离毕业的日子越来越近。
毕业后的我,将继续在新加坡生活、工作。我一直想回家,但是,在这里拼了四年(也不是真得很拼),应该赚点新币回家,帮家里补补点家用也好。而且,爸爸也反对我回马来西亚,说是因为发展的机会比较少。这一点,我也晓得。
但是,心里就是一直放不下。虽然新加坡离家不会太远,但是,说近也不近。家里的事,总是不能参与。别说其他,就说2005年10月1日那一天,全家上下忙着搬家。而我,却在北京的火车上。完全没能参与劳动后的欢愉。反正不是住在家里,就是想念家。想要参与大大小小的活动、亲朋戚友的婚礼、弟弟上学的大小事务、妈妈的琐碎家事、爸爸的老故事等……
毓豪曾经说,回房间就是四面墙,一台电脑,一张床。没有温暖,只是休息的地方。这种感觉,我也曾经有过。平时忙来没时间,还不怎么感觉。一想起家来,就是痛苦。孤单的没话说……
为了打拼,少了家人的温暖。有时我问自己,真的值得吗?
A Dark Place
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I have bad thoughts, sometimes I sink into my dark place and think of all
the things I admit might not even happen in my future, but I'm scared as
hell.
I...
5 年前
10 条评论:
看了这篇你写的文章, 其实我深感无力。
有时我们想要的, 和现实生活上所得到的;往往是不一样。
不要想太多!
好好努力、加油!
媛,你也是!我们一起加油!
gals..again, i have to say that i agreed with what both of u said.Why u gals seems to know what im thinking also?haha! read yuan's blog, agreef with her that no matter how, we cant use money to buy a ticket to visit the ppl we love in heaven. cruel, but true..
gambate! cheers.
hey gal,u so fast reading my blog ar?hehehe....
you take good care of yourself ok?
*hugs*
Working in SGP has more opportunity and earn more $$$$$ but live after U is not just career and money. Back to M'sia you can also earn big money but you just need to work harder and a bit of luck.
I would rather stay in PG with my little Matthew then going to SGP. Unless, I can bring him along.
The choice is yours.
Hey,now i know the anonymous is actually you,ah ku!well,come on,don't be shy,drop me a message with ur name,chose to be others or get a gmail account.
anyway,ya...i never deny there is a chance to earn big money back in pg.i'll try my luck here,since anyway i have to be here for at least 3 years after grad.
now matthew has been your inspiration,isn't he?
^^
决定...无数的决定
考虑...重复的考虑
烦恼...无止境的烦恼
看来,我们真的长大了...
wei, i think the main thing is not really about money. it's about the life style that you want. sometimes, ppl just miss the thing that they don't get in life. when u r at home, maybe u miss the u life where u r having lots of fun all the time......
i always wanted to have a life of my own; going some where far away, doing charity in some places you can't find on normal map......
money is not the main concern in chosing where to live after this.but it's not "not in the concern",because can't deny the importance of money.
you can't buy everything with money,but you can't buy anything without money,right?
well,the lifestyle...yea...you know how i always talk about differences between sg and pg,don't you?
i dreamt of going overseas,far far away too...but i'd like to bring the whole family with me.selfish?or just very homey girl.
Hehe...my opinion is...you don't have to be physically close to your family to be close to them. Distance makes the heart fonder...it's true (for family anyway, boyfriends are another story, hah)! Nothing is permanent, I think there's no harm giving Singapore a shot. If you really can't stand it, you can always go home then. Plus...it's so near la!!! ;)
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