雨点来到访我

下一场大雨后，窗口留下了雨点的痕迹。
向我证实了，它的存在。

I'm Yellow

Your Psyche is Yellow

You have a ton of energy - both physical and mental endurance. You are rational and logical, and you can help almost anyone think clearly. Optimistic and bright, you also have a secret side that's a little darker. When you are too yellow: You will do anything to get your way, and no one will be the wiser When you don't have enough yellow: you lack confidence, drive, and humor

What Color Is Your Psyche?

Star Wars

I think I don't really have to emphasize that I'm a Star Wars fans as most of you knew that's a fact! Hahaha...

Ying had just posted on her blog, about the Star Wars stamps. I want! I want!! I want!!!!!

Well, Ying, En and me seldom share similar interests together, but SW is definitely our favourites. We share very exiting moments to wait eagerly for the episodes to show in cinema; We share the thrilling moments in the darkness of cinema and also the darkness of Lord Vader; We share moments at home watching the making of SW, discussing how the scenes are made; We share moments discussing our favourite characters etc. And En is the expert among us.

Star Wars IV, V, VI trilogy is the best trilogy ever made! I guess I'm not going to tell the story over here, it's such an old movie, that you all should know the stories. Plus, there are six episodes all together, what do you expect! Hahaha!

I love Star Wars! I want the STAMPS!!!

Music shared at the background is the theme song of Lord Vader!

我的未来在这里

小熊说：“恭喜你了！”

存折说：“我的肚子有着落……”

我在大众书局买了一本书，送自己的礼物。

长大的感觉

在会议室里，凝视着时钟的旋转水晶，看着带点绚丽七彩的倒影，觉得一切来得很突然，一切像幻觉多过真实。

几个星期，为了这几趟面试有点患得患失，幸而总有朋友、家人和毓豪的支持，我还过得像点人样。坐在会议室里，等着HR给我带Offer Letter，我才意识到，这一次签一个名字，给我的生活带来了重大的意义。虽然，不是什么卖身契，但是，感觉那是向我24年的无忧无虑生活，说一声再见。我真真正争得踏入了，成人的世界。

公司给於的待遇很好（我忘了把话说清楚，我找到工作了^^），我觉得，真是一个不该错失的良机。当然，也要感谢一直给我提供意见的人，给我支持的人。名字，就不提了，免得你们觉得我项奥斯卡得奖人一样罗索。谢谢！

快正式向学生生涯道别，我要好好珍惜这一切。

（别人说，骑驴找马；我说，或许这已经是一匹马。知足吧！）

幸运神的眷顾

妈妈说，她从来都不为我担心，因为幸运神眷顾我。

小六时，因为不想让读国小的表妹和我一同上中一，我硬着头皮考国小的国语，为这就是可以直接升中一，避免和表妹有一些不必要的比较。国小的国语是考了个A，教育局也突然宣布小六都可以直接升中一。

初中三，PMR考了7个A。比姐姐少一个，但爸妈从来都没有拿我们和任何人比较。

中五，SPM 又比姐姐少一个A，但还是顺利升大学先修班。

STPM，我认为自己这次又是比姐姐少一个，就会是三科甲等。结果，终于又一次，我俩平起平坐。哈哈哈！

申请奖学金，也顺利让我到新加坡念书（爸爸最高兴！）

申请到北京实习，也无痛无痒地通过。

申请工作，我认为我的经历算是很顺利。

妈妈说，“我一点都不担心”。

除了这些，我的朋友、我的导师、我在中国的同事，几乎个个都是好好人。我一直就这样开开心心，非常满足的生活。

我有今天，一定要好好地珍惜。

谢谢！

以后请多多关照

今早，（还早吗？），我到访了Kenny Sia 的部落，看他谈了部落上的广告。而且，还介绍了一个比Adsense还好的，叫Nuffnang。 博客多多少少都有点想用自己的部落赚点外快吧。经石媛上周末提及，我其实也很想把Adsense放在部落里，但却又不是太喜欢。

这个Nuffnang我觉得不错，大家不妨试试看。以后，请多多到访我的部落哦！有空就点击广告，哈哈哈！给本小姐赚点外快吧！快穷死了……

小熊在等待

小熊在这里陪我渡过无数的日子。喜怒哀乐，他都会在床上的一个角落，默默的、静静的，带着一点似有似无的微笑。

今天，他和我一样，有点忐忑，有点不知所措，等待时间一分一秒地过……

早上不见了

你是猜对了。今天早上的时光，被我睡走了。

昨晚，我从mentor那儿得知了一个晴天霹雳的消息。有点难过，但是还是得面对。坐在电脑前，就开始整理我的报告。一面整理，就一面和爱媚聊天。其实，动口多过动手。东拉西扯，都凌晨三点钟了。调好了闹钟，上床睡觉。

如果不是爱媚的电话响起来，我想我俩还可以一直睡到中午去。可惜，那是“才”十一点钟。爱媚上学去了，留下孤零零的我，待会面对我人生大事。

回来再告诉你。

Life

I had a call, a call that I did not expect to receive, something that is the least of my expectation.

I wasn't too exciting about this, but yes, I am glad to certain extent. I was confused, yes, the most suitable word to describe myself now, confused. Maybe, after the meeting on Friday, 4pm, I will not be confused anymore and hopefully I can stand on my own feet to tell you the good news.

This is life, isn't it? Things happen when you expect the least but things you expected, will sometimes slip through you.

I'll let you know, after Friday.

说“我爱你”

少女心事总是情字在作怪。少女时期，我不了解爱，觉得“我爱你”这三个简单的字都无法说出来，是懦夫的行为。爱，就是对心上人表达爱意。不说“我爱你”，怎么让对方会意？

现在，终于深深的体会，“我爱你”不是说了算。你爱她，就要对你说出的那三个字负责任。所谓责任，不是先上车后补票的那类责任，而是从一个人变成两个人的责任，即使你还未结婚。

这种责任，可以是简单的谈恋爱的“日常程序”，也可以复杂至为他改变你的生活习性。不是要你改变，成为另一个不是你的你，而是因为体谅、因为爱的改变。说来非常抽象，但是却是千真万确的真。

想想你的父母，相处了这些年，过了这大半辈子。问问他们，不知不觉究竟改变了多少另一半所说的所谓坏习惯？虽然，本性难移，偶尔坏习惯还是出来打个招呼，但是，我相信，父母亲这种一生一世的相处，是很多责任和改变换来的。

原来，除了“我爱你”，还有很多很多。

300

I went to watch 300 yesterday after so many good comments. Hui Nee was the first one to tell me that 300 is VERY GOOD, then followed by En En, then Ai Mei. Since, I have this offer voucher, I thought why not?

I knew it's a very violent movie before I stepped into the cinema. But I didn't expect it to be so... dull in the storyline. You're content with lots of violent, killing, slashing, blood etc. but not story. This movie is just so Hollywood. Like Yee Hau said, Hollywood movies have certain % for certain "ingredients" of the movie, e.g. sexual content. I really think they're not necessary.

I had this headache after leaving the cinema because of all the violent scenes. I was wrinkling my brow from the beginning till the end.

Anyway, no doubt the graphic of the movie is very nice and like Hui Nee said, the guys are so built-up. Hehehehe :P

"300" and "Music and Lyrics", I'd chose "Music and Lyrics". Even though the latter is not a worth-to-go-cinema-movie, but there is story, there is love.

If you like to watch nice graphic movie, and you don't mind violent, and you don't mind poor in storyline of movie, yes, 300 is a good choice. Not for me, and Ying Ying too! (Da jie, I helped you to conclude liao, so you don't have to watch la! ^^)

长蘑菇了！

从昨晚开始，我就一直高喊懒惰，而追看连续剧。甚至，今早睡醒后，也一直看，终于都给我看完了。

我知道我不把据看完是不会停下来做正经事，所以，就这样一气呵成的看完了。现在好了，看完后就开始内疚。学ikan说的，看见自己长蘑菇，就是这样！

是时候收拾所有心情。

意义

谢谢石媛的祝福。

但是，我今天的表现不好。而且，我不断地在问自己，诚实坦白的意义何在？有些事情，我不会，就是不会。我不是那个系毕业的学生，属于那科系的基本学问，我真的不会。

我突然觉得更茫然……

紧张

或许在部落里途涂鸦鸦，可以让我减压。

两个小时后的现在，我就会坐在办公室里，面对第二轮的面试。此公司的第一轮面试后，其实我觉得这面试多半是又吹了。但是，昨天一大早的那通电话，实在让我又惊又喜。

从来没有出席第二趟的面试，我完全不知道应该怎么样应付。上完课后，在网上尝试搜索一些面试的资料，才发现多半的网站都指出第二轮面试时间更久，而且，更深入。我有点惊，该怎么办？只好向N2请教请教，虽然并不怎么好意思打扰他的工作。虽然，学长的一些劝告总算让我安心下来，但是，一想起，又是一次紧张！

天啊！

别急，别急……自然点就好！

Billy Joel

Ok, I have to confess, that I'm slacking and I'm again addicted to Youtube again! Sighz...

Yes, it's about Billy Joel. Kia Hooi's fault. :P

Kia Hooi found a clip of her beloved Lee Hom singing Billy Joel's Pianoman, so she recommended that to me. After watching the clip, I clicked my way in Youtube again and found some very AWESOME clips of Billy Joel in live performance.

The clips I'm sharing here will be live performance of Billy Joel and Sir Elton John. I just can't find a proper adjective to descirbe this. (My English sucks big time, please forgive me!) Please enjoy and bare with the loading time.

Billy Joel has got his way to prove that a GREAT pianist does not necessary play classical pieces to be great. He's simply GOOD in any piece.

Feeling very high again...

Way Back Into Love

I'm listening to the soundtrack of Music And Lyrics, love "Way back into love" the demo version so much! Thank you Celeste! I love them!

FYI, the song playing at the background is "way back into love". Enjoy!

Way Back Into Love
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

Acknowledgement

Well, I'm a little bit lazy to write in Chinese today. But anyway, when I thought that the entry of photos from Vivo City will be the last entry before I go to sleep. Bang! Here comes another thing to blog about.

When I was "singing" how GREAT to have my greatest friends from my secondary school in previous blogs, someone in Singapore here reminds me that I have forgotten about friends in NTU.

Jerry told me that he will give me a surprise after finishing his FYP report. When he told me in the afternoon, I feel like, Ok, I can wait. But half an hour earlier just now, he messaged me that he can't wait to let me know about the surprise. This Jerry, he made me feel very excited about the surprise and so I beg him to tell now. (I think he purposely made me beg when I thought of them again)

Anyway, the surprise is, he wrote my name in the acknowledgement of his report, saying "All my friends, especially Phua Soo Fan and Khoo Wei Wei, for their continuous encouragements and supports whenever I face difficulties throughout the project".

"I feel good! Na Na Na Na Na Na Na!"
It's great, when someone appreciates you.

Thank you Jerry!

Vivo City

As I mentioned in the earlier blog, I went to watch Music and Lyrics in Vivo City. Both me and Yee Hau never been there to watch movie, always very crowded there. We're lucky to get a seat there without booking. Both of us took our digicam along, we just like take some photos once in a while.

We had our dinner in "Superdog", it's something like McD, but I think the burger is actually better than McD, maybe it's because of the sauce. But it's quite expensive, if not for the voucher I got, I won't be eating burger there.

A couple at the harbour. I don't mean to stalk on them. ^^

Obviously this photo was taken by Yee Hau. I looked like a tourist, didn't I?


The sunset at the harbour.


The pool at the rooftop at Vivo City. The children like to play at pool.

A view of Vivo City from the harbour.

PageOne bookshop at Vivo City. I like this bookshop very much and I was so tempted to buy the books!!

Even the fountain is so popular among the children. As long as there is water I guess.


The main entrance of Vivo. I like the colour of the word.

At the end of the date, we played Monopoly Star Wars Edition! Hahaha!

Music And Lyrics

This is GOOD!!

I just watched it this afternoon. I know I know, it's a little bit late. It's REALLY GOOD! Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore are so cute together. When Hugh Grant sang in the "pop" band, I really wanted to laugh out loud! This is soooooo typical 80's MTV!! (Anyway, I did not know what's wrong with the rest of the audience in the cinema... They barely laughed. Sigh... Where are the sense of humour?) Is that because I grew up in the 80's or what?

Despite for the sweet sweet love, the singer, Cora is really a mess! Hahaha... But I think teenagers nowadays listen to this kinda song. Ask the youngest one at my home and you'll know.

Well, it's certainly not the award winning type of movie. But what's wrong with a simple movie with lots of love!

My recommendation, GRAB this movie when it's still showing. If you don't, remember to buy the DVD. Hahaha...

^^

This is way TOO COOL!! I'm Obi Wan!

Star Wars Horoscope for Libra

You are on a lifelong pursuit of justice and determined to succeed. You convey the art of persuasion through force. You always display your supreme intelligence. You have a great talent in obtaining balance between yourself and your surroundings. Star wars character you are most like: Obi Wan Kenobie

What Is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

What Colour Green Are You?

Ok, I know this thing sounds a bit ... But, I just like the sound of the results of this test. Hahaha... We're human being right... We just love things that say something good for us ^^

You Are Teal Green

You are a one of a kind, original person. There's no one even close to being like you. Expressive and creative, you have a knack for making the impossible possible. While you are a bit offbeat, you don't scare people away with your quirks. Your warm personality nicely counteracts and strange habits you may have.

What Color Green Are You?

有故事的歌（三）—Piano Man

Piano Man by Billy Joel

It's nine oclock on a saturday
The regular crowd shuffles in
There's an old man sitting next to me
Makin' love to his tonic and gin

He says, son, can you play me a memory?
I'm not really sure how it goes
But it's sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete
When I wore a younger mans clothes

Chorus:
Sing us a song, you're the piano man
Sing us a song tonight
Well, we're all in the mood for a melody
And you've got us feelin' alright

Now John at the bar is a friend of mine
He gets me my drinks for free
And he's quick with a joke or to light up your smoke
But there's someplace that he'd rather be
He says, bill, I believe this is killing me.
As the smile ran away from his face
Well I'm sure that I could be a movie star
If I could get out of this place

Now Paul is a real estate novelist
Who never had time for a wife
And he's talkin' with Davy who's still in the navy
And probably will be for life

And the waitress is practicing politics
As the businessmen slowly get stoned
Yes, they're sharing a drink they call loneliness
But it's better than drinkin' alone

It's a pretty good crowd for a saturday
And the manager gives me a smile
cause he knows that it's me they've been comin to see
To forget about life for a while
And the piano, it sounds like a carnival
And the microphone smells like a beer
And they sit at the bar and put bread in my jar
And say, man, what are you doin' here?

我想我不必说得太多，以免破坏了这酒吧的气氛……

叶限——中国灰姑娘

有点懒惰，有点无聊。反正什么都读不进脑，就干脆在blog一个！哈哈哈！多好的借口！

不知大家是否知道叶限的故事。很惭愧的，我是通过Discovery Channel的Chinese Whispers节目，才知道叶限这个故事。至于这个故事有什么特别，何以我一定要在这里给大家介绍？

我们所知道的西方灰姑娘，其实改编自叶限的故事！

这故事其实是个富家子弟（还是高官的孩子什么的），听了家里一位来自南方的下人给他讲叶限的故事，然后把它记载下来，才有这个灰姑娘的故事。这下人来自南方，依照节目所说的，他们从叶限的衣着，猜测叶限应该是壮族姑娘。同所有从中国外传到西方的猜测一样，这故事大概是通过丝绸之路流传到外。

叶限的背景和灰姑娘相似，父亲早逝，留下她和后母及姐姐。叶限没有仙女相救，却有一条鱼为伴。后母趁她不在，把鱼杀了送上饭桌去，还将鱼鼓扔进池塘里。叶限很伤心，连唯一的朋友也不见了，在池塘边哭哭啼啼。突然，来了个衣着朴素的人，告诉她把鱼骨收起来，可以向它许任何愿望，都会实现。最后，她得以参加舞会，留下了一双绣花鞋。事后，嫁给了国王。

听起来满相似的吧！还没……后母和女儿最后死了，国王把叶限带回国后，封为第一夫人，两人过得很幸福。有一年，国王起了贪念，求鱼骨给他宝玉，得到无数珠宝。结果第二年，再求鱼骨，什么也得不到 了。国王就把鱼骨和那些求来的珠宝一起埋到了海边，打算以后需要的时候再起用。后来，陀汗国有叛军作乱，国王决定动用珠宝，结果一晚上的时间，埋藏的地方 就被海潮淹没了。陀汗国就此亡了，叶限也失散在乱军中了。

有点悲惨……

What Kind of Cake Are You?

You Are a Chocolate Cake

Fun, comforting, and friendly. You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality. People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.

What Kind of Cake Are You?

I'd ve very happy to know if I'm really a true classic and high quality. But... Who is going to get addicted to me??????

Weird la...

那些回不去的从前

上个星期，当我还在疯狂地赶着报告的晚上，顺有在ｃｈａｎｇｉ机场给我打了个电话（免费的嘛！不打白不打！）。像往常，一些普通的问候，一些让我发牢骚的空间，还有一些让我回忆的空间。

他不经意的问起我，是否观看了日中华乐团在国油音乐厅的演奏。我说看了，地方真是好的没话说。相信，每个演奏员都希望，有个机会到这种数一数二的演奏厅演奏哪怕一次，也是值得的。他总有很多计划，这次，计划是每年办一次国有音乐厅的华乐演奏会。说有办法的话，我们（毕业好几年的人……）也有机会参与。

我内心欢喜一阵！

但是，想象的空间太少。这已经不属于我的年代，我已经未能参与，无论是水准上，还是时间的配合上。我就这样一直在电话里否认这个可能性，这真的不是我的年代。

我不能否认我总是怀念一些从前演奏的点点滴滴。但是，我也长大了，我知道怀念的事物总是回不来……

怀念归怀念，现实如此，还是接受了。

话说回来，总要谢谢老师总是带给我们机会。这些年来的回忆，不谢他，谢谁？

What are friends for?

Well, my dear friend Kia Hooi had blogged about our gang. Yeah, it's such a wonderful thing to have such friends in your life, whom you share almost everything with them. I mean every simple little things. For example:

The weather is SO HOT!
Oh... I skipped my classes and I'm watching clips.
I left comment on your blog.
Some anonymous left comments in my blog, I wonder who was that?
I blogged about you guys!
I had a bad day...
My groupmate is the worst person I've ever met!!
I cut my fingers.
I've got my timetable swapped with others to go KL.
Plane crashed.
I can't type in Chinese...

and the list goes on...

Yes, sometimes, those things seem very unimportant. And some emails can come in one sentence or two, and you end up with 10 or 20 emails just because you didn't log on with your email 24 hours a day! Or even, 2 hours!

But, I enjoy the crap in my emails!

How desperate am I when I came back to my room with an empty mailbox...
How quiet is my life, when there's too much space in the room...

These people really cheer me up!

Having a little smile every morning, every afternoon, every evening before you start something, is just the best thing you can have!

守护着友谊的手

好久不见 vs 不如不见

不知大家有无听过这两首歌曲，前者是张学友最新华语专辑的主打歌，而后者是来自陈奕讯最新粤语专辑。不知大家对歌词的敏感度到什么层度，至少我是一个很注意歌词意境的一个歌迷。这两首曲子，我曾经都分别介绍不少朋友。

几天前，听着听着，才发现这两首歌词有多接近。尤其听eason的不如不见，他那独特的feel，总让我不知不觉地进入歌曲，仿佛我就是故事里的主角……

我也曾经幻想，分手后的某一天，邂逅的日子，我将怎么样面对你。而你又会以什么样的心情面对我？我们是否会余情未了？我们是否会尴尬的无言以对？还是都从容的谈天说地？

我想，这种情况，不只是分手的情人吧。曾经暧昧的，也或许有点这种感觉。不是吗？还真是不如不见……

不如不见
头沾湿　无可避免　
伦敦总依恋雨点　
乘早机　忍耐着呵欠
完全为见你一面
寻得到　尘封小店　
回不到相恋那天　
灵气大　概早被污染
谁为了生活不变

越渴望见面然后发现
中间隔着那十年
我想见的笑脸　
只有怀念　
不懂　怎去再聊天
像我在往日还未抽烟　
不知你怎么变迁
似等了一百年　忽已明白　
即使再见面　
成熟地表演　
不如不见

好久不见
也许一天再相逢说声好久不见 沉默了
曾经我打听过你最近的生活忙碌工作之余 是否有运动
今天和昨日不同我不在你身旁不甘寂寞的你 是不是很难过
至于我过得还不错 不如以前疯
那一家迪斯科 我再也没去过

天凉了 挂念了
有从前还是好的
这熟透的脸孔
我还真的舍不得
和你的记住了
虽然将来会尘封
也许一天再相逢说声好久不见 沉默了

欲望

人为什么有欲望？

晚餐，我和毓豪到荷兰村的一家饮食中心。晚餐前，他说午餐吃的太饱，不想吃晚餐，只是陪我吃吃而已。然而，到了那儿，我点了印度饭，他也欲罢不能的点了一个prata和两个鸡翅膀。不是说不饿吗？

而我更是严重。除了经常对食物充满欲望之外，我还有拥有欲。所以，到外头逛街，总是不经意的买了一些东西。虽然，多半不是“只摆不能用”的事物，但都不是“如果没有它我会死”的东西。

为什么会这样呢？

人为什么有欲望？为什么我们要拥有？

Indiana Jones

Ying had just blogged about John Williams. Ya, both of us love his music! He's a masterpiece!

Well, I want to blog about Indiana Jones not because of her John William blog. I had already have my Indiana Jones Theme prepared for this blog but I just didn't have time for this until I submitted my report. Hehehe...

Do you remember I said we went to Batu Ferringi to buy RM160 worth of DVDs? Yea... Indiana Jones Trilogy is one of them. And me and Ying were crazy enough to watch the 3rd installment, The Last Crusade, AGAIN when we had so many other new movies.

I like The Last Crusade the MOST! I like Sean Connery's humourous act. "Junior!" that's how he called Harrison Ford in the movie. And how he never impressed by all the things Junior did to save two of them from trouble, and how he made himself into trouble... He's just so Funny! (Never impressed by his 007 though)

Different opinion with my dad and Ying, I never really like Harrison Ford as Captain Solo in Star Wars Trilogy. I was so upset he got into the first 3 favourite characters of Star Wars and my Luke Skywalker never get into it! What on earth?! He didn't have the force, he has only the big walking carpet with him...

Anyway, praise him for his Indiana Jones! He's really GREAT! (Anyway, the teenage Indiana in The Last Crusade was very handsome! Hehehe...)

Good news for all the fans (I doubt there are any like me and Ying), Steven Spielberg and Harrison Ford are planning for the 4th installment. YEAH! I'm looking forward to that!

青春期

看着弟弟，我总是不能够明白，为什么我们仨都是同一个家庭长大，而他却同我和大姐有这么大的差别？妈妈总是很替他担心，读书、交朋友、校外活动等……可能因为他十家中最小的儿子吧。有时候，我心想他会不会因为两个姐姐的关系，而感到压力？

妈妈说，觉得弟弟听的歌不好，太吵闹，导致他的脾气不好。我尝试安慰妈妈，说不是歌的问题。可能妈妈忘了，我也曾经有过一个叛逆的青春期。那时候的我，脾气也不好，姐姐也担心我会变坏。还好，爸爸妈妈的管教方式还管用，我们都是这样平平安安过了我们的青春期。

以前不明白，总认为父母给与我的自由很少。但现在想起，我比一般朋友得到的自由还多。而且，父母亲的开放式管教，总让我的朋友们很舒适的在我家谈天说地。而且，个个老朋友和我父母的关系都很好。甚至，妈妈每年都很清楚地记得，涵健喜欢吃她做的巧克力蛋糕。父母的开放，总让我感动。

可能现在的弟弟，还不能了解父母亲的用心。但是，我总希望他有一天会明白。我也希望，他可以好好的生活。

感动

我总是对朋友的故事很投入。朋友被人欺负，我会放声大骂；朋友遇见好男人，我会充满感动。

这位朋友，在感情路上的寻寻觅觅，已经好一段时间。我们总是希望，她可以找到一个好人。这个人，我们早已听说过。曾经他们因为天时、地利、人和而未能在一起，一直是遗憾。而这么多年来，虽然女生已经到国外念书，他还是将心中的这个角落留给她。

虽然，他们还是一北一南地分开着，但是，这个男生所作的一切，都足以让我感动。

谁说这个年代很难找到纯真的爱情？

我愿他俩，这次不会再有遗憾。

Finally...

Finally, the 50 pages draft report was done!

Do you know how it feels when you have got something finally done? After two weeks of not-enough-sleep? Yuan had been asking me a very standard question every midnight when she was back from her work. "How come you're still awake?" By the time I tugged myself in the blanket, the clock had already striked 4am.

Sometimes I managed to wake up for classes, but I skipped some too.

Anyway, the "8-gals-corner" that Yuan created for me, Kia Hooi and Yuan herself has enlightened my days and nights. In the afternoon, I managed to chat with KH and during the nights, I managed to chat with Yuan. Thanks gals...

I'll give myself a day off tomorrow. Nothing about iron, iron oxide, silicone and NANOPARTICLES anymore!!!

Oh by the way, I have 2 episodes of "Fresh Prince of Bel Air" loading on Youtube right now. This has become one of my daily entertainment.

^_^

美丽和智慧的方程式

今天决定take a break from 我的报告，晚饭回来听爱媚讲她今天和三个大男人吹水的故事，听得我愤愤不平。这些男人，太肤浅了！

所以我决定在这里把爱媚的部落link过来，让大家看看，也顺便发言发言。

请点击美貌与智慧。

暂时松一口气

刚刚见过我的mentor，我的报告似乎还有些问题。当他在电话中说，“有事情和你谈”的时候，我几乎想在图书馆哭出来。我打从上个星期三开始，每天每夜都在赶报告。脑海里只有报告，其他的根本无暇理会。我只想赶快把这份1st draft先交上去，再做一些的善后工作。

其实人体的机能是很厉害的，不是吗？已经病了一个星期的我，因为需要把报告赶出来，还是不眠不休的工作。身体并未能真正的得到休息，咳嗽也因此一直未能痊愈。虽然如此，身体还是一直撑下去。但是，我相信一旦我把报告呈上去后，我就会collapse。每次都如此……

这大概是因为人的意志力控制着身体的机能吧！虽然，身体很想休息，但是，意志力一直控制着我们，一定要撑下去，过了几时几时才可以休息等。这样的我们，才可以一直撑，直到工作完成为止。

真的必须感谢我的mentor一直以来给我的支持。其实没有他的帮助，别说我的报告，就连我的实验也未能做那么多。虽然他很忙碌，除了我的报告，他还得赶自己的报告。真是没话说……因为他昨天也刚刚被老板骂了一顿，所以他也知道报告的问题。所以，他都尽量指导我。一直跟他说谢谢，但总觉得没法让他感受我的诚意。看来只是说谢谢，是不够的。

现在的我暂时松一口气，让自己休息一会儿。暂时不想任何与我报告有关的事，让头脑清醒清醒。今晚，今晚再拼！

乱

只能够这样形容自己现在的生活。因为赶着报告，我基本没其余时间理会其他事情。（怎么还有时间理部落？）

我的书包，乱；
我的笔记，乱；
我的电脑，乱；
我的功课，乱；
我的生活，乱乱乱、烂烂烂！

真的，没有运动、没有正常饮食，加上生病……

调整，过了星期五再说吧！

值得吗？

离毕业的日子越来越近。

毕业后的我，将继续在新加坡生活、工作。我一直想回家，但是，在这里拼了四年（也不是真得很拼），应该赚点新币回家，帮家里补补点家用也好。而且，爸爸也反对我回马来西亚，说是因为发展的机会比较少。这一点，我也晓得。

但是，心里就是一直放不下。虽然新加坡离家不会太远，但是，说近也不近。家里的事，总是不能参与。别说其他，就说2005年10月1日那一天，全家上下忙着搬家。而我，却在北京的火车上。完全没能参与劳动后的欢愉。反正不是住在家里，就是想念家。想要参与大大小小的活动、亲朋戚友的婚礼、弟弟上学的大小事务、妈妈的琐碎家事、爸爸的老故事等……

毓豪曾经说，回房间就是四面墙，一台电脑，一张床。没有温暖，只是休息的地方。这种感觉，我也曾经有过。平时忙来没时间，还不怎么感觉。一想起家来，就是痛苦。孤单的没话说……

为了打拼，少了家人的温暖。有时我问自己，真的值得吗？

是真的决定？

从爱媚那儿得知，SH决定申请奖学金，继续深造。

而我，上一份面试宣告失败，有点失落，但总是找点借口安慰自己。曾经有教授问我是否想继续念书，我都很勇敢的否决了。为了什么？其实，说真的，我好像不是太清楚。大概是厌倦了吧，一直呆在校园的生活。从幼稚园开始，你有否计算过，在校园的日子有多长？我并不是厌倦学生生活，反而有点不想向前进的感觉。

如果不想向前进，为什么不继续深造呢？我疑惑地问自己。想了想，我对自己说，因为我从来没有真正的踏入社会，所以，我没有资格说我比较喜欢在社会打拼或是在校园生活。这就是我的答案。

可是现在，身边的朋友，找到工作的也有几个，决定深造的也有一些。而我，茫茫地、糊涂地，站在没有指示牌的路口。开始厌倦找工作的过程，开始担忧毕业后迷迷茫茫的感觉。

我开始不知道，我的决定，是因为我不安於室，还是真的清清楚楚作了决定。

快乐！

快乐，多多少少有点与生俱来。

有些人，不管大事小事，或开怀大笑，或会心一笑。
有些人，不管你怎么逗，他笑都不笑，就连牵牵嘴角都没有。

快乐有多难？

前者说，快乐很容易；后者说，他找不到快乐。

放开胸怀就会找到快乐！！

容易满足的人，找到快乐！！不要对身边的事物要求苛刻，因为，没有一件人或事，对你的生活快乐满足与否负上责任。

自己的心情，自己主宰。

Fresh Prince of Bel Air

Oh come on... I know this TV series is a little old to be mentioned here, but Will Smith is COOL man!~

I was in the midst doing my report, mind you, it's almost 3 in the morning now. I was stucked at one part and I started to clicked my way off in the internet, again... That's the bad thing of doing homework with computer and internet.

I started to click on Youtube.com (sometimes I just hate this website), and searched for some clips. I started off with watching Keanu Reeves back in 1987 when he's so young and cute in the Kellog's CornFlakes Commercial, Brad Pitt in a stupid coffee commercial, Johnny Depp in Late Show with David Letterman for his Pirates II and Will Smith in Fresh Prince of Bel Air.

Blame that on Ying Ying, she started to search for the clips on CNY when I was at home. I watched two episodes on Youtube and I was so tempted to click for the third but I stopped myself. It's just too painful to control yourself not to laugh at this funny show. Chris Rock appeared in one of the episode, but he ain't as funny as Will! Hahahaha.... Will's the BEST!

寂寞

原来我也害怕寂寞……

自从北京一趟旅行，我以为我可以克服寂寞。一个人吃饭、一个人走走、一个人旅行、一个人快乐、一个人孤单……

前天晚上，我一个人搭巴士到新加坡来、一个人回家、一个人打扫、一个人做功课、一个人听歌，我感到分外的寂寞。大概是因为农历新年的每一天，我都是热热闹闹地过。不缺节目，不缺朋友，唯独欠缺睡眠。

寂寞并不可怕，只是来得不是时候……

心锁

我总是喜欢到访我朋友的部落，看看他们今天的心情。

很羡慕她们吧，总可以很坦诚的，不隐藏地透露自己最心里的话。而我呢，即使口口声声说部落可以让我表达我所想表达的事物，但是，总是不明不白的半说不说，或是干脆不说，而言其他。

是心锁吧，让我不能对大家畅所欲言。也是因为这锁，我仍然需要日记。