2008 is Coming to An END

I can't believe it, that I am now sitting in the dark with my dad's lappie in the room, typing this blog as it is the 2nd last day of year 2008. I'm a little bit nervous to welcome the arrival of 2009 so soon, too soon.

As everybody has predicted that 2009 will have an even worse economic crisis compared to 2008. As a relatively newbie to the society, I have the fear to face this. I am lack of courage. However, my dad and sister had been a very positive role model in this. How can I ever forget there are role models at home, that I can learn from. Sometimes through words, sometimes through actions.

I have not been very matured in my first year and a half at work. There are lots of problems that I faced from time to time, that I think I could have handled them with a more professional way. I could have seek advice from fellow colleagues earlier than I did sometimes, but I didn't because I have pride that I think I can do it by myself. Sometimes I learn it a hard way to get things done, but along the way, I really appreciate people whom offered helping hands from time to time. Nobody in this world can handle everything by his/her own, seeking advice and admit one's limitation ain't going to kill anybody! Remember this! (I'm just talking to myself)

I admit, I have not been very sensitive to my dollars and cents in the past one year. I was even less sensitive compared to my 4 years in university, this is not a very good sign. The angel and demon in my body were having a tug of war all the time. The angel always reminds me of my planning and records, while the demon pulled me into laziness. Well, the demon won for a year, and I have decided to let angel win in the coming years. In the current economic status, nobody can wait and let things happen.

It has come to a point that I realized I'm at the age of no turning back. I'm no longer very young, and this is the golden time to strive for things I want in my life. Dreams that I have had since young. Of course, all the dreams need to be evaluated. Plans are needed and courages are required to execute for a change. Things that had happened in Malaysia and US are examples of will power can bring changes, don't they? History that opposition parties have made, are the first step to change. For better or worse, we'll see. I had written some plans in my little green note pad previously, on Jan when I got back to Singapore, I will spend another weekend to look at the plans thoroughly, and start executing them one by one based on priority.

I'm at the age of no turning back. This is the time, to have what I want to have, to be who I want to be. Don't be envious and jealous to other's success. I too can make a difference in myself, I don't have to be jealous as I sometimes did. One should be sincerely happy for a friend's success and happiness.

My relationship with my family is as strong as ever. But I did something hurtful to my dad my passing some stupid "humour" jokes about dollars and cents, I did not have the guts to say sorry face to face to him. I hope he forgive me by reading my email after the incident. Home trips are always the most joyous moments I enjoy. Spending time with my parents at the dining table, playing games with my siblings, shopping with my aunt and cousins, having meals together, going to cinema together, every simple things that had happened, had made my life better. I know if I ever need help, these people will always stand by me. If my family ever needs help, I will always give support. They are the best thing in my life.

Year 2008 was the 5th year of my relationship with Yee Hau. Looking back to myself back then, so immature in handling relationship, I think he had put in a lot of efforts in enduring the emotional part of me. I appreciate him as an honest and open person, who will never hide his opinions to me. Direct opinions often hurt, but after calming myself, I often found that he made the points, especially when I'm being not realistics. I am not afraid to commit that he is going to be my life long companion, a good partner and a good friend. But wedding that needs to spend money will have to wait. Commitments can be made without wedding dinner and ceremony. Commiments of two persons to spend a life time together are made with hearts.

I don't have to tell you what are my plans in 2009, especially there are some ammendments needed. But if you ever found that laziness had crawling into my soul, please remind me, that I'm at the age of no turning back.

Looking back at 2008, I have lots of joyous moments as ever. Family and friends are always around, to fill me with love and care. Though I have to learn things from the hard way sometimes, but it's a learning at the end of the day. As long as I remember them, learn them by heart, I am sure I will be better every day, every year.

Since I will not be able to blog on the first day of year 2009, I will wish everybody Happy New Year in advance. May all you dreams come true!

Happy New Year!

Cambodia, here I come

I'm going off from Penang from tomorrow onwards. I'll be travelling to Kuala Lumpur in the afternoon with Kia Hooi and Wooi Fong. We'll be staying around at Fong's sister's place for a night, then we'll catch a flight to Siam Reap on 31st morning.

We'll spend 5D4N in Cambodia. I won't be back to Penang after the trip, but I'll fly to Singapore and start working on 5th of Jan. I'll be only be back on CNY, which is just around the corner, I can't wait!

Thanks to Han Chean who had done most of the work for this trip at the end of it. Thank you Han Chean to make the trip happens :P

Yeah girls, we're going to have fun!

(Han Chean, you're considered a girl too :P)

Some Recollections

So finally someone complained that I have not been blogging for some time. At least I know there are still people reading it :P

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I've been back at home for a week. Yes, wonder how time can fly so fast, I've already rotting for a week. I have an entry half written to tell people what I have done on the past weekend, but the TMNUT was bloody slow in uploading photos, I've decided to postpone the publishing of the post. Bloody **** TMNUT had not been good for the past few years, I wish Santa Clause didn't give them anything for Christmas. If he did, let's make it shit.

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I've reached home on 20.12.2008 morning. I didn't have much time to rest on that particular morning. I had my breakfast with my family, changed and there I went to Khoo Kongsi for some ceremony and also dinner, for consecutively two days. This was actually the half written post I've been talking about. Let me postpone this, ok? On 21.12.2008, of course we did celebrate Winter Solstice too. What's more? We watched "Ip Man" at Gurney Plaza too! Oh... I just can't help loving Donnie Yen, he's soooooooooooooo COOL!

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On 22.12.2008 and 23.12.2008, finally I've got some time to sleep a little bit later, got myself a new pair of spectacles. But still didn't manage to get myself a medical checkup. I better hurry up! And I also didn't have the time to call Soon Oo up as I've promised him. And what's more, I had one of the worst diarrhea ever, due to a overdue chicken pie as breakfast. I lost all my energy through one time vomitting and over 20 times (according to Ah En's calculations) diarrhea. I finally stopped the diarrhea with the "Goh Tak Sua" and the Kopi O, they worked quite well. I also managed to get myself hyrated with 100plus.

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24.12.2008, it's X'mas eve already. Despite of my previous night's terrible diarrhea, we woke up early to Penang again. My sis had made a facial appointment for both of us, so here we went! The facial was quite relaxing, I almost fell asleep. Then as usual, we went shopping and eating with my aunt and cousins.

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On Christmas Day, we went to my Wu Yi's house to celebrate an Ang Moh's type of Christmas. This was the first time I had X'mas pudding, X'mas cake, Turkey, stuffings etc for X'mas. It was fun. Of course it wouldn't be that fun without all my cousins! Ah Yuan had been very fast to blog about this, so I let him do the stories while I postpone all the entries that would involve photos uploading.

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Today, I went shopping with my best companions in BM, Kia Hooi and Wooi Fong. We brought all our swimming customes thinking we would do shopping+swimming, but all we did was shopping!!!!! All of us had a lot to bring home, and that was so cool~

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All the above were just a "summary" (I'll fail Rumusan with this) of what I've been doing since 20.12.2008 when I stepped my feet in Penang. I realized I don't have too much time here in Penang before I fly to Cambodia, I really better start doing all the things I would like to do before I complained I always don't have enough time.

PS Gosh, I realized I have so much to blog about after I came back from Cambodia. The postponed Khoo Kongsi ceremony and X'mas, and also my upcoming Cambodia trip with Kia Hooi, Wooi Fong and Han Chean. Cool~

Till then~

Of Wedding and Love

我最近刚刚出席了一个教堂婚礼，这是我有史以来出席的第二个教堂婚礼。第一个是我钢琴老师的，那时还很小，没有什么印象，甚至不记得我的老师是否是天主教还是基督教。这一次出席的，是天主教的婚礼。

说实在的，我对这种婚礼充满了疑惑。以往我们看的电影，教堂婚礼都好像非常浪漫。可是，在现实生活中，我却觉得有点不实际。并不是针对宗教，而是对于这种礼节，觉得有点不习惯。

男方发表他爱的宣言的时候， 几度哽咽。虽然感人，可是，这种向大众宣布的爱，我始终有点不习惯。不只是爱的宣言，之后，婚礼主持人还将男女方从如何结识，如何坠入爱河，如何决定要对方成为终生伴侣，种种私人的事情全暴露于所有人。如果是我，我会超级不自在。

除此之外，一场婚礼仿佛是向所有的亲戚朋友交待他们的爱。在这个速食爱情的时代，结合分开是这么的普遍，向大众交待两人的结合，是否同样的得向大众交待两人的分开。如果两个人的爱是这么的圣洁，为什么离婚率那么的高？为什么越来越多小孩是单亲家庭长大？

在这个速食和快感的时代，太多人追求的是一时的甜蜜和浪漫，长长久久的真实感变成了沉闷，失去了感觉的恋情。要怪爱情片吗？还是怪社会？该怪好莱坞吧？

越是长大，我越是发现自己是一个实际到不行的人。由于已经25岁，身边结婚的越来越多。而我看的婚礼越多，越是觉得婚礼不过是一场“秀”。花几千块拍的婚纱照，用了几十桌请了自己不是很相识的朋友，用最大的排场，在千人宴上发表爱的宣言……这些，并不是维持一段感情的因素。

结婚，是两人的爱情结合。宴请朋友，只是分享这份快乐。既然是分享，当然是请最要好的朋友，一些真正会为你高兴的朋友。简简单单的晚宴，大家自由自在的谈天说地，安安静静就好。当然，更简单的就是注册然后旅行结婚，这样更好。婚纱照其实也可以省下来。

嗯……遇上我一个这么实际的人，真的不知道是好事还是坏事。或许哪天，我会告诉你我结婚了，可是连婚纱照都没有。哈哈哈哈……

My First Half Marathon

Finally, the day has come, I completed the first half marathon in my life. But, it's a rather painful experience.

The event is a madness! There are total 50,000 people joining the event! Well, I guess the ERP gantry is too expensive to drive in city area, and the cab, MRT and buses fare went up too, therefore, people want to use their legs to "commute" around the town area. Hahahaha!

Before the Race
Ever since my Nike Run on 31st August, I have had knee pain, though not very serious. So on and off during my routine running, I do feel the pressure on my knees. I bought knee guards to protect them, and my mom also gave me the glucosamine pills, but I didn't take any of them till now. To make things worse, last Sunday, I ran a 10km in gym, then I developed some muscle pain, but not too serious.

On the Race Day
We woke up at 3.30am to get prepared. We took the 5am bus to the race venue, deposited the bag, warm up, went to toilet and 6.30am, off we go! But even before I hit 5km, I've already got knee pain. I thought of giving up and start walking, but when I thought of the 16km ahead of me, I decided to continue running.

Until I got to the "banana station", I know it's 13km already. So I had the banana, and started my walking-running-walking-running, all the way till the finishing line. I was glad I finally made it, but I felt my legs don't belong to me anymore... Hahahaha!

How long did I take to run? Very embarrassingly, it took me 3 hours and 3mins to finish the half marathon. Hm....

After the Race
After I finally collected my bag, Yee Hau and my friends must have been waiting for me for soooooo bloody long. We rested for a while (I rested for a while), then we went to Raffles City to have Buger King breakfast.

When I finally reached home, I slept for a few hours.... Hahaha... And there goes a day~

Very Cute!

Stan Smith K

I bought a pair of Adidas Stan Smith in Vivo City on Monday this week after work. I've always wanted this type of shoes, but I always failed to get one. The answers I've got from the shops are mostly "Sorry Ma'am, we don't have the size" and "Sorry Ma'am, this is a design for men". Sigh...

Finally on Monday, I found size 4 in Adidas shop in Vivo City. I asked the promoter if they have other colours. He showed me another one in white with dark blue, asked me if I'd like to try that. But I looked at him in the most puzzled expression I have "This size?"

You can't believe it, he showed me a shoes for... baby maybe. Then he kindly explained to me "Ma'am, you're actually trying on the kids' design."

Oh my god!

Realize the "K"? It's for kids.

It's quite embarrasing initially, to purchase a pair kids' shoes. But when I knew I was paying half of the price of the adults' shoes, I was more than delighted! I paid $53 for this pair of shoes, while new arrival of adults shoes are close to $100 or even more!

Yay!

From now onwards, I'm doing to shop for kids shoes.

Scribble

It's late at night, I should be sleeping but I don't feel like going to bed at all. So I just want to scribble a bit here and there before I get myself into the pillows.

Things can be good in a day, and then turned bad in another day. I know this, but sometimes my emotion and hormones just don't seem to get me going with the flow. And my face, yes, my face will always show it. Even when I'm trying to control, the high blood flow will show my red face at times like this.

At times, I can get through with things, act cool and forget them in another minute. But at times like this, with my hormone imbalance (PMS is here), and with all the economy downturn (Yes, nowadays you're allowed to blame anything to the economy, even to the Mumbai attack), my mood just seem to recover slower. Especially when someone accidentally or purposely stepped on my tail (If I have one).

I told Celeste earlier in our dinner, "We don't live in an ideal world". This is more for her than for me. We don't live in an ideal world. Hence, we just can't expect everyone has a common sense to daily things. And we can't expect everyone can be as considerate as possible. We can't expect a lot of things.

It's not ideal, and I have to go with the flow and live with it. But, I'll never let go of my principles.

厨房

以前，我是一个不择不扣的厨房白痴。别说煮什么菜肴，连切蒜头都有困难。真的不是搞笑！

自从到新加坡来念书以后，就经常想吃妈妈煮的饭菜。即使简简单单的炒菜，我也心满意足。可是大一到大三的我，都是靠着学兄或者朋友们，吃的喝的，都依赖他们。从来都不用我动手，就有饭菜，就有甜品，偶尔还有补品。真是样样俱备！幸福的我，还是看不到学下厨的重要性。

后来大四我们三个女生搬到外头去住，我才开始渐渐会煮饭。虽然，多数的时候，我还是那个袖手旁观的指挥官。可是，每当爱媚和Sock Hoai不在的时候，我就得自己来了。然后，渐渐就觉得有趣。

后来毕业了，我们不再一同住，我更是“悲惨”的只剩下我一人在厨房胡乱发挥。一年多了吧，我都会在周末煮煮饭。因为，我实在太厌倦外头的食物。尤其我家附近的Jurong Point，东西又贵又不好吃，偏偏最靠近的就是它。真的是把我逼到不煮饭都不行。

这样的一年多，我会煮的菜肴也越来越多。偶尔，还同CS交换意见。我经常想象我俩在谈煮菜的时候，一定很像巴杀的auntie一样，这种情景发生在两位25岁和27岁的身上，实在惨不忍睹！不过，就因为这种惨不忍睹的情景，我俩交换的菜肴还真不少。

这个周末很有空，我连要煮的东西都差不多买齐了。

这个周末我煮什么？这个周末我想来点比较西式的。

Appetizer: Fresh green salad with freta cheese and bread crumbs, potato mash with brown sauce

Main dish: Butter garlic chicken

Desserts: 妈妈食谱红豆汤(西式菜肴中式点心）

Drinks：Fresh brewed Bon Cafe Coffee

想了都很爽！哈哈哈哈！

我的自卑

说从没让自己同别人做比较，是骗人的。

从小就有一头莫名其妙的卷发，很卷，甚至比印度人还要卷。虽然爸爸是天生卷发，可是我的卷发显然比他还要厉害，真是青出于蓝。

从小我就有很多花名，全和我那头独一无二的头发有关。虽然多数时候，我都是笑笑面对，可是总不免感到自卑，问自己为什么自己的头发这么不同。还默默的希望有天科技发达，可以让我的头发变直发。虽然今天我们有了离子烫，可是我却从来没尝试。因为我自己知道，烫了会怎么样。

虽然长大了，我明白头发不是一个人成功与否的因素，常常提醒自己不要为了那头毛发感到自卑，可是偶尔上理发院我还是会免不了被理发师气倒。不是一直问我为什么头发那么卷，就是说服我烫直头发，要不然就是剪了头发就“硬硬来”势必用各种各样的发夹发烫把我的头发梳直。仿佛天生卷发是一种罪孽。更生气的是，有时候他们还有点取笑的意思。

中学时代更要命，学生证还印着“天生卷发”。手持着这种学生证，总是被人取笑。如果当年我知道可以用自尊心受损，导致心灵上的困扰种种名堂控告学校，我早就干了！他X的！真希望今天的日新已不再实行这一套。天生卷发不需要你特别标榜。

世上仿佛最能够接受我的卷发的，就是我的家人吧。虽然偶尔也有一些亲戚朋友称赞我这独特的卷发，但我总有点抱着怀疑的心态接受这种好意。总觉得那是一种安慰而已，其实他们肯定觉得我的头发丑到爆。（自信心比较少的人，往往不能够全心全意接受别人的称赞，不管是真心还是假意）

今天的我当然比以前有信心，可是偶尔还是免不了受伤。人是很奇怪的吧……

I hate Lang Lang!

Someone must have hate him so much to make such a funny video!

Can't stop laughing!!! Hahahaha...

Enjoy~

Ravel, Piano Concerto in G by Martha Angerich

为了让大家明白为什么音乐会的第二首曲目不适合华乐演奏，我找来了这个．

如果你觉得懒得看，你至少要看第三乐章．Martha Angerich的手指简直不是人的！　

再看黄河钢琴协奏曲

打从我买了音乐会的票以后，我一直期待这一天的到来。简单的说，我是抱着一种向殷承宗黄河钢琴协奏曲朝拜的心态，赴这场音乐会。

音乐会曲目：
阿莱成的姑娘
第一乐章：田园
第二乐章：间奏曲
第三乐章：小步舞曲
第四乐章：费兰多尔舞曲
一直对从西方古典改编成华乐的歌曲都有所保留，除了卡门以外。可是这首阿莱成的姑娘四个乐章也都非常合适，除了某些原曲以小提琴为主的地方稍微逊色之外，大体上都是很好听。卡门和阿莱成的姑娘都属比才的创作，难道比才的歌曲都比较适合改编成华乐？

Maurice Ravel钢琴协奏曲　（独奏：殷承宗）
1st Movement: Allegramente
2nd Movement: Adagio assai
3rd Movement: Presto
这首的改编就稍微逊色。原曲本来是浪漫主义，很随想的一首曲子。可是套在华乐的身上，有点奇怪。听完以后我总觉得改编是一种浪费。我还是比较喜欢西乐的原曲，收藏的那张CD是属李云迪的演奏。并非要指殷承宗奏得不好，只是一华乐的方式呈现着曲子，始终不太合适。

黄河风情第一组曲
第一乐章：山歌（领奏：笛——林信有/彭天祥；管——韩雷；唢呐——李新桂）
第二乐章：黄河水长流（领奏：笛——尹志阳/曾志）
第三乐章：看秧歌（领奏：唢呐——靳世义）
第四乐章：走西口（领奏：管——韩雷）
第五乐章：闹红火（领奏：笛——尹志阳／林信有／彭天祥／曾志；唢呐——靳世义／李新桂；管——韩雷）
这首曲是一首非常典型的华乐。吵吵闹闹的，欢乐庆典的，对唱的，流水的，都是我们熟悉的音调。虽然不是一首熟悉的歌曲，但是，听起来，就是有我想念的味道。仿佛那陈旧的华乐室里，那股湿气，乐器带有树木的味道，从未离开过我。而我也从未离开那个地方。这首曲子第三乐章最特别。由我们熟悉的靳世义老师吹的唢呐和口哨，像两个“大声公”在对话，再加上靳世义老是那一脸丰富的表情，台下的观众都被他逗乐。很是可爱。

黄河　（独奏：殷承宗）
第一乐章：黄河船夫曲
第二乐章：黄河颂
第三乐章：黄河愤
第四乐章：保卫黄河
这首就是我买票的原因，就是我朝拜的目的地。第一次近距离以视觉听觉感受黄河钢琴协奏曲，我只能说，我都差点忘了呼吸。黄河的汹涌澎湃，完全呈现在眼前。再加上曾经演奏这首曲子，自小被爸爸用革命精神洗脑，我对这首曲子是有点情意结。第四乐章：保卫黄河非常的激昂，我只知道我的泪水已经在眼里打滚，只是控制着不让它流下。到了东方红那一段，我觉得我的身体已经秉直，呼吸已经有点困难，心跳也加速。（题外话：东方红是一个遗憾，我们从来未演奏这一段，相信是政治因素吧。）演奏接近尾声的时候，我其实已经分不清楚，究竟我的激动完全是因为我对这首歌的回忆，还是这场演出实在让人感动。可是，当演奏完毕，我看见指挥叶聪从指挥台阶跳下来拥抱殷承宗的时候，我知道，激动的不仅仅是我一人。
观众也非常热情，这是我从未在新加坡感受的热情。指挥和殷承宗谢幕了再谢幕，观众还是拍烂了手掌不放弃，最后，还站了起来，以示支持。
最后，不敌观众的热情，还是安歌了。不瞒你说，当时我暗暗的不高兴，为什么安歌了。听起来奇怪，不是安歌了觉得票价更值得吗？我当时觉得，那个结束的感觉太好了，很想就这样保留着那个时光。安歌了第四乐章的一小部分，破坏了。

虽然曾经演出黄河扬琴协奏曲，大概是当年年纪太小，除了觉得歌曲非常挑战之外，并没有这种感觉。２００５年在北京观赏殷承宗的黄河钢琴协奏曲，也没有昨晚的激动，或许音乐厅并非最好的，而且，当时我也坐的太远。可能，我还是太年轻。

或许这是最后一次观赏黄河钢琴协奏曲了。

保卫黄河，就在时空停留住。　

Detach

I mentioned about detach from desires and wants. Of course, like any other things in the world, it is always easier to say than do. Don't you think so?

Hm... Maybe not.

I let my thoughts wandered around the things that had happened in my life, those past "achievements" (They might not be achievements in your point of view, but they were the moments I felt joy) that I have had. These achievements, they seem to be incidents that caught me in surprises when they came to me. They always got my feet jumping in the air, or secretly drawing a smile of my face when I turned around... I always thought I was plainly, very lucky!

Not until I found that these "achievements", they have a same denominator. Before revealing what is the common ground of these achievements, please allow me to share some of the moments.

I won a price in Solo for Plucking Instrument in 1999. That little prize, had got on my nerves! Yes, I was very happy to be able to win one, but I was so afraid if the judges would let me get into finals, plainly because I was never prepared for it, I can't even memorize the score of the song that I submitted as final. Lucky or unlucky, I got into semifinals only. I never prepared for the prize.

I have been to two scholarship interviews after the release of STPM results. One will think I'm a weirdo, but I want to tell you, I kinda... liked to be interviewed. I enjoyed both scholarship interviews, ASEAN and Hong Kong Baptist University. Both U offered totally different courses. ASEAN offered me the Materials Science and Engineering in NTU while HK Baptist University offered me Mass Communication (Journalist Study). To my surprise, HKBU offered me the scholarship the very evening after my interview in the afternoon. I was very delighted, although I rejected at the end of it. I never prepared for this, I applied scholarships just for trying out purpose.

The above and many others, are things that totally caught me off guarded, in a good way of course. Like I mentioned earlier, I have always thought I was plainly lucky.

But come to think of it, I was actually working hard towards them. Take the solo competition as an example. I didn't prepare myself for winning a solo competition, but I trained and practiced very hard for the Orchestral competition. I love music, I love my JSCO, I love them so much, I dedicated 90% of my teenager time to them. All the training, practices, dedications, were the preparation for the prize after all, without me realizing that.

Isn't that an example of detaching? I think it is. At least to me.

Maybe that's a moment of "enlightened", I realize the desire to something, will not get you there, but a dedication to a value will.

I found myself smiling when I realized this.

Slow Down

Ever thought of why on earth do we have to walk so fast? Especially those who live in Singapore like me. Have you ever thought, even just once, why are you walking so fast? Why can't we take a deep breathe and walk slowly, and look at the scenery that surrounds us? Even though they're just buses and people, there must be something interesting hiding somewhere.

Why can't we spend more time thinking of the works and projects that we're doing, planning them and organizing them before dip our heads into the deadlines and URGENCY?

Efficient!

Multi-tasking!

These two words have been conquering our daily lives. Take a close look at those recruitments, qualities that they're looking for--MULTI-TASKING. Have any one of us take a look into dictionary and get a closer understanding what is efficient? And how does it differ from effective?

Efficient:
performing or functioning in the best possible manner with the least waste of time and effort; having and using requisite knowledge, skill, and industry

Effective:
adequate to accomplish a purpose; producing the intended or expected result

My "england" is not very "powderful", but I know if I were a boss, I should look for effectiveness.

I was walking slowly this afternoon towards the ever boring Jurong Point to buy some meat to cook Bak Kut Teh for dinner. I was walking very slow because I just had my shower, and I don't want to sweat under the super hot sun. But what I realized was, people were walking past me, some showed very impatient faces as if the pace I walked will cost them a million dollar. They're walking as if they're catching a bus or MRT to work. But, COME ON people, this is Sunday!!

I feel sad for people who live in city, a busy one like Singapore, including myself. We've forgotten how to live a life, instead we had just let the life taken us. And then complaining we have no lives?

Come on...

There were times I walked so fast even though I was out on a date with Yee Hau. Sometimes he would hold me back, sometimes I would hold him back.

It saddens me how sometimes we've forgotten we can relax our muscles, and live.

Remember how I did say that when you've achieved your purposes of life, the person in-charged of deaths will take you away? Well... Don't rush. Take your time, make every second, every little things you do a meaningful and quality ones, rather than compete among each other how many things we've achieved.

If you caught me walking too fast, hold me back. I don't want to die young.

(Perhaps this is how the Cantonese come up with 赶住去投胎么... I think this must be the reason behind)

灵魂拥抱

“暢銷作家俞培文很久沒有過得這麼轟轟烈烈了，但他不明白為什麼他身上同時存在著好的知名度與壞的知名度？他甚至懷疑這些彼此矛盾的『俞培文』，到底哪個真實，哪個才是虛幻？而起因只是一個天外飛來的意外──那篇不是他寫的文章〈靈魂的擁抱〉。

他也想過要召開緊急記者會，大張旗鼓地宣布〈靈魂的擁抱〉不是他寫的；但整個社會的氛圍都認定了〈靈魂的擁抱〉就是『俞培文』的代表作，這樣急著出面否 認的意義是什麼？他會被認為是一個忠於自我的作者，或者因此被視為是一個無所不用其極炒作知名度的作者？是『默認』比較流俗呢？還是『否認』更加媚 俗？……

藉由名氣與符號，人們認識世界，探索彼此。但為了滿足慾望，我們卻又無情地操縱、扭曲這些象徵。我們能在扭曲中保有自身的靈魂嗎？抑或生命註定要迷失在這些虛實莫測的象徵裡？

繼《白色巨塔》探討權力、《危險心靈》探討教育，侯文詠再次以簡潔、乾淨的風格寫出戲劇張力十足的寫實小說。《靈魂擁抱》探討的是『名氣』，以文壇和媒體生態為背景，在驚悚情節中引出人生的困惑與矛盾，讓閱讀充滿多樣化的樂趣與省思。”

从《顽皮故事集》开始认识这位麻醉医师，就一直读着他的书，觉得他是一位很有趣的麻醉医师。从图书馆的《皇冠杂志》得悉原来去年侯文咏出版了这本叫《灵魂拥抱》的书，这么巧在多美歌的商务书局看到了，就很理所当然的买了。

我并不打算在这里给一个463页的浓缩版《灵魂拥抱》，况且从上文你也大概可以估计这故事围绕着什么。这故事基本上充满了矛盾，人性的矛盾，对名誉、欲望、道德的种种矛盾。一种中的情形之下，描写每个人要在社会的观点和自己的需要之下找出平衡。

有时看得气了，还会把书随手扔在床上，稍微爬网，可是没一下子，我又把书拿起，紧张的跟随剧情的高潮迭起，同追看连续剧没两样。就这样，没几天的功夫，我就把书看完了。

虽然还是比较喜欢侯文咏的短篇故事、散文等，可是无可否认他的长篇总有让人追看下去的魅力。即使故事那么让人生气，你还是想看。

值得看吗？见仁见智，我本身喜欢。

The Last Lecture

I've just finished reading The Last Lecture, one of the book that I've bought on Saturday. I know I should be sleeping by now as I'm still recovering from my sickness, but I do feel like I want to blog about it before going to bed.

The Last Lecture is about how a lecturer who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer lived his life, before and after he and his family learned about his cancer. And he gave his last lecture of his life in the university. So the book was actually a record of what he had shared in the lecture.

It doesn't sound very special or interesting. In fact, Tuesdays with Morrie had done a better job in terms of giving inspirational thoughts. However, the optimistism and passion to life of the man, Randy, was the one main thing, that we need to learn from him, that we need to remind ourselves with, from time to time.

I'm a person who thought about death a lot. Enough for me to analyse what are the easier path to commit suicide, without much pain, and think of what letters should one leave for the loved ones before committing suicide. But not enough for me to commit one myself, because I found no reason to leave the world. Especially with all the things that I love and treasure every minute I live.

I thought about death a lot, that I teared every time I think about how painful it will be if any of my loved ones leave me one day. I know this is something that we cannot avoid, but I am in no position to handle this. I never know how to handle death. I experienced it, and I never loved it. I can't even take a death of my grandmother's dog, Ben, what more a person I love.

I thought about death a lot, that I am afraid that the loved ones will be hurt, if I happened to leave one day. I can't imagine what kind of pain one have to go through. I hope when this day happen, my loved ones, be it family, partner, friends, relatives, colleagues, will support each other to get through.

I thought about death a lot, that I have been wonder, who is the person in charged of the deaths of all beings. Does this person in charged check whether the person who is dying fulfill his/her purpose of life before sending him/her through death? I always assume this process happen when we die. Perhaps the in charged will check on our records, make sure we will not die for nothing, to ensure we have done something in our life, that fulfill the purpose of bringing us here to the world.

This is a reason why, I feel it is vital to find out the true purpose of our life. But as I learn from books from Deepak Chopra, we have to detach from all these wants and desires, then we will eventually get there. I do not know how to put in more inspirational words, you will just have to read them if you want to know.

Finding purpose is one thing, fulfilling them, is another task. What if I fulfill them when I'm 20? Will they sentence my death at age 20? Have you ever heard of some "rules" at work that says "If you're given a job that you can finish in one week, but you're given a month time, don't ever finish them in one week. Submit them after 3 weeks, you're still working way efficient than what the boss expects."

There are two ways to look at this statement. First, don't rush things through. Second, perhaps we have more than one purpose in life. So keep things rolling on.

I guess by doing that, the death will not come when it isn't the time. I hope.

I have thought a lot about death, that I have even looked for books that talked about euthanasia.

I found Denial of Soul by M. Scott Peck. I borrowed from library but couldn't finish it within 3 weeks because it's way too heavy to read about death everyday.

I think I would chose this path if one day I think I need to die with dignity, without imposing any burden to my loved ones. Perhaps when the time comes, I will have to migrate to any country which has more flexible perspective to euthanasia and to die peacefully.

But all these, they are just thoughts. Death cannot be planned, at least for sudden deaths.

What is more important, is to live, with passion.

And I'm going to remind myself with this, every single day.

If you ask me what is the conclusion after reading the book, well, I would say, give it a try, it's inspiring in some ways.

太不称职了

要到煮饭的时候，才发现米不够用

*晕*

Plainly Rotting

So, I'm not fully recovered yet. Thanks to Kean Ping for offering me medicine (till he graduates :D)~

Anyway, I'm not the kind of person who can sit still at home for 3 DAYS! After a day of hiding myself in bed with the official MC, I have decided, I had too much!

Yesterday, I have a very valid reason to visit the town. As of what is the valid reason, I perfer not to say till I have any positive results. Lets pray.

I have to go all the way to Dhoby Ghaut for that valid reason, after finishing my task of the day, very important one, I wandered alone along the street. And with no surprise, I ended up in a bookshop at the basement of Cathay. And no surprise again, I bought two books.

Then, I bury my head into the book at Starbucks with a cup of green tea latte and a piece of small small cake. When the time's up, I went to meet up with Yee Hau to have meal together. I complained to him earlier on, that we had spent too much time on ourselves. I need time to be together!

So, my complaints are approved so we went paktor. Hahaha...

How often you see Wei Wei in long skirt like this? :P

We ended up in a Hong Kong Cafe called "C Nai Cafe" when we strolled along East Coast Park because we saw this!

I really like Hong Kong, because they always come with very creative names. 黑白两道，乳你同酪，喷火椒盐鸡，香蕉飞仙……I just love it! We only ordered 黑白两道 and 乳你同酪 as we just had dinner not too long ago.

That's all for my weekend then, it's time to prepare my dinner :)

又病了

在Copthorne King's Hotel上了四天课，上周两天，这周两天。四天，我周围的两位同事都是带病上课，咳嗽+喉咙痛。前三天，我都完全没事，一点都不被她们的病毒影响，还是开开心心上课。直到昨天，我的喉咙也发痒了。

讨厌！

原本还好好的嘛！可能是因为屠妖节的那三天，我往返新加坡和家，路途上睡得不多，在家里睡得也不多，每天早早起身出门找美食。可能是这样累坏了身子，抵抗力变弱了，病毒就侵犯！

被病毒侵犯了还不要紧，别人只是咳嗽喉咙痛，我还来个发烧！这是的！请了假在家休息，可是就是提不起力气看医生去。没看医生，怎样拿MC?可是真的没力出门，外头的天气还是很热很热的……

妈咪……来救我！

小时候的阿恩

泡泡浴，很性感哦！露点的！ >.<


不知道是被什么吓着了，表情实在经典！


昨天的我们完全沉醉于欣赏我们小时候的相片，恩也学我一样，把它们放上网来。恩长得象我，只是size小了一倍。

大姐，我们都在等着那个合成照啊！

小时候的薇薇

只有在回家的时候，才能够在这些泛黄的相片里寻找那些零零碎碎的童年回忆。

我们说着聊着，我仿佛看见怡保花园的后巷……

请投票！

原来养蜘蛛的我不是怪胎，与我相仿年龄的都做过类似的事情。（在网聊才发现有更精彩的！）

想知道大家捉过、养过的是什么，麻烦大家在旁边的poll投投票。

如果是“其他……”，可以在此留言，大家交换“心得”。也欢迎大家分享每个人的特别经验。

:D

原来我们的童年好可爱哦！

童年回忆 （五）——养蜘蛛

不知道你们还记不记得，小时候有种小小罐透明的零食，标志是白纸褐字，中间有位ahpek的照片。有种是小小粒的，我叫它“老鼠屎”；有另一种是小小条的。有印象吗？

小时候很喜欢吃“老鼠屎”，所以那罐子我特别多。既然这么多，又不想丢了，就拿来用呗。怎么个用呢？当然是养蜘蛛啦！这么obvious的用途！（小时候简直觉得很理所当然）

第一次把蜘蛛关在里头没多久，它就翻肚了。我非常的不解，当然是向妈妈求救，原来是蜘蛛没有氧气。第二只蜘蛛就比较幸运，我早已为它在罐子的盖上穿了几个洞，多得让它有足够的氧气，也小得让它逃不了。

可是，他还是死了！为什么！原来，他没有东西吃，饿死了。我不知道原来昆虫需要吃东西的喔！那它到底吃什么，妈妈说，吃蚊子。我兴致勃勃，那很容易吧，冲凉房里有好多水蚊啊！

从妈妈那里学会了这些以后，蜘蛛都比较长命了。

或许你会问，养蜘蛛有什么好玩？那你就有所不知了！那老鼠屎的罐子，是silinder的。我最喜欢做的，就是把罐子，在地上滚来滚去。从客厅滚去饭厅，饭厅滚去厨房，再滚回客厅……这样来来回回，蜘蛛都快疯了。往往，蜘蛛已经晕得不行，八只脚往身体缩，变成一粒屎。通常要过很久很久，才会恢复正常。

当然，除了看蜘蛛滚成一团，我还喜欢看它们织网，看它们如何捕捉猎物（是我捕捉啦），如何进食等……从小就看animal planet的我，难怪现在还是特爱看与动物有关的节目。

可是这样养久了也不是很好玩。好命的，就被放生；不好名的吧……说来惭愧，小妹把它们淹死了。想想我童年必定杀死了不少蜘蛛，不死的也已经半身不遂。不知道，以后会不会有蜘蛛精来报仇……

Yael Naim, New Soul

I happened to switch to MTV Channel while waiting for some program on National Geographic. And, this was the MTV which was showing. I immediately fell in love, with the song.

I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

La, la, la, la (21x)
La, la, la, la (21x)

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout what is true and fake
But why all this hate? try to communicate
Finding trust and love is not always easy to make

La, la, la, la (21x)
La, la, la, la (21x)

This is a happy end
Cause you don't understand
Everything you have done
Why's everything so wrong

This is a happy end
Come and give me your hand
I'll take you far away

I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

New soul... (la, la, la, la,...)
In this very strange world...
Every possible mistake
Possible mistake
Every possible mistake
Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes...

我马上想象自己躺在花海中，享受懒洋洋的早上……

What a Translation!

Hock Chuan told me he thinks the entry that I blogged about "pok pok" was very funny. I was curious how he read it, and the answer was Google Translate.

"Is it accurate?" I asked.

"Well, it has to depend on your own imagination..." That's his answer.

I can't help but wanted to try, on the similar entry that he mentioned and this is the results!

Wei-wei said that the back lanes is the devil's paradise, back alleys and the size of the things I can not always escaped.

One neighbor auntie, always liked to up there in underwear on the fence. On one occasion, auntie is probably not a lot of days to wash your underwear, underwear sun-tall fence as a whole are linked to the brim, very spectacular.

Wei-wei, of course, the devil is only being "deeply moved" on it, pointing to the spectacular scene shouted

"Wow! Sauce more than pok pok!"

The whole street got auntie, would like to see laughs laughter, tears. Ha, ha, ha!

We advise you not to underwear after the sun so to spectacular.

Hock Chuan, this needs WHOLE WORLD of imagination!!!! I can't believe you could understand what I was saying! Thanks for the support :D

心中的那把尺

每个人的心中，有把衡量事物的尺。哪件事情是错的，哪件事情是对的，都靠那把尺，来为我们做决定。虽然没有完美准确的标准，没有ISO9000来认定我们的标，可是，我们总是各自各认为自己是对的。

这次的我，大概又是把尺量错了地方，不小心伤了爱我的人。也不小心让自己坠入崩溃的边缘，差点被淹没，差点分割自己的灵魂，只是还是及时走出来了。

可是，量错的，已经错了。

我想把事情弄对，可是不知道该怎么办。只好，走一步看一步，错的，应该还可以补上。只是创下的伤口，有点疤痕。

早上起身，声音有点沙了。

看书的习惯

我阅读的习惯，从童年那张床开始。

记得小时候，我那张床是定做的。床头是四格的橱，所以，我的床比市场上的稍长一些。从小到大，我都很喜欢那张床，床头总是很整齐的排折一格的故事书，还有三格的熊熊。后来，淹水淹坏了，很可惜。

那一格的故事书，是一套20本的英文读者文摘小孩故事书（我还记得其中一本是动物园的），还有一整套从小学一年级到六年级的故事书。还没念书的时候，我就老是捧着那些书一直翻。虽然看不懂，却老是翻，看着那一页一页的图画，给自己编写自己喜欢的故事。

看懂了以后，就飞快的看，一年级看三年级的，二年级就看五年级的，很快就把整套看完了。而且，还不停地重复着看。直到我厌倦了，才把注意力转移到书房里大大的黑色书橱里。

现在，家里的书橱是定做的。从地板一直延伸到天花板，而且占据了差不多整面墙壁。这个书橱，让我和姐姐满足得很。可是，不到几年，我们又开始懊恼，好像不够位置了。

现在，我和姐姐最大的梦想，就是拥有向图书馆般伟大的书房，还有可以滚来滚去的阶梯穿梭在书橱中……

懵懵懂懂睡过的生日

我好像有这个习惯，就是生日的那个12点，我通常都是懵懵懂懂的睡觉。

记得以前在北京，司彦原本已经买好了蛋糕，藏在男生家里的冰橱，原想12点叫他们点了腊烛同我庆祝，结果我很早就睡着了。10/10当天，一下班就出门同顺发顺有吃饭去，结果回家还是没吃蛋糕。隔天，司彦真的受不了了，我被训了一顿，只好乖乖到男生家的冰橱取蛋糕，切蛋糕。哈哈哈。

去年今年亦如此，还没到12点我就累极睡觉（平时都睡得很晚，偏偏生日就早睡）。都是毓豪12点捧着蛋糕点了蜡烛叫我醒的，然后，才陆陆续续回短讯什么的。

不知道为什么，到生日当天总是特别累，然后就睡着了。总是让那些要为我庆祝的人头痛。哈哈哈！

不是故意的啦……

生日快乐

昨天是我的生日，谢谢大家为我送上的祝福。感谢。

晚上回家打开电脑的时候，好多人都问我为什么那么早。我都不知道该怎么回答。反正，出门也不过是吃顿饭，散散步，去看看我想买的相机包包，结果也没买成，想多看看还有什么选择。

25岁了，庆生有时候也不过是这样普普通通的一天，反而应该感谢的是父母，是他们把我带到这个世界，然后用他们无限的爱来养大我们。其实原想打电话回家跟妈妈说谢谢，结果话还是啃在喉咙没说出来，最后也不过像平时聊天，闲话家常。

25年的光阴，在我生活里进进出出的人不少。谢谢你们。

童年回忆 （四）——被狗咬

这是我人生中第一次被狗咬，也是最严重的一次。（这是六岁以前的事，可能是三岁左右）

那时，（这些背景都是从妈妈那里听回来的），我们一家人到新山来探望亲戚，打算隔天到新加坡去游玩。就在亲戚家聊天的时候，意外就这样发生了。

（以下是我有印象的事情）

亲戚家有条黑狗，是用铁链锁着的。当时，亲戚捧了一个狗盘摆在那里。没错的话，黑狗是被绑在客厅旁的小小空间，像阳台还是什么的。我见狗盘放得挺远的，担心黑狗吃不到，就很鸡婆的把盘给推进一点，好让它可以用食。怎么知道，好心也会遭雷劈，黑狗在不知情的情况下，竟扑过来咬了我一口。

那一幕我的印象可非常的深刻，是条大狗这样扑过来。

后来当然我也没印象了，只知道又再次被送进诊所，打了针，头上缝了三针。真无奈。短短几年的人生，我已经进出诊所好几次。

妈妈说，隔天我们还是按照计划到新加坡去。妈妈以为我经过那场可怕的经验以后会从次以后不敢靠近狗，结果隔天我还是跟狗玩。

可能我小时候有短暂失忆症吧。

童年回忆 （三）——不要乱乱晒内裤

都说了后巷是薇薇魔鬼的天堂，后巷的大小事物总是逃不过我的法眼。

有位邻居auntie，总是喜欢把内裤高高挂在篱笆上。有一次，大概是auntie很多天没洗内裤吧，内裤晒得整个高高的篱笆都挂得满满的，很壮观。

薇薇魔鬼当然被此情此景“感动”，就指着那壮观的一幕喊道

“哇！酱多pok pok!”

搞到整条街的auntie，想笑又笑不出，欲哭无泪。哈哈哈！

奉劝大家以后不要把内裤晒到这么壮观。

童年回忆 （二）——洗衣机uncle

住在怡保的时候，家门外是一条大路，所以多半的玩乐时间，都在后巷。不像大山脚，怡保花园的后巷都很清洁，完全没有异味，是我小时候的玩乐天堂。

后巷的活动可多了，除了是小孩的玩乐天堂，也是小贩做生意买卖的地方。我记得后巷每天都有好多摊子会定时骑脚车经过，云吞面、肉干、还有洗衣机uncle。 （洗衣机uncle是驾van的）

洗衣机uncle经过后巷的时间稍晚，通常是将近天黑的时候才出现。我至今仍不知道洗衣机uncle是干什么的，大概是修理洗衣机，还有卖一些洗衣机零件的吧。也不知道什么样的情况之下，我开始叫他洗衣机uncle。更不能了解什么样的情况之下，我就开始用我很厉害的玩具水枪射他。

更厉害的是，我邻居那个uncle，印象中他也挺老了，返老还童，跟我一起玩水战，大战我们的洗衣机uncle。想想他当时也很无辜，不过是想做做生意，竟定时被一老一少，当怪兽一样射得不亦乐乎。他应该很T_T。哈哈哈哈！

洗衣机uncle的题外话，小孩子的魅力可不要轻视。爸爸说，以前邻居那个uncle从来都不打招呼聊天，自从薇薇魔鬼的出现以后，uncle变得很活泼，还同我家人熟络起来。厉害哦！

邻居uncle，就是我的战友。哈哈！

童年回忆（一）——大口喝XO

昨晚毓好与我谈起我们童年回忆，究竟从几岁开始，不禁让我俩掉进时光隧道，娓娓道来所有儿时的趣事。我想一一在此分享，即使有损名誉，也在所不惜。（即使有损姐弟的名誉，也在所不惜哦！>.<)

爸爸最喜欢同别人提起的，莫过于他女儿喝酒的故事。话说回来，是这样的……

有这样的一个晚上，爸爸有喝酒的兴致，便把家里那小小张的玻璃咖啡桌，挪到客厅的中央，摆设好他的XO，和一个很美的酒杯。酒杯的表层，带着浅浅的金漆，可以看见自己的歪曲的倒影，像哈哈镜一样。

我被酒杯迷倒了，就一直在桌子边没有离去。爸爸将一切喝酒的都准备好以后，发现自己还没取出冰块，便没想太多就往厨房走去。酒鬼的薇薇，就趁那么几分钟把酒杯拿起，喝了一大口。

可是那么一口40%的XO，大概是很辛辣吧（对那口味道完全没有印象）,我并没有把它吞了下去。只是也一时不知道该怎么反应，就含在口里呆呆的站住。爸爸很快就发现我喝了那40%的酒，要我赶快把它吐出来。结果，笨笨的薇薇，把口里的酒，就这样吐进酒杯里。哈哈哈！我想那杯酒，爸爸也没办法喝了吧。

之后的印象就比较模糊，好像是妈妈也出来了，然后我喝了很多开水。之后，就不知道了。

这件事大概是三岁或以前的事，可是我印象很深刻，对客厅的摆设，什么酒杯，什么桌子，哪张椅子等等，都可以很清楚地记得。唯独，那口辣酒没法想起来。

还好当初没喝了下去，要不然烧坏脑咯！

贪吃到出了名，以后你们有贪吃的孩子，要顾紧一点哦。

October is Here!~

I'm having flu!

The weather had been crazy these days, hot turned cold, cold turned hot in one day. My air-con too, is going crazy, hot-cold-hot-cold. Hence, that's me now, a running nose Wei Wei. I guess I'll go to see doctor this afternoon.

Anyway, October is here! Yay!

Wooi Fong, Happy Birthday again! Guess this girl is happily celebrating with her boyfriend.

And it's going to be my birthday, very soon too *wink*

Ok, Work!

不再让你孤单

让我轻轻吻着你的脸
擦干你伤心的眼泪
让你知道在孤单的时候还有一个我陪着你

让我轻轻的对着你歌唱
像是吹在草原上的风
只想静静听你呼吸紧紧拥抱你到天明

我要飞翔在你每个彩色的梦中陪着你
我从遥远的地方来看你
要说许多的故事给你听
我最喜欢看你胡乱说话的模样逗我笑
尽管有天我们会变老
老得可能都模糊了眼睛
但是我要写出人间最美丽的歌送给你

路遥远我们一起走
我要飞翔在你每个彩色的梦中对你说我爱你

我不再让你孤单
我的风霜你的单纯
我不再让你孤单
一起走到地老天荒

我不再让你孤单
我的疯狂你的天真
我不再让你孤单
一起走到地老天荒

路遥远路遥远
我不再让你孤单

从来都不是陈升的歌迷，甚至总是对姐姐说，这种像卡带坏了的歌声的也可以听的吗？他的走音实在是不敢恭维。

可是今晚，今晚，我突然孤单了，突然希望有人这样对我说，“我不再让你孤单”。

“我要飞翔在你每个彩色的梦中陪着你”，你会在我每个彩色的梦想里遨游吗？

The Results of 24 Hours Water Fasting

Remember I said last night, that I couldn't complete my 36 hours water fasting? And stopped at around 24 hours?

Well, apparently the 24 hours of water fasting works quite well on me. I had 4 rounds of smooth toilet runs this morning. Once before I had my breakfast, and thrice after the breakfast. Felt light after that.

I had sandwich for breakfast (pate with hard boiled egg, and bananas) and carbonara pasta for lunch. I planned to make potato salad for dinner, with my muesli yoghurt that I have just bought this afternoon.

I can even do facial masque with additional cucumber on my eyes (cucumber that I bought for my potato salad).

Sounds nice!

Break Fast

I've never tried water fasting before, and I've regretted it.

I've tried to maintain the empty stomach until 7pm, and I know I could not take it anymore, and I break it, with food of course, and fruits too.

I guess next time, I shall just do the fruit fasting, rather than the water fasting.

Sighz...

Detox, Again

I'm fasting today, again. It's been so long since I fast, probably two months ago.

Since Yee Hau is not in till Wednesday, I will not have the temptations to cook, so I just fast. Initially I would want to do the fruit fasting, but I didn't buy fruits last night, so I decided why not water fasting like what Kia Hooi told me before? It's much easier, you don't even have to buy fruits! Hahahaha.

Well, I'm fasting, so please don't lure me with any food!

Going to lab in a while to settle some of the stuffs. Working might help me in avoid thinking about my stomach.

Lately

I realized I didn't blog much this month. So, I decided to write something, just to tell you guys (I wonder how many readers I actually have) what have I been doing.

I've been very busy with work since I don't know when. Some colleagues have left the team. One went to continue father's business, one went back to home country for good, one wanted to concentrated on the study. Man power had been tight, and most of us work like mad.

Met up with Celeste on one of the Friday after work. I don't really remember when, as I have totally lost the sense of the sequence of happenings. We met at Orchard, and had dinner at Shimbashi Soba. We're both VERY hungry, we talked lesser and finished our dinner in the shortest time of all the meals we had together. Then, we walked around Orchard aimlessly, and ended up in Starbucks.

I didn't celebrate much of Mid Autumn Festival. I didn't even buy the mooncakes for my colleagues like what I did last year. This year's mooncake is crazily expensive, and I think I really cannot afford. And the moon on Mid Autumn Night itself, wasn't that pretty.

Yee Hau then left me at home for a few days more than a week at home to mission trip in Nepal. He landed in Singapore on Monday evening. I thought he would definitely lost some weight but NO. But having his stories of how great Nepal is, made me feeling like going so badly.

I went for a drink with colleagues last Friday night. We rushed to Brewerkz 5 minutes before the Happy Hour ended and ordered 6 jugs of home brewed beer. And of course, as per the hungry ghost requested (me! Who else!) they ordered a little bit more finger food than what they wanted to. After that, we went to an open hall Karaoke, which was really my first time. I guess I still prefer to go the traditional Karaoke with a few good friends.

I went to Singapore Biennale on Saturday afternoon, on my own, because I don't really know who else is interested in this. I took some pictures, and I've shared the favourites in my photo blog and facebook too. There are total 3 main venues but I have only been to City Hall and South Beach Development. I guess I might be going to Marina Bay this weekend. After visiting the art exhibition, I met Jerry in Jurong Point for dinner. And since we have not shared thoughts and deep talks for centuries, we brought some beers (again!) and peanuts to my place. It's great to feel close once again.

(After reading the entry, I think I've got the sequence correct :D)

The Road Less Travelled

Today, I took a road less travelled on my own.

I found out that I was being stressed out again that I could not think and plan my work properly. I hate this feeling a lot and I told myself to get rid of it. I knocked off from office at 7pm and decided not to take the shuttle bus. I walked all the way out to Anchor Point (I normally do this on the occassion that I missed the bus), called my mom to have some talk, and had dinner.

I walked to the MRT station and took the ride back home, immersed myself in the couch and watched "Long Way Down" documentary from my beloved Ewan McGregor, love it! And after the show, I just can't stop thinking, I should go for a run.

I thought it would be some 3-5km run. However, it ended up to be approximately 9.2km run in 1 hr 10 mins. I ran all the way into NTU, a route that I have never taken for a jog, but a route that is so familiar to me. It was wonderful, that I could run 9.2km in a shot without stopping, even without water! Maybe because it's not as hot as running in the afternoon.

When I was running, the clouds in the sky were well lit by the post Mid Autumn Festival Moon. It was magnificent to have a run under such condition. I saw myself chasing my own shadow and how much I romantically wished that my shadow was crafted by the moon, but I knew it wasn't.

I feel fresh and light after the run, I'm happy for myself! I am confident, that I'm going to have a good day of working tomorrow

:D

And same goes to you!

煮饭的男人

相信大家都听过，会烧一手好饭的女人，可以绑住男人的心。可是今天薇薇要告诉大家，会煮饭的男人，会让女人要回家。

话说回来是这样的。毓豪有时候会突然间很有兴致，下班以后买菜煮饭。然后，幸福的薇薇就下班后回家吃热腾腾的饭菜（本小姐下班比较迟啦，而且工作地点比较远）。刚刚开始工作不久的时候，他还挺有兴致，一周煮饭好几次，是后来才渐渐减少了次数。

最近的他，又突然间想玩Masak Masak，下班后就煮饭。而我，想到家里有饭吃，下班时间也比较准时了（有时候，我会做到很迟才回家）。不过，反正带电脑回家，回家还可以做一些首尾工作，就会家咯！有饭吃哩，你说回不回？

煮饭有时候并不是非常省钱（看你买什么咯），只是纯粹为了好玩而煮。我偶尔周末也会玩Masak Masak，想东弄西，反正煮了什么他都得吃。哈哈哈哈！有时候，还同朋友（CS咯！）讨论怎么煮，交换心得，受不了我们。还一起去买菜，好像Aunty！哎哟！（CS的梦想是开餐厅，所以他很有心得的。以前大学也是在他那里骗吃骗喝>.<）

有饭吃的女人，下班会准时。你看？谁说厨房是女人的天地？会煮饭的男人才吃香！

Nike Human Race

We ran for Nike Human Race last Sunday at 4.30pm. What a time to start a run eh? Well, the idea of this run is a relay from one city to another, that is why, some city will have to start running at some odd hours.

I never like running back in the secondary school days. I even found ways to avoid going to PJ classes. That's me back in 10 years ago. What about now? I paid some fees to run. I ran 10km first time last year. I was "amazed" (some what) by myself, that I can actually finish it. And this year, I ran Nike Human Race for 10km (that is the only category) and I will run half marathon during the Standard Chartered.

Anyway, "runspiration" is not the main theme I wanted to share.

When I was running last week, I looked at the whole stretch of runners in front and behind me, and I immediately thought of the Christmas Island Red Crabs!

Look at this!

Note: Photos from Human Race taken by Yee Hau with his mobile phone while photos of Red Crabs Race downloaded from websites.

Specially thanks to Kia Hooi whom walked me through my Photoshop CS3 Struggle~~~

瞌睡虫

瞌睡虫悄悄的拜访我家……

已经一个星期了吧，往往早上睡不醒，最糟糕的是连闹钟都玩瞌睡，结果总是一不小心就睡迟了。还好公司上班时间还算非常宽容，偶尔九点到公司并没有什么大问题。只是，我吃早餐的时间就少了。

因为睡多了，我的眼袋好像也比较小了。嗯……或许瞌睡虫知道我该是时候消除些眼袋吧>.<

明天又是周五咯！

嘢！

飞

跳跃的心不能静止
像音符在乐谱上追逐
像被困在课室的顽童
像空中跳跃的小雪花

跳跃的心飞到很远的地方
在日本看完了樱花
在岛屿享受了阳光
在湖上思考了未来

久久未能平静
一沉不变的城市满足不了她

她的心
想飞到很远很远的地方

那个随心所欲的毛病

我那个随心所欲的毛病再次复发。

是夜，我突然有喝咖啡的冲动，苦无人陪伴，我还是义无反顾地步行到附近的咖啡馆，点了杯咖啡。很随意，在一个吵吵闹闹的地方，在人群的眼光之中，独自一个在店里的一角，翻看着书本。

咖啡，只是我想随心所欲的借口。

Wall E back in 15 Years Ago

I've just watched Wall E this week, and I adore Wall E, I wish I have one!!!

I was Youtube-ing for Wall E and look what I found! Pixar actually has Wall E for 15 years, since Toy Story!

Bad Hair DaySSSS...

My hair has been killing me softly, ever since I've decided to keep it long again.

Most of you know that I cut my hair short, as short as 3cm December last year. I was proud of the short hair, as I can sleep a little bit longer everyday, I don't have to comb my hair, I can shower 15 mins before I sleep etc. There were so many advantages.

Till...

I have to visit the saloon, every month! If I were to leave my hair to grow for 2 months, I would look as if I grow bushes on my head. On my 6th month of having super short hair, I lost my patience, and I want them to be long again.

And ever since I've made the decision to keep long hair again, I hope my hair could reach shoulder length on the next morning when I wake up. But too bad, this never happen...

It's neck length now, I hate this!

People say plants will grow faster if you talk to them and let them listen to music, I wonder what will it be if I were to do the same to my hair?

男生的粗心

刚刚过的周一，才踏出家门上班的毓豪摇电话于在房间发梦的我，说：“门口有双不知名的高跟鞋，等会东西收好才出门。”我也很听话一下，想都不想就答应。

洗了澡，我把抽屉锁好，收好钥匙，准备上班。

结果我发现，门口的那双高跟鞋，是我的。

*晕*

再见奥运！

在过去的两周，我可以说是绕着奥运而活。

最常爬的网，是北京奥运的官方网站。最常观看的电视台，是所有与奥运有关系的电台。所写的部落格，也多半与奥运有关。与同事朋友谈天说地，也在谈奥运。也因为奥运，一大群人窝在朋友家，守在电视旁支持国家队。也因为奥运，电脑中了毒。

这种作息环绕着奥运的日子，让我的生活精彩了不少。闭幕典礼以后，突然觉得似乎少了点什么。

或许平凡人的生活需要点英雄，看着运动员为国家与荣誉拼命，让平凡人多了点激励。为国家队加油，让人民多了点爱国之心。看运动员受伤失场，让人们多了点宽容。

现在北京奥运也结束了，英雄们也会渐渐在我们的日常生活中淡出。然后，在2012年，我们再回味。

让奥运精神，延续下去。

姐姐好可怜

上周末，姐姐发送短讯说要动手术。把在新加坡不知头尾的我，吓得魂飞魄散，立马就拨个电话回家，替她紧张不少。周日，她就被送进医院，进行那项小手术。

小手术没什么大碍，住了一晚就顺利回家。只是“神经过敏”的她，大痛小痛都大喊大叫，把医生护士气炸，挨骂了几次。对于这个，我非常能够了解。不知道为了什么，我们两姐妹的神经线好像都比别人多，对别人来说那小小的痛，在我们身上好像被老虎咬一样！非常的同情她，这种时候还被医生骂。

即使如此，天生有“喜剧效果”的姐姐，把整个经历都写得像笑话一样，让我在公司边看边笑，搞得同事懵喳喳，不知道为什么姐姐入院妹妹那么高兴？发送短讯再与她通话，关心她之余，还不忘把她的博客上写的事笑一下。结果她气炸，在博客上再写，说我们个个什么同情心都没有。

其实，关心的话老是说不出。看到她在博客上写的最后那句，我的眼泪就禁不住地在眼里打滚，还好同事没看见，要不然还以为我怎么了，又笑又哭的。发送短讯，她又说她打开伤口，很恐怖很痛，一个人在房间流泪，搞到我想都不想就拨电话给她。怎么知道在那方的她却大声说大声笑，搞到我也哭笑不得。

不管怎样，这就是我非常矛盾的傻姐姐。

希望她伤口快点痊愈 :D

*hugs*

刘翔因伤退赛

我傻眼了！

我如常的打开奥运会的官方网站，想看看今天刘翔跑得怎么样，却看见了这坏消息。

已经付出的努力，背负着全中国人的希望，一瞬间就消失了。我想此刻的刘翔肯定非常伤心及失望，背负了那么久的压力，好不容易等到了北京奥运的一天，可以将一切爆发的那一刻，刘翔的腿，受伤了。

我想此刻，中国人的心也是碎了吧。

我虽不是中国人，可是看见这位备受期待的运动员，在比赛的那一刻受伤了，实在觉得非常的惋惜。就这样，刘翔的奥运梦破了！

Goodbye Gold Medal...

We've nailed it once, but we lost it still...

Lee Chong Wei was defeated badly by the incredible strong opponent Lin Dan, straight set, 21-12; 21-8. Yes, I do hate Lin Dan for his forever Hao-Lian face...

But we have to accept the fact, that Lee Chong Wei is not as good as him, and the mentally preparedness is not as good too.

Maybe, we'll just have to wait for another 4 years...

100米飞毛腿

昨晚10.30pm的男子100米赛跑，无疑是整个奥运会最受瞩目的项目。来自牙买加的Usain Bolt能否再创世界纪录称为地球上跑得最快的人，成为所有人的焦点。

果然不负众望，飞毛腿以9秒69分破了自己原先的9秒72分的纪录，并且领先第二名0.2秒。Usain Bolt在起跑时稍微落后了一点，可是，他的冲刺非常的快，一瞬间就把所有参赛者抛在后头。并且，还可以在最后几十米，放慢速度，张开双臂，迎着他的金牌及荣誉。（西北浩恋！不过，他可以！）

可惜，网上仍没办法找到这9.69秒的录像，暂时没办法在这里分享。

Phelps为奥运会游泳划上完美的句点

奥运会的游泳项目，经过一周的激烈比赛， 终于落幕。想想有点可惜，好多项目都错过，还好至少看了录像。

游泳项目的焦点很自然的放在菲尔普斯身上。菲尔普斯在奥运会之前放话说把目标放在八面金牌，想破施皮茨在1972年慕尼黑的七面金牌纪录。打从游泳开始的第一天，菲尔普斯就一而再，再而三地破了一项又一项世界纪录。除了昨天一百米蝶泳险胜之外，每一枚金牌都是“轻松”夺回。

刚刚完成的颁奖仪式上，奥委会特别为了菲尔普斯颁了个特别奖，让这位泳池里的飞人一度激动。这种骄人的成绩，不知还要有多少年的努力才能再突破。菲尔普斯在颁奖仪式后，跑上观众席拥抱母亲，那一刻“菲母”肯定是世上最骄傲的母亲！

就这样，北京2008游泳项目结束了。而菲尔普斯，为北京2008添了许多精彩，成为史上最优秀的运动员。他的精彩表现，也让北京2008成为最难忘的游泳比赛！

2008费尔普斯的骄人成绩：

4x100m Individual Medley 4:07.28 WR

4x100m Freestyle Relay 3：12.23 WR

200m Freestyle 1:42.96 WR

200m Fly 1:52.03 WR

4x200m Freestyle Relay 6:58.56 WR

200m Individual Medley 1:54.23 WR

100m Fly 50.58

4x100m Medley Relay 3:29.34 WR

美国在北京2008第九天总共赢得了17面金牌，而菲尔普斯占了8面。这种荣誉，是前无古人啊！

The Phenomenal Phelps!

Phelps had just won his 8th gold in Olympic 2008!!!

The best swimmer in the history! He had won 8 gold medals in one Olympic itself, and broke 7 world records! I wonder how many years would other swimmers need to break these records. Of course, he would have to thank his relay teammates for being able to put up the good show for his 8th gold too!

The last performance of Phelps was 4x100m Medley. The USA team had put up a wonderful show for all the audiences. The first swimmer, Piersol had a good lead in 100m for backstroke. The 2nd swimmer of Japan Kitajima however overtook Hansen from USA team. That was quite a moment, if only Japan team swimmers are all equivalent fast as Kitajima, Japan could break Phelps 8 gold dream. Phelps was the 3rd swimmer for fly, he made the lead after the 50m turn and brought the lead to the last swimmer, Lezak. Lezak swam very fast, leading far ahead the Aussies and broke the world record.

There goes, the world's best swimmer in history, Michael Phelps!

8 gold medals, 7 world records!

中国体操男团夺冠

陈一冰、黄旭、李小鹏、肖钦、杨威、邹凯

这早已经不是新闻了，只是比赛当天由于工作的关系而错过了现场直播，而没办法感受到男团的厉害。多谢朋友们的介绍，好不容易找到了网上看cctv的门路，我昨天下午在cctv7看了体操男团决赛的录影。

2004年雅典奥林匹克，中国男团并未保住了金牌，同金牌擦身而过。经过四年的刻苦耐劳，他们成功捍卫中国强项之一，体操。

男团阵容：杨威、李小鹏、黄旭、陈一冰、邹凯、肖钦

这六名体操运动员在比赛中发挥得淋漓尽致，可说是百分百的比赛。虽然如此，他们的对手也不简单。美国体操好手在单杠项目的表现非常精彩，让现场观众热血沸腾。美国队员一点都不示弱，每个项目都紧紧追随中国，只不过在自由体操一项，可能是身材高大而占了下风，自由体操一项并未能表现优雅。中国男团胜在每个项目都发挥平均，无意外的捍卫着金牌。

夺金的那一刻，老将们压抑已久的情绪再也压制不住，个个泪流满脸。想象他们四年的努力肯定很不容易，才可以这样平稳的夺金。这样精彩的表演，才是中国体操男团！

李宗伟，加油！

最受瞩目的男单决赛

李宗伟 vs 林丹

李宗伟昨晚以21-18，13-21，21-13成功打败了韩国的李炫一，成功晋级决赛。在进入第二局的时候，大家都为李宗伟捏把冷汗，非常担心他会丢失了晋级决赛的好机会。再加上他疲态百出，真的非常让人担忧。还好，最后他还是拼命地把机会夺回，成功进入决赛，对决林丹。

两名世界第一和第二的对抗，想必明晚会让我们看最精彩的比赛吧！

李宗伟和林丹对打纪录如下：

06年1月22日 全英公开赛 林丹

06年6月18日 马来西亚公开赛 李宗伟

06年6月25日 中国台北公开赛 林丹

06年7月23日 澳门公开赛 林丹

06年9月2日 中国香港公开赛 林丹

07年6月14日 苏迪曼杯赛 李宗伟

07年7月15日 中国大师赛 林丹

07年9月16日 日本超级赛 李宗伟

07年12月2日 中国香港超级赛 林丹

08年3月16日 瑞士超级赛 林丹

08年5月15日 汤姆斯杯赛 李宗伟

11次对决，李宗伟胜4，林丹胜7

李宗伟的杀球有力而精准，可惜看得出来他的体力稍差，有点替他担心。林丹体力很好，身材高大，再加上主场的优势，确实占了上风。希望，李宗伟可以以最好的状态，最稳定的心理，战胜林丹，为马来西亚摘下历史性的第一面金牌。

李宗伟，让林丹再次见识你的利害吧！

后记： 林丹是第一名不讨人喜欢的中国男单。在搜寻李宗伟和林丹的照片是不小心看见了一篇部落格，更是让人觉得林丹着人格不好。还是李宗伟好！

我看羽球，我看谢顺吉

谢顺吉退休后打咖啡广告

马来西亚和羽球是篇长远的历史，而我看羽球，正从谢顺吉年代开始。可能也因为这样，我非常喜欢他。相信大马人都非常喜欢他，尤其1992年，羽球队为马来西亚摘下了汤杯，也是至今的最后一枚汤杯。

很喜欢谢顺吉和苏明强的配搭，虽然偶尔（是经常啦！）谢顺吉发脾气然后二人在场上吵架，可是总是仍可以发挥默契。

女双教练

对于谢顺吉的退休，是没办法的事，在球场上打滚了这么多年，搭档也换了不少，“年事已高”，也是时候“退役”。退休之后，谢顺吉担当起女双教练。在他的教导之下，女双进步不少，从无人问津，渐渐在大大小小的比赛都可以看见马来西亚女单女双的踪影。虽然还为至于赢得大赛的奖牌，她们的进步却让国人渐渐注意她们，再也不让男单男双独当一面。这些，谢顺吉功不可没。

可惜后来他离开了羽总。所幸的事，他仍是担当羽球教练。

谢顺吉退休后，我总是觉得男双就此失去光芒。至到古健杰和陈文宏在亚运会的精彩表现，我又觉得男双有望！当然，那是Rexy的功劳。

谢顺吉，是我的偶像！

Lee Chong Wei into Semifinal

Lee Chong Wei marched into semifinal in Men's Single. He'll be playing against Korean Lee Hyunil on 6.30pm 15/08/2008.

I am glad that he marched into semifinal without much difficulties, let's hope that he will perform at his best in semifinal, and hopefully, final!

Keep my fingers crossed!

Please give him support!!

(Ai Mei and I will be showing support by going to Ching Siang's place after work tomorrow :D)

My Heart Shattered...

My 2006 Doha Heroes

KKK & TBH lost!

My heart was pumping hard for the past half an hour, for Koo and Tan. They defeated the Indonesian first pair in Doha in 2006. I watched the game, with hope that they will win again, to defeat the world no.1 and march to their RM1million.

But, they broke the Malaysians' heart.

Koo and Tan are good players, but I think they need to improve on their mental preparation. Maybe they're just not matured enough compared to the Indon pair.

There's one thing that I must say, the 18th point from Indonesian was UNFAIR! The shuttle was out of the line!!! Heck!!! I HATE THEM!! HATE THE UMPIRE!!!

In conclusions, heart broken and shattered on the floor.

Please support our only hope, Lee Chong Wei at 11.30am tomorrow.

The Hope

Just when I thought we could celebrate Wong Choong Hann's victory against Taufik Hidayat, and expecting him to be able to march into R8 smoothly. He LOST!

I managed to catch the game of Choong Hann vs Taufik before I left home to Singapore on Monday night. It was a great match, and I'm proud of Choong Hann to be able to beat Taufik, one of the greatest player of this era. I thought I was going to blog about it when I'm free, until I found out that, he was defeated by Taiwan player, Xie Yu Xing. Never expected that! As for the previous victory, I'll just let Ying Ying do the reporting.

To think at the bright side, at least Taufik is no longer in the game. One strong enemy down!

Lee Chong Wei will have to take bigger and heavier pressure now as his teammate had failed to make his way. Chong Wei will have to defeat Sony from Indonesia so that he can march into semifinal. Based on the statistics, Chong Wei defeated Sony 4 times in total 6 times of matches againts each other. Let's hope for the best from Chong Wei! We'll always support you!!!

Lee Wan Wah & Chong Tan Fook, despite of being top 4 in the rank, had been defeated by the Korean pair last night. I have to say I'm not too disappointed, as they have not been great. Koo Keng Kiat & Tan Boon Heong on the other hand, will face the world No.1 Indonesian pair tonight 9.30pm. KKK & TBH had shocked the world in Doha, to defeat the world No. 1 pair. Can they do that again? I sure hope they will!

It's so hard to be badminton players in Malaysia, as they're always the only hope for medals.

Can they write a new page in Malaysia sports history to acheive the first gold medal after decades of participation?

Let's pray and give full support!~

World Record, Everyday?

I really wonder how he made it, to break world record, EVERYDAY ever since the swimming events of Beijing Olympic 2008 started.

Phelps had won his 5th gold medal. He's getting closer and closer to his goal, 8 gold medals in Olympic 2008. I'm looking forward to that. Not because I'm his fans, just simply a reason to celebrate a GREAT athlete of the year!

I've been following closely to the finals that he's swimming in everyday. And he never stop surprising the world with more and more records.

I wonder how would it be, if Ian Thorpe competes in this games as well. It would be such an interesting competition, wouldn't it?

Olympic 2008

Beijing Olympic 2008 had finally opened all the eyes of foreigners!

I know I can never missed opening ceremony. Hence, on Friday, I took a day leave and left Singapore on Thursday night, to make sure, on Friday 8.08pm, I'm at home. Needless to say, by now everybody should know how fantastic the opening ceremony was.

It's an important event to China, it's an important event to all the Chinese all around the world! Everybody has been waiting for years, for the 8.08pm moment. And they've made it, they've made it wonderfully. I'm so delighted!

In just 3 days, Michael Phelps had already broken Olympic and World record and of course, won his first gold medal, pushing his way to his goal 8 gold medals. Park Taehwon from Korea had surprised everybody too, by winning 400m freestyle. This 18 year old young boy has his way to go...

Michael Phelps

Park Tae-hwan

All Malaysians' had been betting all the hopes onto one person's shoulder, Lee Chong Wei. I just discovered from wikipedia that this 26 year old young man studied in Jit Sin Primary (B) just like me! :D (No wonder he's so good!) He had jut won his way to Men Singles R16 by taking down Ronald Susilo from Singapore straight set! I'm so happy for him! But he still has a long way to go...

Lee Chong Wei

恩恩长大了

我的小弟长大了，今天十六岁。

时间过得真快，偶尔回家翻看相簿，看见弟弟小时候可爱得不得了的模样，仿佛只是刚刚的过去。弟弟小时候是我的“玩具”，因为他很好奇，所以，不管想跟他玩什么，做些什么，他都“无怨无悔”的奉陪到底。

还记得我离开槟城到新加坡念书的时候，弟弟哭了。害我也哭得挺惨的。虽然青少年一个，处在叛逆时期的他，却还是很听家人的话，同我们感情还是这么的好。姐姐念大学的时候，弟弟和我就是各自的玩伴。虽然年龄相差九岁，可是一点都不影响我们像普通姐弟一样吵吵闹闹。唯一不一样的就是，我们从来都没打架。

现在他可长大了，再也不是“无怨无悔”的。可是，他还是我那可爱的弟弟！

恩恩，生日快乐！

2008年之最

这，就是2008最烂的电影！吴宇森可以拍出这种滥片，真的是不简单啊！还斗胆说是依照三国志，我呸！

本小姐并不熟读历史，还很惭愧的说一句，对三国的了解和三岁的小孩子可以相比。可是，这部电影，真的是烂到很够力！我在戏院里竟想睡觉！你说过分吗？

为什么赤壁是２００８年最烂的影片？（排名不分先后）
一、搞艺术不艺术，搞历史又不是历史，结果整套电影不伦不类。
二、角色人选有非常大的问题！金城武演诸葛亮？有没有搞错？！还有，找个日本人来演中国历史，声音也不配一下，很不专业。
三、英雄全部变狗熊！这些历史的英雄，在吴宇森的杰出导演之下，全都变成做事不认真、优柔寡断、好酒好色、没有影响力的狗熊！
四、林志玲像去色诱梁朝伟多过像饰演老婆。在梁朝伟受伤后，这老婆除了演不出焦虑，还在为他包扎伤口的时候偷吃豆腐，摸上摸下，像非礼多过像包扎伤口。
五、梁朝伟练兵途中，突然赶回家帮马接生！
六、有句对白我听了很晕：“你很有个性。”
七、中国历史片，用的全是西乐，音乐竟是出自日本人。
八、演了两个半小时，竟然还没进入主题。你可以说Ｌｏｒｄ　ｏｆ　Ｔｈｅ　Ｒｉｎｇ也是如此，不过那是一套你看完第一部马上想看第二部的电影。赤壁，恰好相反了！
九、赤壁的电影里说，曹操是为了一个女人去打的这场仗！太过分了！
十、这部电影，毁了所有好演员！（对不起，这不包括林志玲。）

之前Ｋｕｎｇ　Ｆｕ　Ｐａｎｄａ有篇小得不足以泛起涟漪的新闻，就是一位中国的艺术家，控告Ｄｒｅａｍｗｏｒｋｓ侮辱了熊猫。我觉得，这是哪位艺术家想趁机搞新闻。而这次，我希望中国的历史学家挺身站出来，控告吴宇森。真的！

吴宇森，这部电影，是为了什么？是讨好些什么？

Control...

Just as I thought I have some control over my EQ and temper, I found that I can actually control one case by one case, but not when they all come in a bundle.

I said to myself:" Loser...."

I have been putting myself with lots of negative energy lately. I bug myself for lots of negative things that had happened to me, and keep thinking about them, keep wanting to talk about them, keep defending, keep avoiding, keep protecting... I feel so helpless, as if the only way to get out of it, is to finish the episode. I hope it to be asap.

I need to get back to the normal me.

丝竹传奇

昨晚，我“有幸”被“邀请”出席一场新加坡华乐团的演奏会。为什么会被邀请呢？说来话长。本小姐有一回同伟平和文慧一起到新加坡植物公园，观赏新加坡华乐团的一场公众演出。看完演出后，我不爽，又有点吃饱没事做，就写了一封挺长的电邮於他们的宣传部。写完以后，我也忘了。反正这种电邮通常都会被遗忘在邮件箱里头。

但是，出乎意料之外，我竟然得到回复。更出乎意料的事，他们竟送我两张7月26日《丝竹传奇》的音乐会票。这让我惊讶。惊讶新加坡华乐团的宣传部，是真的有读我的电邮，还花了时间恢复我。也惊讶我不过是想发表意见，却送我票？这是鼓励我以后写更多电邮於他们吗？

奇怪哦！

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说回这场《丝竹传奇》。我想用四个字。

不知所谓

并不是我想挑剔。我知道新加坡华乐团的水平其实很高，不过，当晚的歌曲，实在是不敢恭维。除了第一首“心贤”，及最后一首“卡门”之外，其他的，我真想离场。

整场音乐会由严洁敏（二胡）及张维良（笛子）主演。除了开场的曲目为合奏曲之外，其他的都是独奏，新加坡华乐团伴奏。

第一首——心贤
这是歌颂扬培贤的一首曲。旋律简单，听了舒服。

第二首——梦幻星岛（张维良独奏）
由张维良作曲，崔权、张建配电子音乐。电子音乐！这电子音乐可怪了，所有附加的电子音乐，是敲击组可以办到的事。却偏偏加上电子音乐，然后让整组敲击组组员呆呆地坐在台上！太过分了！曲目也写得不好，听了很乱！

第三首——远古回音（张维良独奏）
同上！

第四首——痕迹之五（严洁敏独奏）
这首歌曲，是设法模拟书法家写书法的艺术。可是……
第一部：我跟毓豪说，“听起来很像王家卫的电影”
第二部：毓豪根我说，“很像恐怖片！”
第三部：我跟毓豪说，“好像有很多苍蝇”
第四部：毓豪问，“要回了没有……”难为了他。
总而言之，如果只是一幅书法，是我看都不想看的书法。

第五首——卡门（严洁敏独奏）
这首是全场最好听的歌曲。严洁敏的二胡很好听， 乐队也很配合。所以，以这首收场，可说是最好了。至少，弥补我耳朵之前所受的折磨。

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茅盾的是，之前我投诉是因为植物公园里奏的曲子，全是西乐，不伦不类得很。而这次，我最喜欢的，是西乐。

其实，为什么古典音乐要搞新颖？西方的古典乐也不是几百年来还是古典乐吗？传统有什么不好？我真的希望，他们别再搞什么创新了。

Things to Ponder

Life's been going on a very fast pace lately. I've been excusing myself way too often, from pondering things that had happened. Today, I've decided not to give this excuse to myself, and to sit down and think.

Of job
I've finally have a clearer mind of what I'm doing. Seriously for the past one year, I've been... struggling to find out where do I come in to help? It was so troubling, that I don't really know my stand. Now, I grabbed, and I hold it. It was troubling because, it feels like you're living without a purpose.

Uncertainties
There are so much uncertainties nowadays. Too much anxiety in the air to bear with. But my colleagues are right, the big fishes are changing their position but small prawns will still have to work. So don't worry.
Well, when there are so much uncertainties, you just don't really know what will turn out to be. Maybe, it's for the good. We'll never know. So, why worry?

EQ level
Kia Hooi congratulated me yesterday, for my improvement in EQ level! Yes, in one way or another, I grabbed the knot to control myself not to get crazy and stay calm when people step on my tail. An improvement to celebrate :)

So?
Well, so... now I've found the purpose, I'll have to live with the purpose. I'll remind myself from time to time.

Remind me when you catch me being lazy and procrastinating.

蚱蜢

很久都没静下来思考，总是一有空就往外跑。约朋友啦，看戏啦，追日剧啦，拍照啦，看音乐会啦，都没什么闲下来，想。

其实，没有好好地想，只不过是不敢面对，只不过是在逃避。心里知道应该面对的问题很多，应该计划的事情很多，只是一味的逃避，就可以“很快乐”的把时间拍得满满的，过得很充实的样子。只是这种多姿多彩的生活，骗得了别人却骗不了自己。难道，问题只要逃避就可以不用解决？

M. Scott Peck说得对，生活原本就是suffer。只要你意识到这个事实，你就会有勇气面对生活的一切难题。如果你觉得生活原本就是无忧无虑的，那么，你就永远想要逃避问题。这个，让我想到了蚂蚁和蚱蜢的故事。

现在的我，就是那只只想寻乐的蚱蜢。

随意

我要求很简单




我只是




想要很随意

The Dark Knight

I watched The Dark Knight on the first day it was shown on cinema. I just can't wait for another day...

It was a GREAT show!

Christian Bale was still as good as when he was in The Batman Begins. But, Heath Ledger as joker just managed to steal the whole show. He was the BEST joker ever. Of course, Christian Bale was also the best Batman ever. George Clooney was the worst...

Anyway, back to the show. I personally think that these superhero genre type of movies are improving from time to time. The movie makers realized (finally!) the importance to settle some of the problems in the movie. For example, when the Hulk bought his pants, he looked for flexible pants in the latest Incredible Hulk. Whereas in The Dark Knight, the Batman requested for a more flexible suit so that he can turn his head around! Make so much sense!

It was as dark as any batman show in the history, in fact, darker. The Joker was the scariest and most intelligent Joker I've seen in Batman. He played and fooled around with people's mind. He knows how to read mind like a psychiatrist. That made him very different from the Joker from the past, whom was only crazy for nothing. And he also managed to make you fear that Batman might have lost. (Although you know it was impossible)

Heath Ledger, the Joker

On contrast of another villain, the Two Face... was almost forgettable. He didn't get lots of scenes as Two Face, and he's not as evil as Joker. Even before Two Face became Two Face, the Mr. Nice Guy didn't plant too much of images in my mind. With Heath Ledger and Christian Bale in the movie, he just didn't get a chance to be remembered. Even the policeman was better than he was. Honestly.

I strongly recommend everyone to watch this GREAT movie because:
1. It was a GREAT Batman show!
2. The Joker was very good!
3. You're not going to see Heath Ledger in cinema anymore...