艺、动作片等，甚至电视剧，我都非常喜欢。我觉得，他总是演什么，就像什么！

刘青云在香港金像奖已经被提名了19届！19届！这么一位出色的演员，竟要苦等这么久，才夺得最佳男主角。虽然奖项不是一切，但是有一个奖项，就是一种荣誉和肯定！其实，刘青云演的众多电影，虽然我没有全都观赏，但这部“我要成名”却不是我所喜爱。也不是这部电影拍得差，只是刘青云应该有更好的，比如“暗战”。

不管怎样，终于他得奖了。

点击香港金像历届奖帝后名单

恢复正常

自己给自己告的短假，终于结束了。短短的四天，我虽然没来得及把预期要读完的书给读完，但是，享受人生才是至重要的一环！哈哈哈！妈妈的美食，简直让我无法抵挡，四天下来，足以让我狠狠的胖了一环。哈哈哈！真的不是夸张！

爸爸当然也要使出他的本领，虽然料理比不上妈妈，但是，爸爸在外头“找吃”的本领最厉害！他要是认第二，没人敢认第一。周六晚上，我们一家大小到Batu Kawan的“阿燕”吃海鲜。平时我不在家，四人很难点菜，所以，通常我回家的时候，我们都会吃海鲜去！现在想起来，那味道还是让我垂涎三尺。

让人滴口水的螃蟹。其实还有黑胡椒螃蟹，但是忙着吃，忘了照相。

生蚝，在“阿燕”吃又便宜、又新鲜。

八爪鱼，很香很香！

嗯……这盘潮州式蒸鱼看起来有点抱歉，只因本小姐在餐桌上拍照时一点都不专业，一心一意吃，这盘距离我有点远的蒸鱼，就随便吧！吃比较重要。

除了海鲜，周日爸爸还带我们到才能园去吃怡保河粉。最好吃的河粉，当然是在怡保。但是，这摊才能园的河粉也很不错！味道清香，而且汤还是真才实料的哦！好吃！但是，有时间我还是比较想要到怡保，饱食一顿！^_^

由于这一趟回家实在太短，我也没通知家乡的朋友，只有佳慧和慧芳这两个老友鬼鬼知道。周五晚，我们就一如往常的，三人行到autocity的oldtown kopitiam，聊聊天，吹吹水！真开心！

哎……时候不早了，我的衣服在洗衣机里等着我晒，书本在抽屉里等着我读。我也不好再耽搁了。一切，恢复正常！

还是那花

早上照的,其实就是这水盆. 当时,它还在客厅,且花瓣儿的颜色也褪了.所以,妈妈从巴刹回来,就命我到花园再多摘几朵新的.我当然就不会放过拍照的机会.

在我最爱的下午茶地点.

一个不同的角度.

一个小小的盆儿,几朵小小的花,也可以供我们用不同的角度来欣赏,更何况是认识一个人?我还是比较喜欢那在昏黄灯光下的水盆,但是,不管从哪个角度,它还是它.

你呢?你喜欢哪个角度?

只是无聊

把妈妈、弟弟、还有姐姐分别送出门后，我就准备入睡。但是，不知怎的，我的身体虽然很累，但是头脑却是很清醒。一时无聊，就拿起相机，在家里转了一圈。然后，就上来部落涂涂写写。呵呵！

几乎每次回家，家里都会有新玩意儿。不用多说，这肯定是姐姐的主义。其实，是个玻璃“面盆”，装了少许的清水。水上，是妈妈种的花。感觉很不错，就照了一张照片。^_^

姐姐在泰国买了“戏迷罐头”。我的是一“瓶”Star Wars，里头装的是一条衬衫。我说好啊！考试就穿这件衣服，还要把那罐头当铅笔盒，有Jedi Force伴随着我。问你惊没？

我一直对回家都抱着有点任性的态度。每次都是想回就回，不管是假期还是上课。其实，再任性也是最后一次。开工后，我哪还有这种任性的权利？悲哀……

回家

安全抵达。印度司机的驾驶技术，真是吓死人！在高速公路上，胡乱闯，我五点半就抵达大山脚邮政局。爸爸一脸很不放心的来接我。爸爸每次都那样。有时候要回家，想到会因此害爸爸失眠，就有点过意不去。

在车上未能入眠，眼睁睁从永平，看着高速公路旁的路牌，直到Sepang，我才不知不觉睡着。无无聊聊的，看着那车里灰暗的灯光，还有在啃零食提神的司机。还好有耳边的音乐伴随着我，Mp3简直是我的救世主。

印度司机到了早上五点，就扭开马来西亚唯一的印度电台，把在熟睡中的我吵醒。吓死人！搞不清楚究竟电台在播的是什么，连续半个小时，重复着同一段旋律，ni ni ni neh neh neh 了很久。好像念经。我都快疯掉了！还好五点半我就抵达了目的地，对于一些还在车上的乘客，我深表同情。当时，我脑子里只有一句话，Killing me softly with the song...

不管怎样，我到家了！

^_^

Little Matthew

我好像还没给大家介绍过我那位满一岁的小表弟，姐姐却早已在她的部落公布照片。今天，舅舅又给我们发了好几张“小马条”的照片，我觉得他是越来越可爱了！所以，想和大家分享着小表弟的照片。

^_^
哦，Jerry的侄儿和小表弟一样，也是名叫“小马条”。哈哈哈！

~Home~

这照片是上一回，回家的时候照的。那盘子里的东东，是妈妈亲手做的scones，是英国人的点心。Scones一定要趁热吃，抹上草莓jam和butter，配上一杯热红茶，棒极了！下午茶时间到，妈妈的scones刚刚好，全家人（姐姐那时在上班）都被我轰到外头来享受美好的下午！

我要回家了！佳慧、慧芳，要来我家喝下午茶吗？哈哈哈哈！

Today We Celebrate

Today we celebrated the number 4.

How often do we celebrate a number, without thinking of the meaning of the celebration? When I was young, my parents celebrated my birthday for me. I remember myself settled with KFC instead of Pizza Hut as promised， with a broken heart. I thought celebration is about getting what you want. But today, I know the more important fact behind celebration is to appreciate what you have and thank your parents for bringing everything for you, especially a life.

Today is not my birthday, but we celebrated the number 4. I celebrate not just the number, not just the love, but the values we share, and the future we hold.

I would not have expressed everything like what I have just did without Ying's advice and experience. I celebrated not only the number, but also the lessons that she had given to me. She's always the best sister and best mentor for me. I love my Da Jie.

Cherish what you have~

Just the usual restaurant that we go once in a while.

Eh, please pay attention when you have a date with me ok... Don't play games :P


When our dinner were finally served.

The celebration is short and simple. The most important thing is to be happy and learn how to appreciate.

写信

你曾经给谁写信？

你最后一次写信，是几时？

我一直很喜欢信，我觉得那是人和人之间最原始的远距离沟通方式。写信可以把心情，清清楚楚地描绘，在不受任何人干扰的情况之下，潇洒的把一切倾诉。收信的人，总可以感受到一份喜悦，还有那些文字里带来的情意。你不觉得，那很有意思吗？

印象中，第一个给我写信的人，是我的“青梅竹马”，HC啦！那时太单纯，小六毕业后，我们竟充当笔友起来。但是，这习惯却一直留着，直至我中五的那一年，HC还是我的收信者。我一直把我的心事，我的心情，不定时的记录在信件里，上学的时候偷偷地交到他手中。他也一直充当一个很好的笔友，给我回信，满足我写信的癖好。唯一不足的，就是我们的通信之中，从来没有邮差和邮票。

后来，上大学以后，偶尔都有和好朋友们用信件联络。有些，是远在美国或英国的朋友；有些，是在本地大学念书的好朋友。虽然，我们最常用的联络方式是电邮和IM，但是，当我的“心情”来的时候，我还是会提笔，给其中几人写信。有时，他们回信了，有时，他们并没有。在我忙碌的时候，取代信的，就是卡片。

我在北京的时候，我也写信。给毓豪写信，也收信。在新加坡的日子，我偶尔给他写信，告诉他我的心情。虽然，听起来有点无聊，但是，面对面的时候，我偶尔怯场。在新加坡的信，他从来都不回。我人在北京的时候，他的信件完全满足了我，对情人之间浪漫通信的幻想。等待，是一种美。

现在的我，已经很少给朋友写信，完全是因为懒惰。但是，至今的我仍觉得，电子邮件、电子贺卡，永远都不能取代简简单单的信。只有写信，才能表达那份真心。

今天的我，想写一封信。你呢？

The Last Thing You Want for Someone You Love

You can't help when things happen.

You can't be with them when they needed you.

You learned a lesson because they learned it through a hard way.

You can only cry thousands of miles away when anything happened.

(You know it's YOU, I love you.)

I think I'm a little bit too Sensitive

Your Sensitivity Score: 69%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you. You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down. But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

那熟悉的组合

在那个遥远的曾经，我们这个三人组合，在Hall12-15那一带，算是很有名吧！可能因为我们很“坏”！

要数我们三人的事情，就不得不提起大一那一年，奶爸和奶妈对我们的照顾。那时，我仨像小孩一样。肚子饿了，往奶爸奶妈房间去；功课不会做，往奶爸奶妈房间去；电脑疯了，向奶爸奶妈喊救命。奶妈会给我们煮快熟面，还会给我们补习。奶爸的专长就是电脑，电脑坏了就找奶爸。有时候，奶妈泡面断货了，我们还可以喝冰箱里的牛奶。真幸福！

后来奶爸奶妈在外头各有“发展”，我们就渐渐失去“家庭温暖”。好像父母离异的孩子们一样，相依为命。但是，我们的心里一直感激，那两位曾经这么照顾我们的学长。让我们的大一，在充满爱的环境下生活。

不知何时开始，这三人组合就不再出现。偶尔两个，偶尔各自一个一个地走。多想，像以前一样，很单纯的在一起。终于，昨天我们就聚了。当时的默契，还是存在。那默契，是我们的眼神可以知道对方要说什么，是我们那不完整的句子，对方也知道我们要说的是什么。这熟悉的三人组合，回来了。

友谊长存！

What Will You Say About Me at My Funeral?

Ever think of this question? Ever wonder how your family, friends and relatives think about you? I came across this question when I was reading "7 Habits for Highly Effective People" and I really feel like knowing the answers. Be it good or bad.

What will you say about me at my funeral? You can email me if you don't want to reveal the answers here.

Life itself is an incident of random. We do not know what's happening next and we do not know when we'll leave this world. I guess, I'd prefer to know the answer, before one day, I leave you.

离开

原本很想回家，想想，反正多数课堂都有Recording，何苦每天早上起床上课去。但是，看看日历，我发现，下周一或周二，就是我人生中的最后一堂课，顿时觉得不舍得。

很想哭，但是哭不出来。
很想带着相机，在校园走走，和朋友们照照相。
很想庆祝，但是不知道，究竟有什么该让我庆祝。
很想上ADM屋顶上的草场，和朋友喝酒聊天，以天为被，以地为床。

但是，这种非常时期，我害怕被拒绝。这种有点“疯狂”的想法。

我第一次为了上课而不回家，这四年来的第一次。这种离别的心情，有一点难受。但是，我却不知道我为了什么难受。是为了朋友？是为了青春？还是仅仅为了这一场离别？

我的心，顿时难受了起来。

伤城

终于看了这部戏，但是，真是让我大失所望。

警匪片不成警匪片，艺术片又不成艺术片。结果，有点不伦不类的感觉。警匪片的紧张气氛，因为摄影手法很刻意地“艺术”，而失去了味道。而艺术，却因为整部电影的“老土”故事给炸了。所以，不好看！

反正都不好看了，还写这么干嘛？算了，反正结论是，别看。

PS 整部戏，只有梁朝伟的粤语是正的。真辛苦。

The Lesson of LIFE

If you remember, I bought a book as a present for myself after I signed the appointment letter from my first job, "Tuesdays with Morrie". I read it, and I like it very much!

It's a true story between the author, Mitch Albom and his old professor, Morrie. Morrie suffered from ALS and was dying soon. He is Mitch's philosophy class lecturer and Mitch was his favourite student. Mitch lost contact with Morrie after his graduation with the excuse "BUSY with his work". But after 16 years, one day, Mitch saw "Nightline" interviewing Morrie about his death on TV. Mitch reunited with Morrie and attended classes about LIFE every Tuesday until Morrie finally passed away.

I like it not because of the story, but because of the lesson that Morrie gave us. Love is the most important element in your life. Do not follow the norm culture, but develop one on your own. Some quotes from Morrie are simply GOOD, let me share some here.

"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in."

"Death ends a life, not a relationship."

"Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live."

I wanted to read this book because I was searching "Meaning of life" from the search engine from library and Google. (For some reasons, that I could not reveal here. It's my little secret, sorry.) Morrie definitely had given a good lesson and it's so inspiring, I'm going to read more philosophical book to "search" for the meaning of life, and to live my life to the fullest!

Highly recommended! Especially for people in transition period like me.

PS I'm going to reread this after I had given myself some time to think about my life.

最白痴的老友！

周日凌晨，我们一群散布在世界各地的老友，又聚在skype开conference。想想，五六个人的conference call是多“壮观”的一回事。有时候，你根本分不清楚，究竟是谁在说的话，因为，这些老友就是这样，我们都习惯了争先恐后地说话。结果，一个话题，争了很久，可能你只听了一方的意见。

*晕*!

还有，你有没有看过一群老友互相争宠？真是壮观！好似小朋友们，在老师面前争宠，看看谁的功课写得比较美，看看谁的图画更漂亮。一群老友们也是一样，在大家面前，争着表现自己的部落比较好看，自己照的相比较有意思等。

*晕*!

可是，再笨再白痴也好，我也是一分子。因为，为了老友嘛，白痴一点，不要紧啦！

呵呵！！

我的一年

不知不觉，我的大学生涯接近尾声了。想想当初还是那个呆呆的学妹，带着大行李，任学长们带来带去。到今天，我告诉大家，我人生中的last lecture快来临了。开心吗？好像没有特别开心。伤心吗？舍不得是有的。毕竟，没有上大学，也没交上这班朋友，还有那些很好人的学长学姐们。

毕业，就是一个过程，一个长大的过程。毕业，就等于出去社会工作，离开这个无忧无虑的天地，开始对自己和家人负上责任。负责任，有负责任的快乐和满足感；不需要负责任，也有被人照顾和呵护的快乐。但是，谁可以对你一生付出？所以，是时候让我们回馈父母。

带着相机到实验室，想拍下我用的equipment，在报告里“秀”一下。拍着拍着，我就拍了好些东西。其实，更想拍下的是我在实验室里的lab tech，Patrick 和 Swee Kuan，两个好好人，这一年的时间里，实在是帮了我不少。但是看他们忙碌的，我也不好意思打扰，只好一个人在实验室里荡来荡去，一面唱歌，一面拍照。

每个学生都可以申请一个专用的抽屉，这个是我的。我把东西收拾好后，Patrick就把我的名字抽起。一年，说走就走。

这是我部分的sample。都是黑黑的，很恶心！好有一些粉状的，因为再Dry Box里，我没给他们照相。

一年来，就在这个房里做试验。High Magnetic Field , 危险地带。


Continuous Variable Electromagnet

VSM

这两架东东，就是我最常用的东西。我也懒得向你们解释，反正就是会发出磁场的啦！超危险，手机和手表最好别太靠近此物。

照片拍完了，抽屉也收拾了。我找不到留下来的理由，也真的不好意思打扰两位，只好背着书包离开。想想，一年前的我，还担心在实验室的日子怎么过；现在，却忍不住想多留一会儿。多矛盾！

离开的，不只是一个地方，而是一种心情。

Boku No Aruku Michi

I'm now watching this drama, Boku No Aruku Michi. I actually watched the first episode before CNY. Ya, I know, that's quite some time ago.

The first episode, was very quiet. Not like any other Japanese Drama, the actors and actresses talk loudly to each other and talk very very fast. The main character of this drama, Teruaki, suffers from autism. That's why, the drama mostly consists of quiet scenes.

Teruaki has a childhood friend, Miyako, who has been taking care of him since young. After Teruaki left his job as "bento box boy", Miyako brought him to work in the zoo. It's very hard to keep Teruaki in a job for long, because people around him misunderstood him most of the time. Luckily Miyako was with him in the zoo, she helped the colleagues to understand him better.

I'm in Episode 6 now, 5 more to go, but I have to discipline myself. The drama is so far so good. There are scenes that make you cry (or maybe just me), and some make you smile, especially those which shows Teruaki sincerity.

I think this drama has good story. And, I think it really teaches me more about autism. Oh, it reminds me of "Rainman". ^_^

Recommended, but please bare with the quiet scenes.